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I should be waiting till tomorrow to post this, after my doctors appointment. Buttt I wanna write tonight:D

So, today I made my first 'big' baby purchase..I bought a jumperoo thingy. It was only $25 on bliss online yard sales...those things are originally 75, I couldn't pass that up. I was excited to see that it's in perfect condition:) It's weird.. baby things starting to come into the house.. makes it feel so much more real. I mean it already feels real, but you know.

I've cried a few times over really dumb things since I have been pregnant, but I knew that would happen. Im an emotional person anyways, add extra hormones to the mix and you got yourself a party. haha. The other day I had my first 'I think I'm going to die day'. Vicki and I went swimming at Annas...and the whole time I just felt like crap..I eventually started crying because I felt so sick....and then laughing because I was crying. Haha. I felt horrible the whole rest of the day, but better once I ate something. The next day was MUCH MUCH better though:) Today I was talking to my mom about how Im going to get fat, and started crying. Not even because Im going to get fat (Im seriously not worried about that), but because I can't eat anything but junk and I feel like I should be eating healthy. I cried hard for a few mins...and then again laughed at myself. When that happens its something I can't even explain -like someone is taking over my body and it's not me. It sure it fun to laugh about later though:p haha.

You know whats crazy. I have noo life at all. Before I was pregnant all I posted about was how depressed I was because I wasn't pregnant and about my miscarriages...now that Im pregnant thats all I blog about. can you say loser? haha.

Nothing has really been going on around here lately. I have been spending an awful lot of time at home because our AC in our car broke down:( And I deff don't wanna drive around in a car with no AC, screw that. We need to get it fixed....sighhhh sooooon. Oh and we had Vickis baby shower over the weekend - a lot of people backed out last min - but it was still so much fun, and we didn't really have any leftovers so it worked out perfect:D Those people missed out on a great time!

You know I can honestly say, I am the happiest I have been in a really long time. And its scary, scary because what if this pregnancy doesn't work out..I dont want to go back to being depressing and in soo much pain. Back to being jealous of every pregnant women. Thats one thing if GOD FORBID it happens that Im going to try to change....not being such a hater to pregnancy..its not their fault. No matter how much pain I am in..it is NOT on them. So hopefully if that happens I can stick to that. Just remembering that I know that SOME HOW SOMEWAY SOMEDAY I will have a child<3 ....just praying that its at the end of March and not later:))

hmm Justin wants to name our son after his dad....I like Aiden, and he SAID he liked it but now hes changing his mind...but for some reason its the only boy name that sticks with me. Aiden Lawrence...hmmm. He likes Logan too..Katies adorable little boys name:) -Logan Lawrence doesn't sound as good though, haha. We still have Alyssa Marie picked out for a girl & he doesn't wanna change that AT ALL. Although I loveee Brooklyn Rose....the only thing about Brooklyn is that I'm not that big of a fan of Brook...hmmm. haha. But I think it would be nice to put my moms name in there...which Marie is her middle name:)

Ohh I can update on Bella -I know this blog is probably so lame haha..I dont write even though I dont have crap to write about haha. Bella is getting soooo big, its kind of depressing. But then its a good thing because I wantttttt her to not be a puppy anymore haha. Everyone said to try to enjoy the puppy stage, and for the MOST part I do. But when she does things like eat most of the cookies for the shower, eat my bread...get into EVERYTHING its hard to notttt want her to grow up. haha. She gets things off the counter that I dont even know HOW she grabs haha. I love her so much, but shes such a big pain! LOL. And she stinks all the time, haha. I know its just my smells are much stronger but good lord her breath makes me wanna puke! LMAO. And her DOG smell, haha. I still give her stinky ass love though! haha. We are trying new tricks of when shes bad...spanking her butt -HARD/putting in her in the kennel. So far it SORT of seems to be working, hah. But she doesn't do anything that normal puppies don't do...I just gotta train her butt! LOL. Today she got out which is the first time in a WHILE because Justin beat her last time and made her stay in the kennel for 2 hours or so haha. This time she just ran around the yard until she was tired and then came back haha. He put her in the kennel anyways haha. In all fairness she probably wouldn't want to run like a crazy person if I would take her on walks, but Im a lazy mommy haha.

Okay Im done boring you:)<3 Kim