Stressed

Ah. So over the weekend Vega attacked me, 3 times. Once on the hand, thankfully she didn't break skin. But I had to grab ice it hurt that bad. And two times in the face. The first time wasn't that bad, I didn't even put ice..but the last time. She broke skin, and it hurt. Its TINYYY, but it still hurts even today. I was already planning on getting rid of her as most everyone knows, but shes JUST too damn aggressive for me, my mom was going to take on the challenge. Well after the bite, of course she doesn't want her. I don't blame her, hell I dont even want her. So the past few days I have been calling EVERYONE trying to get SOMEONE to take her. You know, I could lie and say shes this great dog, but we can't have her for whatever reason...but then they would adopt her out, and another family would go through this. And who would she attack next time, would it be worse -probably. So Ive chose to be honest to EVERYONE, I posted ADS on craigslist, facebook, Ive called shelter after shelter. And no one wants a dog that bites. Then a friend told me maybe I could train her and then she could go to a rescue after that...sounded great. But I forgot, that stupid bite is going to follow her ass EVERYWHERE. Oh yeah, I had to freaking report it because I called to talk to animal services, and yeah. oops. So now Im suck with her till Tues, she has to stay at hom, to make sure shes not sick, shes not skin. Shes just an aggressive dog. Then I pick her up from the vet, and she puts on her lovely "Im a great dog show". They are like yeah shes marked aggressive but shes not at all.....ha. Thats what she WANTS you to think. Which scares me even more, how does she know to be so fake? When people come over who ARENT here to look at her, they see the REAL Vega that everyone is scared of. But when people are here to look at her, she puts on 'Im a great dog act'. Makes me so sick, then of course they think Im over reacting. Im not. So then everyone wants me to get her trained, which is MOREE damn money, and then see if I wanna keep her after that. I DONT. I DONT. DONT. I start talking about it and Im like yes I would love to do that.....but then I stay up all night thinking about it. And I don't. Why give her ANOTHER chance? Then I have to lock her up ANYTIME someone comes over, cuz I dont trust her. and I never will. No one was there when she attacked my face, so no one saw what I saw. PURE EVIL. I was so terrified for Justin to even go to work today, because I knew Id have to be alone with her. Then I feel horrible because we both love her soo much. Esp Justin. Butt...he even said last night its my choice because Im the one she attacked. As much as we dont want to put her down, we sort of think its best because we would feel horrible if we later found out she attacked someone else. Shes tasted blood -twice. Thats scary. If I wasn't there to stop her, she would have killed Bella already. I have talked to soo many people who say 'just put her down'. But then I have soo many people willing to help. I wish I could just find SOMEONE, ANYONE who wants her. But then I get myself worked up because I KNOW she will attack again, and if I give her away, even though by LAW it won't be on me, I feel like it will be on me. Tuesday feels like so far away, yet I have 0 answers. And Im not getting ANY CLOSER to figuring this whole thing out. Even if I got her trained, how would I know it worked? How many months do I give it? What if I have her a year and she doesn't attack, then one day she does? Do I put her down then? How many chances does she get? Shes already bitten me countless times. Not to mention my friends, my friends kids, other dogs. Ugh. Whatttt do I do!? I wish I could give the decision to someone else.