Its MARCH:)) Sandra's birthday month, so happy birthday month! haha<3
Latley things have been pretty good...I have my doctors appointment today to get the results of my blood work. I thought it was yesterday, haha....so I go down there & they are like umm your appointment is tomorrow..haha. Ooooops. So that appointment IS today. I couldn't be more nervous! But I know its all in Gods hands.
Yesterday Jena, Jess & I went to kohls..woo hoo I got some more clothes. I love clothes shopping, I just hate seeing the final price haha, even though I ususally save as much as I spend so thats always a plus! Yesterday I got some capris, pants & two shirts..soo cute! I wish I could go to kohls once a month to get clothes haha. If I spent money like I want to, we'd be freaking broke! So I live poor, its works! However Im about to have to spend A LOT on a washer/dyer set towards the end of this month/next month. Sucks to spend maybe 1,000 or 1,500 on them but if you think about it they are going to last 10-20years so thats very much worth it. And I told Justin I don't care if we get stuck in an apartment with no connections, we are not going to sell our babies haha.
Boo, I woke up this morning feeling great...and now suddenly I feel like Im going to throw up, its so weird (no I am not pregnant because I know thats what someone is thinking & if I was it would be way to early to be feeling sick haha). Its weird though, whenever pregnancy gets brought up, I feel sick to my stomach. I even had to hide those damn tickers that says how far along EVERYONE & there mama is, haha. I would hide everyone thats pregnant too...butt that would just be too much work lmao. Its weird though, once they give birth, I dont even care anymore..its the pregnancy part that bothers me. Kind of weird. Im working on not caring, but its going to be a long process. I also noticed that I'm only annoyed with certian people, isn't that funny? If I know someone had a miscarriage before, or tried for a while, or sometimes just if I can tell they are just so thankful for being pregnant, they don't annoy me. haha...I'm picky about who I am annoyed with, which is kind of funny. You ever talk to people that have kids and ask how long they wanted kids, or if they had an oops pregnancy, a LOT of the time they will tell you 'haha I never wanted kids, but I wouldn't change it for the world'. Sometimes I think GOD gave those people children by accident because it was meant to be, and they just didn't realize they would be amazing moms ((even though I know some that didn't want them && DEFF Shouldn't have had them! haha)). Its crazy to me how the world works. Its only a 20% chance that a women off birth control will get pregnant each month, so how are there so many 'oops babies', its crazy. Owell that is life huh! But doesn't mean I have to be ohhhh so happy for everyone. haha. Have you ever looked at someone thinking...your going to be a horrible mother..and you can tell right away, just be looking. I can ususally tell...Im ususally right too haha.
Ah there is a reason for everything....and a time in your life when just stop caring about things & stupid ass people. And when you are done trying to make things work. Im so much happier (minus the whole miscarriage thing, duh) since I started not caring..and living for myself. Its been great...I have talked to people I haven't talked to in months, and it makes me so happy! I also finally talked to my best friend, who I had missed dearly. Life is looking up! Now if March could just hurrrrry up so I could move on post!:) And Ive been hanging out with Jena & Jess soo much its awesome. & a lot of fun. So I guess its save to say....you weren't going to ditch me when the guys came home. But maybe its all the hell I gave ya about it;) LMAO.
I just realized that I have sooo many plans this weekend...& I can't wait for it all. && ARMY WIVESSSS new season come back..I can't even waitttttt. Then next week Justin goes into the field, booo. They have been doing A LOT of feild training latly..pretty much every other week they will be going, but they came home on weekends! So its not really that bad. Could MOST deff be worse! I deff love having an FRG though, they give us calendars with all the info, its so nice to know when they are doing what. We also have a marriage retreat coming up, they told Justin he might not be able to go..but hopefully all goes well & we can go. Its only thursday/friday but we get to stay in a hotel it should be awesome, so hopefully they will let us him go!!!:))
Okay, well thats enough for today..<3
No comments:
Post a Comment