everything happens for a reason

I haven't posted for a little bit so I figured I'd just write.


Nothing new is really going on. Justins on leave so we have been spending A LOT time at home. Usually I would be complaining to the MAX about that, but honestly. My bed is where I feel the best, I don't feel the need to leave the house. In fact I don't want to leave the house. I used to never hang out in my room, I was always in the living room with Justin....on the computer while he would play his video games. But lately, the bed is just so much more comfortable:) 


When I first found out I was pregnant I was a little sick, like normal when I got my period...I still felt like I was going to get my period for a few days. As time went on my stomach started feeling...weird. Painful at time, I was a little worried..but I knew I never felt those things before so I was hoping it was normal. Now that Im 6 weeks...today:). The past few days I have had my stomach rolling around, its the weirdest feeling ever. Before I used to gag and then nothing...I still ate just not as much! But now as the days are passing, food doesn't sound good at all. I try EVERYTHING to think of something anything I could possibly eat! Then I try...and I gag and thats that. Its crazyyyy. Yesterday I threw up for the first time, that was soo exciting. REALLY NASTY, but so amazing. haha. Who gets excited over that? Today I woke up & didn't feel too hott, but thats the new 'normal' for me. So I didn't eat anything...just ate some lifesavor mints that Joslyn brought over --they are lifesavers, like FOR REAL lol. Then I had like a hand full of dry cereal, and within 10mins or so.....more puking! As I am you know, doing that...and my eyes are watering and Im 'crying'...and thinking THIS IS SO NASTY. I am thinking, this is probably the most amazing thing ever. I can't believe this is truly happening. Is this for real? Of course I am only 6 weeks....the HIGH RISK weeks of miscarriage end at 12...so thats 6 more weeks. Not to mention that doesn't mean ohh Im 12 weeks can't lose the baby. But Im starting to feel better everyday. And just keeping faith that GOD will take care of us<3 


I don't know if I posted about my doctors appointment yet, I can't remember. But I got an ultrasound, it was amazing. To see how much the baby had grown, in just a week! Then he decided he for sure wants to give me hormones, just in case. They are vaginal inserts..I put them in 2 twice a day. And I will keep using them for 6 more weeks! So hopefully between those and the amazing work of GOD everything out!!


We were supposed to go home this week. Doctor said it was totally safe and everything. On tuesday we packed up & hit the road. We were driving about 2 hours when the AC broke. We drove another 30mins or so to see if it would kick back on. Then when we saw it wasn't...we decided it was best to turn around. It was sooo hot in that car. Those 2 hours back were HELLLLL. My poor Bella, she looked like she was going to die by the time those 2 hours were over. She was panting soo hard...she was crying...it was really sad. I felt horrible. And as soon as we walked into the house she laid down on the floor and didn't move for a while! Poor little girl. Justin was hot, but he was okay, hes used to working outside in ACUS in this crap. Me on the other hand...idky but I was sweating like a pig..I was wearing almost no clothes. My face was BEAT red. I kept drinking a bunch of water...but it wasn't doing any good. We were a little upset about not getting to go home to Michigan..but we know that obviously that AC went out for a reason. I was really concerned with driving cross country anyways..and going on a vaction. But the doctor assured me everything was safe. Over all I am really glad we didn't make that full trip. I know I would have worried the entire time, and bed is probably the safest place for me right now. It does suck that we don't get to see every one until Christmas now...but it will just be that much better when we do see them:) 


Well, Im going to back to laying down ((Im in bed just sitting up hah))...and watching my law & order SVU!:))) Thank you NETFLIX:)))


<3 Meeee