drama with the devil

I feel like blogging..I dont really have anything to say, or anything specific that is. But I am really bored so I feel the need to write.


TODAYY my very best friend Sandra is having her daughter!:) Shes actually in the hospital right now..with her husband-who got to be home on r&r for the birth! This is such a blessing, esp since he missed Seths birth. She went in at 6am this morning to be induced...so now we play the waiting game. Im sure the waiting game sucks wayyyy more for her considering shes the one there, going through the pain. But it suck for me too haha. Beind on the other side of the country, just waitttting for that text/call saying SHES HERE!!!:) haha. She said she guessed Kylee would be here around 4 (just a guess of course). Its only 1:38 there...poor girl lol. Ahh I can't wait:)


Anways...this week I have hung out with Jena & Jess everyday. And Jess & Liz twice! Must say its been an awesome week! I didn't go to coffee yesterday, just wasn't really in the mood! Instead we did a bunch of running around. I finally bought a printer, then got home to set it up & realized that I needed to get a cord, back to walmart...then back home to plug it in...and boom realized I had no paper...so then we went up to the PX lol. Its finally hooked up though...and after all that work-I found TWO coupons that I wanted, jeeze. haha, its okay! We have been saying we need to buy a printer for OVER a year! Yay for not having to use someone elses or run to the library every time I need to print something!


This weekend should be a good one! I'm going to a bbq at Jessicas tonight & tomorrow morning its up super early to do the postwide yard sale. I REALLY hope to make at least $20 lol. I dont have much, most of it is clothes & then some random junk. Jena has a bunch of things though, and she had furniture so we are going to do it at her house! This is Carahs FIRST yard sale-that shes not going to attend haha. She's visiting family but left some of her stuff for us to sell for her!:) Hopefully we can each make a little bit of money!


Two week wait is almost over. Period is due on the 2nd. Im already having all the period symptoms--which doesn't mean Im not pregnant, because I had all of these when I WAS pregnant. But who really knows. All I know is I hate the two week wait! Waiting two weeks for something I dont want to come anyways, that always comes. Ha. And then waiting two more weeks to ovulate...and then two more weeks to see if my period comes. Ohhh the vicious cycle. In all honesty its probably BEST my period DOES come this time, that way I can get into the doctors first so we can do some extensive testing to see a)whats up with this body of mine & b)why I am miscarrying at 5weeks. While I was 8weeks pregnant my first miscarriage, my baby stopped growing at 5weeks. This time my baby stopped growing at 5weeks & I miscarried right away. So whats up with the 5weeks? Hopefully Mr. Fertility will figure that out!


DRAMAAAAAA WITH THE DEVIL. You know I've said this before & I'll say it again..I used to really like drama in high school. But I think thats because I had never experienced drama like THIS. When I say drama I mean 'she was talking shit about you' -walks over to that person- 'why did u say this bitch'---'because I can'. You either got into a fist fight, yelling fight, or just didn't care. Regardless after your fist fight or yelling fight you both said what you needed to say-case closed. Moving on. It was funny, and I loved getting into arguments & fighting with girls. But here...its nothing like that. I really think this is beyond drama. People do the most fucked up things here. & last I checked if you want someone to know something you should IDK tell that person instead of making a fake profile to message someone, saying that 'someone' is talking crap about them. If you REALLY knew what you were talking about and you REALLY wanted to stay anonymous you could say 'wanna stay anonymous because dont want drama, thought you should know A is talking shit about you.' Its really not that hard. Buttt noooo you want to cause a bunch of drama because you LOVEE it even though your GROWN with TWO kids & have been married TWICE. Side note: Who really know if she will ever read this-Idk, but Im sure some how she will find out- she always does. Which is rather creepy. This girl finds out so much shit about my life its so funny to me. I used to get REALLY pissed off whenever she would say she knew whatever about my life. But it just occurred to me..I really dont care. You obviously have someone telling you about me, and good. Let them. You obviously have nothing better to do which is strange because I know why I have all the time in the world on my hands, but Im not sure why you do. Since your grown & everything. BTW I love the words you use. 'dramafest' & 'talk mad shit'...If your going to try to hide who you are, you might not want to use words that you ALWAYS use. You know, I love talking about you-your name tastes soooo good in my mouth! Telling everyone what a horrible person you are makes me feel good. You know why? Because you hurt so many of my friends. Saying their husbands cheated, beat them, my friends can't parent their kids right, this person was talking shit (when it was really all you), oh the list goes on & on. But you know what, krama is not a nice person, and shes going to get you. Using people to help you out when a good friend died ((a good friend that just a few months prior you were talking 'MAD SHIT' about)) mean while your talking crap about the person doing all those nice favors for you, watching your kids all day, buying balloons. You really are the devil aren't you. But the jokes on you now, because that last phone call we had, was the LAST time I will ever give you the time of day. I thought maybe after your miscarriage you would have grown up just a tad, but guess not. Your still into lying & twisting words. Next time you make ANOTHER facebook to send me messages saying your going to the COC, Im just going to go ahead & hit that 'block' and thats going to piss you off more then ANYTHING. Maybe you haven't gotten the hint that I DO NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FUCKING FRIEND. Maybe I should have told you like Vicki did! We haven't been friends since July. No one likes you, so just do yourself a favor & go some place else. Since your so GROWN & you have CHANGED then go find yourself some NEW 'friends' because your not getting your old ones back. No amount of sympathy is going to change that. Now I am sure somehow, someway this bitch is going to find out about this blog. & let me just say, if your the person sneaking around telling her things, go ahead because your going to anyway..but then go ahead & delete yourself. Dont worry I won't even notice Im sure, because I honestly have no clue who you are.


AGAIN, for ANYONE I hurt last summer. I'm saying sorry, again, from the bottom of my heart. To some of you, I was not even close to a friend. I thought it was OK because everyone was doing it. But thats not ok! If everyone was going to jump off a bridge I wouldn't do it, so why did I feel it was okay to do this? I dont know, but I am sorry nothing can fix or change what I did, but I can say sorry & mean it, and hope that means something to you guys!<3<3<3<3