Tuesday, January 11, 2011

My body....

Hello:)
   Today Im going to talk about something that drives me crazy...MY BODY. There is always something wrong with me...Im always in some sort of pain. Im starting to get to know my body a lot better considering I am trying to get pregnant....and have been for 9months. My periods finally started getting regular in Sept/Oct...but ever since my body is taught me to know when my period is coming.. by giving me cramps, sore breasts, heartburn, remembering my dreams, making me feel sick, needing to eat all the time, and my personal favorite...acne. However, its really annoying because I have all of these things, which happen to all be signs of pregnancy..so if my period is late and Im having all the same signs, how am I supposed to know if I am pregnant or not? I know I know just take a test...well taking a test every month get annoying, seeing a negative sign, its well depressing. Right now, Im late..I was supposed to start on the 9th.. my tracker says that I would finaly be able to tell today, well its 95+% that it would show up. But I took a test yesterday, it was negative, so I guess my question is, if I was pregnant-which IM SURE Im not..why wouldn't the test have showed yesterday, and if Im not, why all of a sudden is my period late? A lot of girls say that they were surpised when they found out they were pregnant because they really felt like thier period was coming...and then it just didn't. Last time, I didn't feel like that at all, nor did I have any side effects, in fact I only took a pregnancy test because I wanted to stop trying (I was 16, another story for another time...I ended up having a misscarriage) and wanted to get the test out of the house. I must say this trying to get pregnant thing, is like a puzzle that I just can't figure out. I realize that everything happens for a reason, and that God will give me a child when we are ready....but ahhhh. Also, I swear I am so unhealthy, and its not even that I eat that bad...because I really don't. But my body is always in pain, having an ache..something. I really think I need to start working out again, I felt so much better when I was. My headaches ((I get them a LOT) slowed down a lot when I was eating 100% better..I really need to go all heathly all the way...I should work out, but Im not going to say Im going to do that, because I probably won't. I dont drink pop, so its not like I can cut back on that, because all I drink is water....because I love it so much:). This past month I have been in Michigan, and have been eating horrible...but next Weds I will be back home & it looks like its back to normal...back to cooking dinner all the time...and eating better. Hopefully I can stick to it, and make myself healthier. Im also always sick...always, always always...its so annoying. My best friend says they need a machine to put people in to see every single thing that is wrong with them so they can take care of it.....I couldn't agree more! haha. I'd be the first in line haha. I feel like I am the only person in the world that goes through these struggles with my body. Although. Im sure Im not....

2 comments:

  1. OMG i used to say the same thing about the machine!! When my Grandma would get sick & then things with my Dad, i always said i wish i could just go to the dr & have every test ran on me to check EVERYTHING. lol i still wish i could haha

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  2. Haha Megan, I just saw this comment! and LMAO they neeeeed to damn it!

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