Today has been a great day so far! Paxton got here around 11, I think...and as usual he started playing on his mat that he loves so much, and ended up falling asleep, around 12:30 it was time to eat, and then change his diaper, like usual:)...then of course we play for a little bit, and then its nap time again. Right now hes just napping:) and soon he will wake up & need a diaper change & to eat....shortly after that mom or dad will be here to pick him up! I haven't had a day alone (minus Paxton, because hes easy) for quite some time. So its been really relaxing to just sit & watch tv..I caught up on my biggest loser! I do have some stuff I should be doing, but ehh what the heck, laying around seems like much more fun! Justin was supposed to go to the feild today and not come back till Friday evening, but that got cancelled YAY:) Thats always a wonderful surprise haha.
I think Im getting my period finally, after the miscarriage...its due next week sometime (well if it came a month after) so thats pretty exciting because that means my body will be back on track! I starting spotting last night and a thiny little bit this morning ...so mabye its coming. Who really knows...guess I get to sit around & wait.
I am sooo excited because we are getting taxs back on the 18th!!!!:))) We are going to put 3months extra down on the car:) and I always paid $50 extra every month! I just wish I could figure out if I paid a certain amount every month how long it would take to pay off! Maybe someday I'll come acrossed my answer...if not, I will keep keep paying my extra, knowing that I am deff saving on interest, and getting closer to the end:) Its just crazy to think that we started with a 5 year plan...and that its only been a year. We deff will not be getting another car with a lease till we are done with this one...so hopefully we can do that ASAP!:) Justin is also getting new boots (booooo) and new shoes for work with taxs....and then Im getting Sandra her babyshower gift:) && then the rest is going to into savings...which is going to put give us a lot more in savings...yay! When I think about it I get soo excitedddd!:) haha. Anyone that knows me well knows Im a bit money obessed, n having a savings means a lot to me! So watching ours build the last few months has been amazing!:)
So Me & my besttt friend were talking the other day, and we obviously live two VERY different lifes. We are both married & both have husbands in the army, we are from the same place, and have been best friends for years. But our lifes are totally different, shes going through her first deployment, and moved home for her. Shes has a 1 year old AMAZING little boy, and is pregnant with her little girl. I am married, and dealing with the whole TTC thing, Ive had two miscarriages, and want nothing more then to have a baby. But we were talking about how crazy it is that EVERYTHING in your life can be soooo perfect, and we can be SOO HAPPY, but we have that ONE thing that really takes a toll on us....and its just so crazy to thing that your life can be so amazing, and you can be so happy but one thing is holding you back from being 100000% happy. But I also think that you as hard is it is, I should realize that I am TRULY blessed, and so what if I haven't had a baby yet, I AM still young, and I DO have time....and I am so blessed to have an amazing husband that I am so in love with , great friends, THE BEST BEST FRIEND, amazing family, a roof over my head, money in the bank, husband has a steady job ..I just have so much going for me..how I can be depressed about one thing! It always takes me to the serenity prayer.<3
Thats all for now<3
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