Feeling the changes:)

My life is changing. I can feel it. For a while now I have been wanting to get closer to God. But I would pray and ask him to change me, and then I always felt nothing...I knew I wasn't trying hard enough, but I couldn't push myself to keep trying. Well Amanda invited Vicki and I to PWOC one day, and we figured we'd go just for her. What a blessing it was that we decided to go. God brings people into your life for a reason, and the reason is becoming more and more clear for me. As the days have been going on I have been praying more, I have been feeling better about myself and about my relationship with God. It's certainly not where I want it, yet anyways...but just seeing and feeling the changes are so amazing. I can't wait to keep seeing what other change he is going to make in my life.

Over the weekend, I had a pretty bad weekend. I went to the ER on Friday for an ear infection and UTI. I got meds for both of them, well that night my wonderful dog decided to get the UTI meds...I ended up calling poison control and they said to give her peroxide to make her throw up, it was awful but it worked. The next day, she got my ear drops. I felt like such an idiot. Well I found some other ear drops I had around the house and was trying them. I went to a fluffy party on Saturday, and had such a great time. I learned so much about cloth diapering and I got a TON of stuff for only $50. Which is AMAZINGLY cheap. I didn't feel good when I got home though. On Sunday I went to Church. After Church I called Walgreens to figure out what was going on with my UTI meds and to ask about the ear drops I was using. I talked to the guy and he told me I could pay out of pocket for a few days of the UTI meds until the 13th when my insurance would cover the rest. I agreed, and it was only about 13 dollars so not that bad. I asked about the ear drops -200 dollars. WHAT. Needless to say I wasn't about to pay that LOL. So I went to the ER again to tell them about my ear problems...and because I was having cramps. The doctor was actually really rude to me...and made me cry. I won't even get into that. So today I felt much better but a few friends asked what my doctor said when I called and told me I should call when I said I felt better. So I did, turns out the doctor did want to see me just to check himself. I got an ultrasound and he did a pelvic exam. He tried to listen for the heartbeat but we couldn't find it. The ultrasound was truly amazing though. Just seeing how much my child has grown in two weeks....and watching the baby moving arms and legs in there. What a miracle. We found out everything is prefect, and he gave me stronger meds because I have had a headache for the past week. I don't like taking things but honestly Im starting to get desperate.

Oh and incase anyone is wondering, my wonderful amazing husband STILL isn't smoking! I am soo proud of him. And my cussing has went down A LOT. I still slip up sometimes but its getting better. God is really helping us both!

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