Pregnant!!

Well first off IM PREGNANT!! :DD How? I have no clue. This is first month I haven't tracked anything. I don't even know when I had sex. I mean I know about when, because Justin was only home like one weekend haha. But I was supposed to not ovulate till the 8th, he left on the 4th to go back to the field...ohhhh crap. I've been saying he left the 4th, he left the 5th. DUH the 4th was the 4th of July...that makes a little more sense haha. Well anyways, I dont know if ovulation still came a day or two earlier because my last period was WEIRD 4 days of spotting 4 days of regular cycle. That like never happens, haha. Actually the last 2 were like that. But anyways, so I didn't think I would get pregnant. Not to mention, I had a trip planning going home, so I figured if I didn't get pregnant this month no biggie. haha! okkkkkay. So much for that happening haha. 


Well anyways, how it happened lmao..So on Weds/Thurs I had cramps, and Im like ohh no the bitch is coming, haha. Well also I thought there was no way I could be pregnant so yes. Well anyways...So then all day Thurs I thought it was coming, so about 2, Im like man Im late thats weird. So I checked my tracked, and I was wronggg. I wasn't due till Friday. So Im like ohh okay. Well Thurs I was sooo hungry, and I know I only get like that when Im pregnant, and I know I wasn't soo wtf? Wrong again. Well on Tuesday I wanna say, maybe monday. I want to the doctor and they did my temp it was 98. something or another. I was like thats strange, its usually 96.something. But I didn't say anything cuz what am I going to say, haha. So Friday rollls around and I get up with Justin just to take the dog out and go back to bed...well I peed forever...I was like omfg what the hell. Meanwhile Im putting all these things together, and Im like wtf. Theres no way. So I figure, I'll give it till Noon if I dont start..and I take a crap ((LMAO)) then Im pregnant. And if Im not, Im not gonna be mad because I know its probably not possible. Hahah.  So I finally work up enough pee, cuz you know every time I need to take one of these damn things I dont have enough pee (to which I started thinking...maybe God doesn't want me to take this test!) So I dip the test in the pee, and I walk away. Because thats what I always do, but I never wait the full minutes...and I see the control line go up, because these tests and lame and it shows up first. And then slowly I see another line, Im like WTF no way. My exact words, so I start bawling, running around like a crazy person, calling Sandra over and over and over again. haha. Then I called Justin, in the same crazyness as I called sandra. Hes like OMG why are u crying, why are you freaking out, this is a GOOD THING. haha. So Im like omg idk babe, this isn't possible. This isn't happening. LMAO. So then long story short I ended up going to the TMC just to get a test and there test the line was DARK. Although, now looking it at, their lines get lighter, lame. 


Worries? Im freaking a nervous wretch. But I know thats not good, so thats why Im going to write all of this out, and stop freaking worrying! lol. Im terrified to lose another baby. But you know, my fear of never being a mother is greater then my fear of another miscarriage. So Im not giving up! You know, I pray it works out this time. But it for some reason, its not meant to be. I won't let this break me! I feel horrible though that I even THINK like that. But after telling everyone for the 3rd time I am pregnant, and loosing the last two. I think its understandable to be nervous. I know the next 12 weeks are going to be the LONGEST weeks of my life. But I also think once I see the doctor (hopefully monday) I will feel a little better!! But I always take great care of my body while Im pregnant, but this time Im going to take EXTRA care. Im not going to do much until Monday though. I was thinking, I still have 3 pregnancy tests left. Hmmm...haha. Maybe I should keep taking them to see if the line changes? lol. I know, Im a freak what can I say. haha. 


I just hope this pregnancy works out, I want to enjoy every miserable moment of it. haha. I feel sick this morning, I did the last two mornings too..I just figured it was period coming on, because thats what it feels like. Im hoping the morning sickness gets worse as the days go on though. <--Who wants morning sickness? This weird bitch! LMAO! If anyone has an suggestions ,things they have heard about to prevent MC please let me know! Id love to hear them! In the meantime Im going to do what I do, and pray like hell! I so appreciate all the prayers though, it means the world to me! Thats part of the reason I tell soo early too...is if I didn't I wouldn't have all those people praying for me! 


ohhhh EDD is about 3/28. Thats just going off one of my trackers though! Strange...Strange...Strange. haha. Yesterday I felt like it wasn't even real, today....I feel like I am more blessed then I could have ever asked for!<3 


Alright, I need to eat....PRAY PRAY PRAY PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! lol! <3