Sudden Infant Death Syndrome (SIDS) is one of the leading causes of death among infants one month through one year of age in the United States. The National Institute of Child Health and Human Development (NICHD) defines SIDS as the sudden death of an infant under one year of age which remains unexplained after a thorough case investigation, including performance of a complete autopsy, examination of the death scene and review of the clinical history. SIDS is a diagnosis of exclusion, assigned only once all known and possible causes of death have been ruled out.
SIDS claims the lives of almost 2,500 infants in the US each year - that's nearly 7 babies every day.
SIDS is not caused by "baby shots."
SIDS deaths occur unexpectedly and quickly to apparently healthy infants, usually during periods of sleep.
SIDS is not caused by suffocation, choking, or smothering.
SIDS is not caused by child abuse or neglect.
SIDS is not contagious.
SIDS occurs in families of all races and socioeconomic levels.
SIDS cannot be predicted or prevented and can claim any baby, in spite of parents doing everything right.
Reduce The Risk
We don’t know what causes SIDS, so we cannot say how to “avoid” it, but we can provide you with the most up-to-minute guidelines for reducing the risk of SIDS and other sudden unexplained infant deaths (SUID). First and foremost, educate yourself and everyone who cares for your baby on how to reduce the risks by following these guidelines:
1. Always lay your baby to sleep face up.
Side and tummy positions are not safe; check with your doctor if your baby has breathing problems.
2. Don’t smoke while pregnant and never smoke near your infant.
While pregnant or considering pregnancy do not smoke. Never let others smoke near your baby. Smoking is a major risk factor for SIDS.
3. Don’t let your baby get too hot.
Overheating is a leading risk factor for SIDS. Dress your baby in as much or as little as you would wear. If your baby is sweating, has damp hair, or a heat rash, he or she may be too hot. Room fans have been shown to reduce the risk of SIDS. Consider using a wearable blanket or other type of sleeper instead of a blanket.
4. Lay your baby to sleep in an approved crib, on a firm mattress.
Do not let the baby sleep on soft things, like a couch, pillow, sheepskin, foam pad, or waterbed. Remove all loose bedding, stuffed animals, and pillows from crib. Crib bumpers are not recommended and can be hazardous.
5. Create a healthy lifestyle for you and your baby.
When pregnant, see your doctor often and do not use drugs or alcohol. Talk with your doctor about changes in your baby and how your baby acts.
6. If possible, breast feed your baby.
Breast feeding has been shown to reduce the risk of SIDS.
7. Offer your baby a pacifier at all sleep times.
Pacifiers have been shown to reduce the risk of SIDS.
8. Put your baby on his or her tummy to play when your baby is awake and supervised.
Make sure someone is always watching. “Tummy Time” is good for your baby because it makes neck and shoulder muscles stronger.
9. Don’t share sleep surfaces.
Adult beds, couches, and chairs are not safe for infant sleep and increase the risk of SIDS, suffocation and accidental infant death. After breast feeding put your baby back in his or her crib.
10. Share these tips with everyone who cares for your baby.
Education is the key to keeping your baby safe.
Information from http://www.cjsids.org/
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Just writing
Im stuck, and I just don't know what to do.
Its been (almost) a year since I got off birth control & we started trying to get pregnant. In the begining it was 'if it happens it happens', but I was trying the whole time (haha). I didn't ovulate at all though till Aug, which Justin wasn't here for. My cycle was still messed up from Aug/Sept & so Justin still wasn't back when I oulvated in Sept. My cycle was finally regular in Oct & I had sex durning ovulation...then Nov same thing...then boom Dec I got pregnant. So if you look it like that that, while its been a whole year, once my cycle got regular I got pregnant VERY quickly. My last pregnancy was pretty much the same thing, only I had no clue when I was ouvlating I just had sex a lot haha...I got off birth control March, and got pregnant in July. So both times pretty quickly. After the miscarrige this time I kept my regular cycle (so far). So if my cycle stays the same, and history repeats itself, its possible that I could be pregnant in the next couple months again. But then we all know that we can't predict the future. So what I am mostly stuck on is do I go ahead & make that appointment to try to get reffered off post & get help, or give it a few more months. Part of me wants off post anyways just so I can be seen & watched more closey with my next pregnancy..but another part of me knows that honestly theres nothing they can do even if they do see me early so whats the point. I do think though if I give it a few more months & nothing happens I might be mad at myself because I wasted time that I could have been getting help. But then I'm like thats stupid to get mad at, because I am so young I have a lot of years. I just dont want to go to the doctor & get fertility meds, because I honestly don't think I need them, and I really want to do this natural. But then Im sick of waiting, Ive wanted to be a mom since before I was 16...and now 2 miscarriages later, a year of trying, & years of wanting it..Im getting a little fed up I guess. I also realize that GOD WILL give me my blessing WHEN its the right time. I was talking to my mom last night, she said follow my heart...honestly, I dont know what my heart is telling me to do. Mostly I feel like it says just wait, and if I get pregnant & Im still on post just make an appointment & have them do blood work right away. I think mostly I want to just keep doing what I am doing & give it some more time...and I just have to know if it doesn't happen in a few months that I make the appointment & don't be mad at myself for not making the appointment sooner. Guess I just made up my mind, maybe later I will change my mind but idk. I kind of feel like this is the best choice.
Not much has really been going on lately..Justins been in the feild like crazy. So Ive just been hanging out with friends! This week he goes again but just for one night because of our marriage retreat. Which I am very excited about! Its on Thursday & Friday!!:) And then over the weekend I have to hurry up & pack the rest of our stuff...because we move on MONDAY! Ah its crazy in a week we move..I'm a little worried that something is going to happen & we won't be able to move....but we signed for the house so I think we are safe. Who really knows. If we go in there & they tell us they dont have a house for us, all hell will break loose! haha. Im getting so excited to start decorting our house, and Im going to make an angel garden in the backyard I can't even waitttt. Its going to be so beautiful! & Then I can go buy a welcome sign...and door mats & all this great stuff that I never cared to buy while I lived here. haha. Im deff going to start watering my grass too. Ekk I am so excited! LOL. The only thing that sucks is the $$ Im going to have to spend to do all this, but hey, its going to be worth it to make our house become our home! I also need to start looking more at washer & dryers. I found some at the PX for like 550 for both, but they are really basic ones so I'm just thinking about it for right now. Theres some rumors going around about how we may not get paid for April first...we better! LOL. Thats all Im saying. I dont really think it will happen, buttt that would suck for so many people if it did. We have savings so we could be okay till we got our back pay, but its still scary to think about. & scary for people who don't have savings. Ah, lets just hope not.
They are still telling Justin hes getting his waiver for E4 as of right now (not sure if I wrote about this yet or not), hes supposed to be getting pinned on the 1st, buttt who really knows. Its the army so we aren't getting our hopes up, but I am praying for it. So I guess we wait & see what happens!
Okay well back to my pretty little lairs marathon!:)))))
Its been (almost) a year since I got off birth control & we started trying to get pregnant. In the begining it was 'if it happens it happens', but I was trying the whole time (haha). I didn't ovulate at all though till Aug, which Justin wasn't here for. My cycle was still messed up from Aug/Sept & so Justin still wasn't back when I oulvated in Sept. My cycle was finally regular in Oct & I had sex durning ovulation...then Nov same thing...then boom Dec I got pregnant. So if you look it like that that, while its been a whole year, once my cycle got regular I got pregnant VERY quickly. My last pregnancy was pretty much the same thing, only I had no clue when I was ouvlating I just had sex a lot haha...I got off birth control March, and got pregnant in July. So both times pretty quickly. After the miscarrige this time I kept my regular cycle (so far). So if my cycle stays the same, and history repeats itself, its possible that I could be pregnant in the next couple months again. But then we all know that we can't predict the future. So what I am mostly stuck on is do I go ahead & make that appointment to try to get reffered off post & get help, or give it a few more months. Part of me wants off post anyways just so I can be seen & watched more closey with my next pregnancy..but another part of me knows that honestly theres nothing they can do even if they do see me early so whats the point. I do think though if I give it a few more months & nothing happens I might be mad at myself because I wasted time that I could have been getting help. But then I'm like thats stupid to get mad at, because I am so young I have a lot of years. I just dont want to go to the doctor & get fertility meds, because I honestly don't think I need them, and I really want to do this natural. But then Im sick of waiting, Ive wanted to be a mom since before I was 16...and now 2 miscarriages later, a year of trying, & years of wanting it..Im getting a little fed up I guess. I also realize that GOD WILL give me my blessing WHEN its the right time. I was talking to my mom last night, she said follow my heart...honestly, I dont know what my heart is telling me to do. Mostly I feel like it says just wait, and if I get pregnant & Im still on post just make an appointment & have them do blood work right away. I think mostly I want to just keep doing what I am doing & give it some more time...and I just have to know if it doesn't happen in a few months that I make the appointment & don't be mad at myself for not making the appointment sooner. Guess I just made up my mind, maybe later I will change my mind but idk. I kind of feel like this is the best choice.
Not much has really been going on lately..Justins been in the feild like crazy. So Ive just been hanging out with friends! This week he goes again but just for one night because of our marriage retreat. Which I am very excited about! Its on Thursday & Friday!!:) And then over the weekend I have to hurry up & pack the rest of our stuff...because we move on MONDAY! Ah its crazy in a week we move..I'm a little worried that something is going to happen & we won't be able to move....but we signed for the house so I think we are safe. Who really knows. If we go in there & they tell us they dont have a house for us, all hell will break loose! haha. Im getting so excited to start decorting our house, and Im going to make an angel garden in the backyard I can't even waitttt. Its going to be so beautiful! & Then I can go buy a welcome sign...and door mats & all this great stuff that I never cared to buy while I lived here. haha. Im deff going to start watering my grass too. Ekk I am so excited! LOL. The only thing that sucks is the $$ Im going to have to spend to do all this, but hey, its going to be worth it to make our house become our home! I also need to start looking more at washer & dryers. I found some at the PX for like 550 for both, but they are really basic ones so I'm just thinking about it for right now. Theres some rumors going around about how we may not get paid for April first...we better! LOL. Thats all Im saying. I dont really think it will happen, buttt that would suck for so many people if it did. We have savings so we could be okay till we got our back pay, but its still scary to think about. & scary for people who don't have savings. Ah, lets just hope not.
They are still telling Justin hes getting his waiver for E4 as of right now (not sure if I wrote about this yet or not), hes supposed to be getting pinned on the 1st, buttt who really knows. Its the army so we aren't getting our hopes up, but I am praying for it. So I guess we wait & see what happens!
Okay well back to my pretty little lairs marathon!:)))))
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Statistics: Know the facts!
Infertility is a growing issue that many couples face. It effects 6.1 million American couples. (That is 10% of American couples of childbearing age).
25% of infertile couples have more than one reason that causes their infertility
Sadly, miscarriages are a very common occurrence. Sources vary, but many estimate that approximately 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage; and some estimates are as high as 1 in 3. If you include loss that occurs before a positive pregnancy test, some estimate that 40% of all conceptions result in loss. Of the number of women who miscarry, 20 percent will suffer recurring miscarriages.
There are about 4.4 million confirmed pregnancies in the U.S. every year. 900,000 to 1 million of those end in pregnancy losses EVERY year. More than 500,000 pregnancies each year end in miscarriage (occurring during the first 20 weeks). Approximately 26,000 end in stillbirth (considered stillbirth after 20 weeks). Approximately 75% of all miscarriages occur in the first trimester. An estimated 80% of all miscarriages are single miscarriages. The vast majority of women suffering one miscarriage can expect to have a normal pregnancy next time.
Every year in the United States, there are 60,000,000 women in the childbearing years of 15-44 :
70% of these women are sexually active
64% use a form of contraception
3,000,000 use NO contraception, accounting for 47% of unplanned pregnancies
6,000,000 women deal with infertility
2,000,000 married couples are infertile
Every year in the United States:
468,988 babies are born to teenage mothers each year
11% of pregnant woman are diagnosed with Post Partum Depression
820,000 woman smoke cigarettes while pregnant
221,000 women use illicit drugs during pregnancy
757,000 woman drink alcohol while pregnant
240,000 pregnant women are subject to domestic violence
There are approximately 6 million pregnancies every year throughout the United States:
4,058,000 live births
1,995,840 pregnancy loss.
25% of infertile couples have more than one reason that causes their infertility
Sadly, miscarriages are a very common occurrence. Sources vary, but many estimate that approximately 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage; and some estimates are as high as 1 in 3. If you include loss that occurs before a positive pregnancy test, some estimate that 40% of all conceptions result in loss. Of the number of women who miscarry, 20 percent will suffer recurring miscarriages.
There are about 4.4 million confirmed pregnancies in the U.S. every year. 900,000 to 1 million of those end in pregnancy losses EVERY year. More than 500,000 pregnancies each year end in miscarriage (occurring during the first 20 weeks). Approximately 26,000 end in stillbirth (considered stillbirth after 20 weeks). Approximately 75% of all miscarriages occur in the first trimester. An estimated 80% of all miscarriages are single miscarriages. The vast majority of women suffering one miscarriage can expect to have a normal pregnancy next time.
Every year in the United States, there are 60,000,000 women in the childbearing years of 15-44 :
70% of these women are sexually active
64% use a form of contraception
3,000,000 use NO contraception, accounting for 47% of unplanned pregnancies
6,000,000 women deal with infertility
2,000,000 married couples are infertile
Every year in the United States:
468,988 babies are born to teenage mothers each year
11% of pregnant woman are diagnosed with Post Partum Depression
820,000 woman smoke cigarettes while pregnant
221,000 women use illicit drugs during pregnancy
757,000 woman drink alcohol while pregnant
240,000 pregnant women are subject to domestic violence
There are approximately 6 million pregnancies every year throughout the United States:
4,058,000 live births
1,995,840 pregnancy loss.
Prevalance of Polycystic ovary syndrome: 5-10% women of childbearing age (20-40); 30% of women have some PCOS symptoms Read more at http://www.wrongdiagnosis.com/p/pcos/stats.htm?ktrack=kcplink
Saturday, March 12, 2011
A-Z about me!
A to Z
A. AREA CODE: El Pasos area code is 915, but mine on my phone is 269
B. BED SIZE: Full
C. CHORE YOU HATE: Cleaning all together...I hate it.
D. DOG'S NAME: We don't have a dog...hopefully soon though
E. ESSENTIAL "START THE DAY!" ITEM: Umm, the bathroom haha, I always have to pee as soon as I get up!
F. FAVORITE COLOR: Pink
G. GOLD OR SILVER: Silver. or white gold.
H. HEIGHT: 5'7"
I. INSTRUMENTS YOU PLAY: haha none.
J. JOB: Im lucky, I dont work!
K. KIDS: I have 3 angels in heaven with GOD.
L. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Me & My hubby live in an apartment right now...but soon we will live on post!
N. NICKNAME: Kimmy, peanut...
M. MOM'S NAME: Rose
O. OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAY: When I was born haha.
P. PET PEEVE: People that don't realize how blessed they are.
Q. QUOTE FROM A MOVIE: "Two men asked God for rain, one man went out & bought everything he would need to prepare for the rain, the other man just sat there & kept saying, which one do you think truly beleived that God was going to send the rain?". -Facing the Giants. Most amazing movie, ever.
R. RIGHTY OR LEFTY?: Lefty.
S. SIBLINGS: One sister:) And a step brother & sister.
T. TIME YOU WAKE UP: Its different everyday.
U. UNDERWEAR: Are all different..haha.
V. VEGGIE YOU DISLIKE: Ummm..most all of them. haha.
W. WAYS/REASONS YOU ARE LATE: Idk, just random things.
X. X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Ive had teeth, my arm, my chest...who even knows what else.
Y. YUMMY FOOD YOU MAKE: Umm idk..I make lots of food.
Z. ZOO ANIMALS YOU LIKE: I absolutly love monkeys!
A. AREA CODE: El Pasos area code is 915, but mine on my phone is 269
B. BED SIZE: Full
C. CHORE YOU HATE: Cleaning all together...I hate it.
D. DOG'S NAME: We don't have a dog...hopefully soon though
E. ESSENTIAL "START THE DAY!" ITEM: Umm, the bathroom haha, I always have to pee as soon as I get up!
F. FAVORITE COLOR: Pink
G. GOLD OR SILVER: Silver. or white gold.
H. HEIGHT: 5'7"
I. INSTRUMENTS YOU PLAY: haha none.
J. JOB: Im lucky, I dont work!
K. KIDS: I have 3 angels in heaven with GOD.
L. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: Me & My hubby live in an apartment right now...but soon we will live on post!
N. NICKNAME: Kimmy, peanut...
M. MOM'S NAME: Rose
O. OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAY: When I was born haha.
P. PET PEEVE: People that don't realize how blessed they are.
Q. QUOTE FROM A MOVIE: "Two men asked God for rain, one man went out & bought everything he would need to prepare for the rain, the other man just sat there & kept saying, which one do you think truly beleived that God was going to send the rain?". -Facing the Giants. Most amazing movie, ever.
R. RIGHTY OR LEFTY?: Lefty.
S. SIBLINGS: One sister:) And a step brother & sister.
T. TIME YOU WAKE UP: Its different everyday.
U. UNDERWEAR: Are all different..haha.
V. VEGGIE YOU DISLIKE: Ummm..most all of them. haha.
W. WAYS/REASONS YOU ARE LATE: Idk, just random things.
X. X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Ive had teeth, my arm, my chest...who even knows what else.
Y. YUMMY FOOD YOU MAKE: Umm idk..I make lots of food.
Z. ZOO ANIMALS YOU LIKE: I absolutly love monkeys!
Monday, March 7, 2011
Month:)
So today I am going to blog about my month....every single month. Haha.
I suppose I will just start at my fertile week and go from there. So the week I am fertile and then at the end of the week (ish) I am ouvlating...which means I have to make sure we have sex...or else duh how am I going to get pregnant. This week is very important, gotta pay close attention to your discharge (Kind of gross I know, I know) and then you of course have to have sex all week. So then that week passes, and Im in a GREAT mood for a while. haha. then suddenly its a few days before my period should come, and course STILL feeling great beause I have a chance this could be the month, hah...so then you pay super close attn to the toilet paper (like I wasn't the rest of the month, haha) to see if theres ANY colors on there. As the days get closer I personally get really sick, have sore boobs, sometimes I break out, I start remembering my dreams (weird I know), Im starving all the time...which could all point to pregnancy...but they could also point to period...so you assume your period is coming, but theres always that hope. So the days get EVEN closer...and your getting minor cramps...and its like fuck (but then you remember, wait didn't I hear thats normal? Maybee...). haha...so then its FINALLY the day, and I personally usually start the morning, so if its afternoon & I haven't started Im like so excited to take this test tomorrow...because maybe, just maybe Im pregnant....then comes the blood! haha, so sometimes theres some tears, sometimes not...but then for about a week I am in a funk, like wtf why isn't it happening...blah blah blah...then my periods over..and then a have about a week or two (depending on my cycle that month) to think its okay, we will get it this month, so Im in a alright mood about it...and then right before my fertile week I get SUPER excited...like this is my chance..............and then, I repeat the cycle over..and over.
LMAO. Its probably not something I should laugh it, but hey, its better then sitting around being depressed...at LEAST I know I'm crazy. haha.
Right now I am waiting for Jess to come over...and we are going to Davids bridal so I can try on a dress for my cousins wedding....and then Target to get some things for her...and then I gotta run & get sandras birthday present. Justin is in the feild this week....and pretty much the whole month, minus weekends. Soo I am going to do my best to keep busy...and hope this month flys by because we finally move!:) Also..I want this week to hurry up because my wonderful period is due friday haha.
well, I better eat before Jess gets here:)
<3
I suppose I will just start at my fertile week and go from there. So the week I am fertile and then at the end of the week (ish) I am ouvlating...which means I have to make sure we have sex...or else duh how am I going to get pregnant. This week is very important, gotta pay close attention to your discharge (Kind of gross I know, I know) and then you of course have to have sex all week. So then that week passes, and Im in a GREAT mood for a while. haha. then suddenly its a few days before my period should come, and course STILL feeling great beause I have a chance this could be the month, hah...so then you pay super close attn to the toilet paper (like I wasn't the rest of the month, haha) to see if theres ANY colors on there. As the days get closer I personally get really sick, have sore boobs, sometimes I break out, I start remembering my dreams (weird I know), Im starving all the time...which could all point to pregnancy...but they could also point to period...so you assume your period is coming, but theres always that hope. So the days get EVEN closer...and your getting minor cramps...and its like fuck (but then you remember, wait didn't I hear thats normal? Maybee...). haha...so then its FINALLY the day, and I personally usually start the morning, so if its afternoon & I haven't started Im like so excited to take this test tomorrow...because maybe, just maybe Im pregnant....then comes the blood! haha, so sometimes theres some tears, sometimes not...but then for about a week I am in a funk, like wtf why isn't it happening...blah blah blah...then my periods over..and then a have about a week or two (depending on my cycle that month) to think its okay, we will get it this month, so Im in a alright mood about it...and then right before my fertile week I get SUPER excited...like this is my chance..............and then, I repeat the cycle over..and over.
LMAO. Its probably not something I should laugh it, but hey, its better then sitting around being depressed...at LEAST I know I'm crazy. haha.
Right now I am waiting for Jess to come over...and we are going to Davids bridal so I can try on a dress for my cousins wedding....and then Target to get some things for her...and then I gotta run & get sandras birthday present. Justin is in the feild this week....and pretty much the whole month, minus weekends. Soo I am going to do my best to keep busy...and hope this month flys by because we finally move!:) Also..I want this week to hurry up because my wonderful period is due friday haha.
well, I better eat before Jess gets here:)
<3
Saturday, March 5, 2011
When did I get so weird?
Inability to conceive; Unable to get pregnant
Primary infertility describes couples who have never been able to become pregnant after at least 1 year of unprotected sex (intercourse).
Secondary infertility describes couples who have been pregnant at least once, but have not been able to become pregnant again
Lots of people say you are infertile if you haven't been able to convience for a full year. So techinally I do not fit into this category, but then I believe I do...because next month (April 4th) it will have been one year since I got off birth control. While I did get pregnant, we all know I lost the baby. Plus if you read blogs of infertiles, I couldn't be more like them.
I have been reading this womens blog & her last blog was talking about how being infertile has made you weird. Well I have to say, I have become very weird. I remember a day when I didn't know what cervix mucus was, I didn't really understand how getting pregnant fully worked, I just new you needed to have sex to do it, I didn't know much about being fertile, ovulation, or implantation. I didn't understand really any of it, I kind of liked it that way. And if you have never tried to get pregnant, you probably do not understand either. & THATS OKAY. Haha. Over the past year, I have learned so much I could probably write you a book. Getting pregnant is more of science to me then anything. I learned if you don't have sex at exactly the right time of the month, you will not pregnant. & I have taught a lot of people everything I know (some owe me for getting them pregnant, just saying..they wouldn't know CRAP if it wasn't for me, haha). But if you have ever struggled with trying to get pregnant..you know exactly what I am talking about, the WEIRDNESS.
Do you remember a day when you didn't cry when someone told you they were pregnant, stare down those pregnant women & sometimes give them dirty looks, see a unwanted child and think and maybe even say 'just give her to me, you dont want her anyways' lmao. In the book one of her lines was 'you are relived to see another women carry a tampon into the bathroom'-I never thought of it, but I now am. haha, It's crazy how something like this can take over your entire life, but it can. Ive learned through her blogs that its okay to laugh at how weird we are. And rub it in our friends faces all the great stuff we still get to do that they can't because they weren't infertile, and got pregnant right away. Of course we would do anything to be in their shoes, but its kind funny to see the looks from the pregnant women when you talk about all the horrible things they are going to encounter. Or brag about all the sleep your getting, while they are pushing 3hours! ha, of course as I said Id do ANYYYYTHING to be in thier shoes, however if I can't have some fun in life, whats the point?
<3
Primary infertility describes couples who have never been able to become pregnant after at least 1 year of unprotected sex (intercourse).
Secondary infertility describes couples who have been pregnant at least once, but have not been able to become pregnant again
Lots of people say you are infertile if you haven't been able to convience for a full year. So techinally I do not fit into this category, but then I believe I do...because next month (April 4th) it will have been one year since I got off birth control. While I did get pregnant, we all know I lost the baby. Plus if you read blogs of infertiles, I couldn't be more like them.
I have been reading this womens blog & her last blog was talking about how being infertile has made you weird. Well I have to say, I have become very weird. I remember a day when I didn't know what cervix mucus was, I didn't really understand how getting pregnant fully worked, I just new you needed to have sex to do it, I didn't know much about being fertile, ovulation, or implantation. I didn't understand really any of it, I kind of liked it that way. And if you have never tried to get pregnant, you probably do not understand either. & THATS OKAY. Haha. Over the past year, I have learned so much I could probably write you a book. Getting pregnant is more of science to me then anything. I learned if you don't have sex at exactly the right time of the month, you will not pregnant. & I have taught a lot of people everything I know (some owe me for getting them pregnant, just saying..they wouldn't know CRAP if it wasn't for me, haha). But if you have ever struggled with trying to get pregnant..you know exactly what I am talking about, the WEIRDNESS.
Do you remember a day when you didn't cry when someone told you they were pregnant, stare down those pregnant women & sometimes give them dirty looks, see a unwanted child and think and maybe even say 'just give her to me, you dont want her anyways' lmao. In the book one of her lines was 'you are relived to see another women carry a tampon into the bathroom'-I never thought of it, but I now am. haha, It's crazy how something like this can take over your entire life, but it can. Ive learned through her blogs that its okay to laugh at how weird we are. And rub it in our friends faces all the great stuff we still get to do that they can't because they weren't infertile, and got pregnant right away. Of course we would do anything to be in their shoes, but its kind funny to see the looks from the pregnant women when you talk about all the horrible things they are going to encounter. Or brag about all the sleep your getting, while they are pushing 3hours! ha, of course as I said Id do ANYYYYTHING to be in thier shoes, however if I can't have some fun in life, whats the point?
<3
Friday, March 4, 2011
Don't blink.
Soo I have stuff to say & theres no point in writing a million status's and annoying people when I can write it all out on here. lmao.
For starters I'm very excited for this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) I have so many plans...I love having plans! Alsoooooooo....SUNDAY is Army wives. OMG I couldn't be more excited lol. And then MONDAY is a newwww pretty little liars. ekkkk. I love my shows haha. While I can't wait for Sunday/Monday, also sucks because Justin goes into the feild (booooo). But its only Monday-Friday so its not that big of a deal! Would rather do all these feild trainings then deployment..even though he wants to deploy...boo to that. haha.
Today I actually cleaned my house, which hasn't happened in a while...haha. I promise myself when I move into my *NEWWWW* house I will actually clean haha. I have just given up on this damn apartment. Buttt Im in such a great mood! Which is a first haha.
Even though Im a little sad...I think my period is coming! Boo. Because when I put on my calendar that I started I put the 11th but 3 days prior to that I had some spotting (really light) so I didn't count that...but if you go by that & my old 25 day cycle then Im due right now. BUTT if you go by the 11th & my cycle from every since the MC I shouldn't start for like 8more days. So I'm hoping that I'm notttt going to start at least for a few days. I really want to keep my regular cycle damn it. Its weirddd though I ovulated right when I should have....soo idk? My body is so weird. I just wish I could figure out this weird ass body, sometimes I call it a puzzle haha...getting pregnant is a puzzle I just can't figure out. Owell, someday my dreams will come true<3 & until then I get to enjoy trying every month;)
So the past week, maybe less...I have been wanting junk food SOO bad, I dont really eat that much junk food, everyone that knows me knows that. And the last couple days Ive done nothing but eat ((I do this right before the damn period comes lol)). So I went out when I went to the commisary, and I ususally don't buy junk, but I thought THIS time I WILL lol...and now I have so much and it didn't even look good..and I want fruit. Which is kind of depressing haha.Owell, it will be there when Im finally ready. haha.
So my washer & dryers at this damn apartment complex SUCKKKKKKKS. I wish I would have saved my review & not published it till after I moved out...but owell too late. But the last two times I have went to use the place ...the one right by me is closed, so I have to drive to the other one, beause its pretty far...and its taken HOURS to do it because the dryers hardly work. Its horrible, I have had to dry clothes all over my floor/chairs/table twice...booo. Its okay though because less then a MONTH & I'm FINALLY out of here..and I will have my OWN new beautiful washer & dryers. Ahhh I can't even wait. Im looking forward to spending that money, but hey in the long run, they will MORE then be worth it! Woooo.
It won't be like this for long...Whenever I am down about something I always remember that song. Because it couldn't be more true. Time flys, we have been at FT Bliss a year already, it doesn't even feel like that long. And I have had some hard times here, but you know what, those fly on by too. When I see a new mom complaining about not sleeping I always want to tell them, hun don't worry because its not going to be like this for long. & don't blink, because time goes faster then you think. I have now been with Justin for 6 years & 7months. & married for 1 year & 7months. Time flys. Feels like just yesterday we were just starting to date...& I wake up and we are married. Its amazing to me. Right now things may be a little crappy (just the pregnancy thing) but its not going to be like this forever, so I have to remember to enjoy it because its not going to be like this for long. Before I know it my life is going to change! Its crazy how fast things change in life. & I love this ..."everyday is a gift not a given right". So we have to treat it like a gift. Latley, I haven't been living, I have been worrying about saving every $$ so we don't have fun, and all this crazyness, but I don't want to look back at my life & think um what fun did I have? I want to have fun my whole life, and truly enjoy life<3 & thats exactly what I am going to do...because things change everyday.
For starters I'm very excited for this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) I have so many plans...I love having plans! Alsoooooooo....SUNDAY is Army wives. OMG I couldn't be more excited lol. And then MONDAY is a newwww pretty little liars. ekkkk. I love my shows haha. While I can't wait for Sunday/Monday, also sucks because Justin goes into the feild (booooo). But its only Monday-Friday so its not that big of a deal! Would rather do all these feild trainings then deployment..even though he wants to deploy...boo to that. haha.
Today I actually cleaned my house, which hasn't happened in a while...haha. I promise myself when I move into my *NEWWWW* house I will actually clean haha. I have just given up on this damn apartment. Buttt Im in such a great mood! Which is a first haha.
Even though Im a little sad...I think my period is coming! Boo. Because when I put on my calendar that I started I put the 11th but 3 days prior to that I had some spotting (really light) so I didn't count that...but if you go by that & my old 25 day cycle then Im due right now. BUTT if you go by the 11th & my cycle from every since the MC I shouldn't start for like 8more days. So I'm hoping that I'm notttt going to start at least for a few days. I really want to keep my regular cycle damn it. Its weirddd though I ovulated right when I should have....soo idk? My body is so weird. I just wish I could figure out this weird ass body, sometimes I call it a puzzle haha...getting pregnant is a puzzle I just can't figure out. Owell, someday my dreams will come true<3 & until then I get to enjoy trying every month;)
So the past week, maybe less...I have been wanting junk food SOO bad, I dont really eat that much junk food, everyone that knows me knows that. And the last couple days Ive done nothing but eat ((I do this right before the damn period comes lol)). So I went out when I went to the commisary, and I ususally don't buy junk, but I thought THIS time I WILL lol...and now I have so much and it didn't even look good..and I want fruit. Which is kind of depressing haha.Owell, it will be there when Im finally ready. haha.
So my washer & dryers at this damn apartment complex SUCKKKKKKKS. I wish I would have saved my review & not published it till after I moved out...but owell too late. But the last two times I have went to use the place ...the one right by me is closed, so I have to drive to the other one, beause its pretty far...and its taken HOURS to do it because the dryers hardly work. Its horrible, I have had to dry clothes all over my floor/chairs/table twice...booo. Its okay though because less then a MONTH & I'm FINALLY out of here..and I will have my OWN new beautiful washer & dryers. Ahhh I can't even wait. Im looking forward to spending that money, but hey in the long run, they will MORE then be worth it! Woooo.
It won't be like this for long...Whenever I am down about something I always remember that song. Because it couldn't be more true. Time flys, we have been at FT Bliss a year already, it doesn't even feel like that long. And I have had some hard times here, but you know what, those fly on by too. When I see a new mom complaining about not sleeping I always want to tell them, hun don't worry because its not going to be like this for long. & don't blink, because time goes faster then you think. I have now been with Justin for 6 years & 7months. & married for 1 year & 7months. Time flys. Feels like just yesterday we were just starting to date...& I wake up and we are married. Its amazing to me. Right now things may be a little crappy (just the pregnancy thing) but its not going to be like this forever, so I have to remember to enjoy it because its not going to be like this for long. Before I know it my life is going to change! Its crazy how fast things change in life. & I love this ..."everyday is a gift not a given right". So we have to treat it like a gift. Latley, I haven't been living, I have been worrying about saving every $$ so we don't have fun, and all this crazyness, but I don't want to look back at my life & think um what fun did I have? I want to have fun my whole life, and truly enjoy life<3 & thats exactly what I am going to do...because things change everyday.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Venting
VENTTTTTING something on facebook triggered this venting session, so Im starting with recent stuff that I have noticed...and Im going on to ANYTHING & EVERYTHING from my life:
I hate people that go out LOOKING FOR DRAMA. Just because someone posts something on facebook doesn't mean that everyone has to get all crazy seriously, its not a big deal. Everyone has their own opinions about everything, so whyyy does everything turn into a huge ass debate. Just grow the fuck up seriously. I hate when people want to act like they hate drama, but they cause it. So someone doesn't agree with you, thats no reason to go on starting a bunch of shit. Its not like that person was posting saying 'omg your a horrible person if you do this' nooooooo, sharing factsssss doesn't mean they were talking directly about you. Grow upppppp she was just trying to show what she learneeeeed that day, doesn't make her crazy & it doesn't mean she was calling you a bad mother if you do that.
Ever since I moved to bliss I have ment the craziest bitchs.
Everyone thinks EVERYTHING IS about them. I mean yes somethings you aren't stupid you know they were deff about you, & thats probably not right they did that, but heyyyy...Im not going to lie I've done it too. But mabye we all start acting mature and message the personly quitly & ask about it so you can talk..instead of causing drama, life would be prettier. But will that happen probably not haha.
No one says you HAVE no be friends with someone, theres not law that EVERYONE to like everyone, but I think there should be a LAW that people have to civil with eachother, haha.
Also, just because you don't get invited to things doesn't mean people don't like you. And dont cry about not being invited when you don't even talk to the person, or when you DO get invited you don't EVER go. & if I dont invite you to hang out, its the end of the world, you can pick up the phone & call me, facebook me, text me..ask ME to hang out. Shitttt. Its not that big of deal if your not invited grow the fuck up, or delete me because I dont need all that bullshit. That is deff one of my biggest problems.."omg but she didn't invite me". Okay if theres 5 of us that hang out all the time, and everyone gets invited but ONE person then YES I do think thats fucked up...but if two people wanna hang out all the time alone, without everyone else..its not a big deal. Seriously.& if you wanna hang out with them so badly why you don't ask them if you can come? Instead of getting all butthurt & crying about it.
Just because I don't talk to for you for a few days, or weeks even DOESNT mean I don't like you, or don't want to be your friend...it means that I'm busy, or I have nothing to say. I have friends back home I hardly talk to, but I KNOW when I go home to visit it will be like I never left! I dont directly go to many peoples fbs so if your not on my newsfeed Im sorry I dont think to go to your page very often. Its a fact of life. They say if your really friends with someone you don't wonder 'omg she hasn't talked to me are we still friends'...yes we are still friends. Until I tell you other wise, we are still friends. And I have even felt this way before..because I know how shit works around here, but from now on Im going to assume we are friends until you tell me otherwise, or delete my ass.
Talking shit, whyyyy talk crap about someone & then say your friends? Sorry but if you talk shit about someone behind their back, your not a friend. I understand venting, and thats totally fine. We all need to vent...however when I walk out of the room there should be nothing neg said about me, because if you have something to say you should have said it. A lot of people are like 'well I told her to her face' okay yesss, you started out telling her to her face 'hey so&so I thought that was shity' then when they leave you go on and on and on about it...you DIDNT tell her to her face. what are you talking about!
My FAVVV 'I never talk about you though' or 'yeah your the only person I have never talked about' hahahahhahaha....Really? & who do you think your kidding. Because theres other people sitting here & we know your lying haha. I don't know why we don't stand up & say "yeahhhh thats a huge lie". But we don't, we sit there & think wow. And then that nonsense builds up, like well she lied directly to her face...and then we get more & more mad.
Haha, my other fav is catching someone in a lie, we know your lying, so just fess up. We all lie, everyone does it...even if we don't mean to. Sometimes I catch myself lying & Im like wait, why did I just say that? And then I have to be like wait I lied, I dont know why I said that...sometimes u just go with it, depending on the situation. Sometimes if you told the truth about how you felt about a certain situation, you wouldn't have any friends. haha.
'I ALWAYS SPEAK MY MIND'-Mabye you do, maybe u don't...Idk. But I know I DO NOT. Lmao...with some things I really do...but A LOT of things I keep my mouth shut about, if I spoke my mind I wouldn't have many friends. & I would be known as the BIGGEST BITCH ever. Like this one certain friends- "aw Im pregnant". Me- "Really? Congrats, your going to be a horrible mother, I can tell just by looking at you with other peoples kids". I have heard people say about other people "Wow they are having a baby, thats a shock, I can't ever see them as parents....poor kid". Bahaha, now thats where someone spoke their mind, but didn't say to the persons face, probably shouldn't have came out of their mouth at all. But I for one am glad that they didn't say to her their faces. Could you imagine telling someone your pregnant & getting that response. haha. So while speaking your mind can be a good thing, it can also be an awful thing. I TRYY (its very hard) not to say things like that, but sometimes, I know as well as others, just slips right out. So Im trying to control saying things that I shouldn't out loud. I can think them all I want (and trust me I will think them) but I shouldn't say them.
The world can be a very ugly place..and when you get a bunch of wives who stay at home & do nothing all day, except hang out with friends...your going to have some drama. I wish it wasn't this way, & maybe someday it won't be...but for now..we have to deal with it. And vent bout it in blogs;)
I hate people that go out LOOKING FOR DRAMA. Just because someone posts something on facebook doesn't mean that everyone has to get all crazy seriously, its not a big deal. Everyone has their own opinions about everything, so whyyy does everything turn into a huge ass debate. Just grow the fuck up seriously. I hate when people want to act like they hate drama, but they cause it. So someone doesn't agree with you, thats no reason to go on starting a bunch of shit. Its not like that person was posting saying 'omg your a horrible person if you do this' nooooooo, sharing factsssss doesn't mean they were talking directly about you. Grow upppppp she was just trying to show what she learneeeeed that day, doesn't make her crazy & it doesn't mean she was calling you a bad mother if you do that.
Ever since I moved to bliss I have ment the craziest bitchs.
Everyone thinks EVERYTHING IS about them. I mean yes somethings you aren't stupid you know they were deff about you, & thats probably not right they did that, but heyyyy...Im not going to lie I've done it too. But mabye we all start acting mature and message the personly quitly & ask about it so you can talk..instead of causing drama, life would be prettier. But will that happen probably not haha.
No one says you HAVE no be friends with someone, theres not law that EVERYONE to like everyone, but I think there should be a LAW that people have to civil with eachother, haha.
Also, just because you don't get invited to things doesn't mean people don't like you. And dont cry about not being invited when you don't even talk to the person, or when you DO get invited you don't EVER go. & if I dont invite you to hang out, its the end of the world, you can pick up the phone & call me, facebook me, text me..ask ME to hang out. Shitttt. Its not that big of deal if your not invited grow the fuck up, or delete me because I dont need all that bullshit. That is deff one of my biggest problems.."omg but she didn't invite me". Okay if theres 5 of us that hang out all the time, and everyone gets invited but ONE person then YES I do think thats fucked up...but if two people wanna hang out all the time alone, without everyone else..its not a big deal. Seriously.& if you wanna hang out with them so badly why you don't ask them if you can come? Instead of getting all butthurt & crying about it.
Just because I don't talk to for you for a few days, or weeks even DOESNT mean I don't like you, or don't want to be your friend...it means that I'm busy, or I have nothing to say. I have friends back home I hardly talk to, but I KNOW when I go home to visit it will be like I never left! I dont directly go to many peoples fbs so if your not on my newsfeed Im sorry I dont think to go to your page very often. Its a fact of life. They say if your really friends with someone you don't wonder 'omg she hasn't talked to me are we still friends'...yes we are still friends. Until I tell you other wise, we are still friends. And I have even felt this way before..because I know how shit works around here, but from now on Im going to assume we are friends until you tell me otherwise, or delete my ass.
Talking shit, whyyyy talk crap about someone & then say your friends? Sorry but if you talk shit about someone behind their back, your not a friend. I understand venting, and thats totally fine. We all need to vent...however when I walk out of the room there should be nothing neg said about me, because if you have something to say you should have said it. A lot of people are like 'well I told her to her face' okay yesss, you started out telling her to her face 'hey so&so I thought that was shity' then when they leave you go on and on and on about it...you DIDNT tell her to her face. what are you talking about!
My FAVVV 'I never talk about you though' or 'yeah your the only person I have never talked about' hahahahhahaha....Really? & who do you think your kidding. Because theres other people sitting here & we know your lying haha. I don't know why we don't stand up & say "yeahhhh thats a huge lie". But we don't, we sit there & think wow. And then that nonsense builds up, like well she lied directly to her face...and then we get more & more mad.
Haha, my other fav is catching someone in a lie, we know your lying, so just fess up. We all lie, everyone does it...even if we don't mean to. Sometimes I catch myself lying & Im like wait, why did I just say that? And then I have to be like wait I lied, I dont know why I said that...sometimes u just go with it, depending on the situation. Sometimes if you told the truth about how you felt about a certain situation, you wouldn't have any friends. haha.
'I ALWAYS SPEAK MY MIND'-Mabye you do, maybe u don't...Idk. But I know I DO NOT. Lmao...with some things I really do...but A LOT of things I keep my mouth shut about, if I spoke my mind I wouldn't have many friends. & I would be known as the BIGGEST BITCH ever. Like this one certain friends- "aw Im pregnant". Me- "Really? Congrats, your going to be a horrible mother, I can tell just by looking at you with other peoples kids". I have heard people say about other people "Wow they are having a baby, thats a shock, I can't ever see them as parents....poor kid". Bahaha, now thats where someone spoke their mind, but didn't say to the persons face, probably shouldn't have came out of their mouth at all. But I for one am glad that they didn't say to her their faces. Could you imagine telling someone your pregnant & getting that response. haha. So while speaking your mind can be a good thing, it can also be an awful thing. I TRYY (its very hard) not to say things like that, but sometimes, I know as well as others, just slips right out. So Im trying to control saying things that I shouldn't out loud. I can think them all I want (and trust me I will think them) but I shouldn't say them.
The world can be a very ugly place..and when you get a bunch of wives who stay at home & do nothing all day, except hang out with friends...your going to have some drama. I wish it wasn't this way, & maybe someday it won't be...but for now..we have to deal with it. And vent bout it in blogs;)
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Comes in time in your life when your done caring
Its MARCH:)) Sandra's birthday month, so happy birthday month! haha<3
Latley things have been pretty good...I have my doctors appointment today to get the results of my blood work. I thought it was yesterday, haha....so I go down there & they are like umm your appointment is tomorrow..haha. Ooooops. So that appointment IS today. I couldn't be more nervous! But I know its all in Gods hands.
Yesterday Jena, Jess & I went to kohls..woo hoo I got some more clothes. I love clothes shopping, I just hate seeing the final price haha, even though I ususally save as much as I spend so thats always a plus! Yesterday I got some capris, pants & two shirts..soo cute! I wish I could go to kohls once a month to get clothes haha. If I spent money like I want to, we'd be freaking broke! So I live poor, its works! However Im about to have to spend A LOT on a washer/dyer set towards the end of this month/next month. Sucks to spend maybe 1,000 or 1,500 on them but if you think about it they are going to last 10-20years so thats very much worth it. And I told Justin I don't care if we get stuck in an apartment with no connections, we are not going to sell our babies haha.
Boo, I woke up this morning feeling great...and now suddenly I feel like Im going to throw up, its so weird (no I am not pregnant because I know thats what someone is thinking & if I was it would be way to early to be feeling sick haha). Its weird though, whenever pregnancy gets brought up, I feel sick to my stomach. I even had to hide those damn tickers that says how far along EVERYONE & there mama is, haha. I would hide everyone thats pregnant too...butt that would just be too much work lmao. Its weird though, once they give birth, I dont even care anymore..its the pregnancy part that bothers me. Kind of weird. Im working on not caring, but its going to be a long process. I also noticed that I'm only annoyed with certian people, isn't that funny? If I know someone had a miscarriage before, or tried for a while, or sometimes just if I can tell they are just so thankful for being pregnant, they don't annoy me. haha...I'm picky about who I am annoyed with, which is kind of funny. You ever talk to people that have kids and ask how long they wanted kids, or if they had an oops pregnancy, a LOT of the time they will tell you 'haha I never wanted kids, but I wouldn't change it for the world'. Sometimes I think GOD gave those people children by accident because it was meant to be, and they just didn't realize they would be amazing moms ((even though I know some that didn't want them && DEFF Shouldn't have had them! haha)). Its crazy to me how the world works. Its only a 20% chance that a women off birth control will get pregnant each month, so how are there so many 'oops babies', its crazy. Owell that is life huh! But doesn't mean I have to be ohhhh so happy for everyone. haha. Have you ever looked at someone thinking...your going to be a horrible mother..and you can tell right away, just be looking. I can ususally tell...Im ususally right too haha.
Ah there is a reason for everything....and a time in your life when just stop caring about things & stupid ass people. And when you are done trying to make things work. Im so much happier (minus the whole miscarriage thing, duh) since I started not caring..and living for myself. Its been great...I have talked to people I haven't talked to in months, and it makes me so happy! I also finally talked to my best friend, who I had missed dearly. Life is looking up! Now if March could just hurrrrry up so I could move on post!:) And Ive been hanging out with Jena & Jess soo much its awesome. & a lot of fun. So I guess its save to say....you weren't going to ditch me when the guys came home. But maybe its all the hell I gave ya about it;) LMAO.
I just realized that I have sooo many plans this weekend...& I can't wait for it all. && ARMY WIVESSSS new season come back..I can't even waitttttt. Then next week Justin goes into the field, booo. They have been doing A LOT of feild training latly..pretty much every other week they will be going, but they came home on weekends! So its not really that bad. Could MOST deff be worse! I deff love having an FRG though, they give us calendars with all the info, its so nice to know when they are doing what. We also have a marriage retreat coming up, they told Justin he might not be able to go..but hopefully all goes well & we can go. Its only thursday/friday but we get to stay in a hotel it should be awesome, so hopefully they will let us him go!!!:))
Okay, well thats enough for today..<3
Latley things have been pretty good...I have my doctors appointment today to get the results of my blood work. I thought it was yesterday, haha....so I go down there & they are like umm your appointment is tomorrow..haha. Ooooops. So that appointment IS today. I couldn't be more nervous! But I know its all in Gods hands.
Yesterday Jena, Jess & I went to kohls..woo hoo I got some more clothes. I love clothes shopping, I just hate seeing the final price haha, even though I ususally save as much as I spend so thats always a plus! Yesterday I got some capris, pants & two shirts..soo cute! I wish I could go to kohls once a month to get clothes haha. If I spent money like I want to, we'd be freaking broke! So I live poor, its works! However Im about to have to spend A LOT on a washer/dyer set towards the end of this month/next month. Sucks to spend maybe 1,000 or 1,500 on them but if you think about it they are going to last 10-20years so thats very much worth it. And I told Justin I don't care if we get stuck in an apartment with no connections, we are not going to sell our babies haha.
Boo, I woke up this morning feeling great...and now suddenly I feel like Im going to throw up, its so weird (no I am not pregnant because I know thats what someone is thinking & if I was it would be way to early to be feeling sick haha). Its weird though, whenever pregnancy gets brought up, I feel sick to my stomach. I even had to hide those damn tickers that says how far along EVERYONE & there mama is, haha. I would hide everyone thats pregnant too...butt that would just be too much work lmao. Its weird though, once they give birth, I dont even care anymore..its the pregnancy part that bothers me. Kind of weird. Im working on not caring, but its going to be a long process. I also noticed that I'm only annoyed with certian people, isn't that funny? If I know someone had a miscarriage before, or tried for a while, or sometimes just if I can tell they are just so thankful for being pregnant, they don't annoy me. haha...I'm picky about who I am annoyed with, which is kind of funny. You ever talk to people that have kids and ask how long they wanted kids, or if they had an oops pregnancy, a LOT of the time they will tell you 'haha I never wanted kids, but I wouldn't change it for the world'. Sometimes I think GOD gave those people children by accident because it was meant to be, and they just didn't realize they would be amazing moms ((even though I know some that didn't want them && DEFF Shouldn't have had them! haha)). Its crazy to me how the world works. Its only a 20% chance that a women off birth control will get pregnant each month, so how are there so many 'oops babies', its crazy. Owell that is life huh! But doesn't mean I have to be ohhhh so happy for everyone. haha. Have you ever looked at someone thinking...your going to be a horrible mother..and you can tell right away, just be looking. I can ususally tell...Im ususally right too haha.
Ah there is a reason for everything....and a time in your life when just stop caring about things & stupid ass people. And when you are done trying to make things work. Im so much happier (minus the whole miscarriage thing, duh) since I started not caring..and living for myself. Its been great...I have talked to people I haven't talked to in months, and it makes me so happy! I also finally talked to my best friend, who I had missed dearly. Life is looking up! Now if March could just hurrrrry up so I could move on post!:) And Ive been hanging out with Jena & Jess soo much its awesome. & a lot of fun. So I guess its save to say....you weren't going to ditch me when the guys came home. But maybe its all the hell I gave ya about it;) LMAO.
I just realized that I have sooo many plans this weekend...& I can't wait for it all. && ARMY WIVESSSS new season come back..I can't even waitttttt. Then next week Justin goes into the field, booo. They have been doing A LOT of feild training latly..pretty much every other week they will be going, but they came home on weekends! So its not really that bad. Could MOST deff be worse! I deff love having an FRG though, they give us calendars with all the info, its so nice to know when they are doing what. We also have a marriage retreat coming up, they told Justin he might not be able to go..but hopefully all goes well & we can go. Its only thursday/friday but we get to stay in a hotel it should be awesome, so hopefully they will let us him go!!!:))
Okay, well thats enough for today..<3
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