Look out world tomorrow Alyssa will be FULL TERM -37 weeks! What an amazing accomplishment. I can honestly say there have been so many times in this pregnancy ((and before this one)) that I never thought those words would come out to of my month. I am 36 weeks 6 days pregnant, big belly, pretty much ANY symptom you can think of Ive fought with, her room is set up, the house is ready, Ive had two amazing baby showers.......and now, it finally seems like I am going to get to be a real mom. I can't wait to hold her in my arms...it has been 5 years 7 months since my first miscarriage, and Ive wanted a baby more then anything in the world ever sense...so for this to finally seem real..its the best feeling in the entire world for me right now. I know I only have 3 weeks left, but to those people who don't understand why 3 weeks feels like an eternity -put yourself in my shoes. I have been waiting over years for this...
The last couple weeks have seemed to DRAGGG on I must say haha. Some people are bugging me to hurry up and start doing everything to try to have her, while others are saying noo wait the longer the better. I personally feel like once 38 weeks hits Im doing everything to try to go into labor. But for now Im just kind of doing whatever..she will come when she's ready anyways! I have been having lots of contractions and the past few days Ive been having stronger ones..but only a few a day so deff not any where near labor! I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, Im wondering what he will do and if he will check me. Im kind of sort of suppose to be on bed rest, but its not real bed rest its just take it easy bed rest. I still go out but Im sitting the entire time Im out so really whats the point of staying home!
Some of you will be very happy to know that karma has gotten me...again. First Ill explain something though..It seems like every time I judge someone or get annoyed or whatever karma comes at me in full force, BUT I am different than I was when I was younger -and different then most people. When it happens I fully realize its karma, or God teaching me a lesson and I take it just like that! Helps for me to not be so miserable;) Also helps make me a better person! Now mind you, I STILL hate when people complain about their pregnancy on Facebook because seriously so many people would die to have what you have so shut up and be thankful! BUTTT I used to always say 'gosh people are so annoying Im sure its painful but shut up about it an be thankful'. WELLLLLL folks my pregnancy IS painful, like really painful..! haha And yes I want to meet Alyssa but I also want her out because she's hurting her poor momma! BUTTT I am still thankful, and whenever I feel like Im dying I just think about all of those people who would kill to have this...and how I could not be pregnant at all, or could have lost her...and it cheers me right up! BUTT I will be honest, I can see how someone who never went through an loss or isn't close to someone who has, or who can't get pregnant wouldn't think about that. They would just simply be thinking Im dying here wtf..and complain. Soo I even though I still find it really annoying, I can be a LITTLE more open to the idea...I still think people should be thankful though lol.
As for Bella -Im proud to say that my ghetto fence with bricks, sand bags & rocks lined up IS WORKING!!!!:D When we first put it all together I would catch them trying to get out and say no...but now I think they have finally figured out they aren't getting out haha. I also noticed since I have been paying much more attn to her that I don't think she actually liked being outside all the day every day. I assumed she did because she always looked so happy out there, but now I am noticing she will come to the gate & just stand there. So I decided when she goes to the gate that means she wants to come in, and I bring her in..if she wants to go back out a little bit later she will cry & let me know. But for the most part she plays out there an hour or two and is ready to come back inside. I still don't leave her outside when Im not home, and I don't think I ever will. I was going to yesterday while I ran Vicki home, but as I was pulling out Justin pulled up THANK GOD! lol. She now has free roam of the house while we are gone, I just make sure everything is picked up & move the trash can into the bathroom. The trash is really the only thing I am worried about because she tries to get into that while Im home sometimes. We can leave pretty much anything on the floor & she won't chew it. Sometimes she does go into Alyssas room and steal her little toys though lol. I just take them away and say no..I think its because they are on her level (the ones in the bathtub that I have no clue what to do with till I get a cubby haha) so she thinks they are hers, she's only done that a few times though:)
Justin & I are doing amazing, we are just getting ready to be parents -woah. He is terrified, I always ask if he's getting excited and he ALWAYS says he's terrified first haha. I know he will be great, he's just gotta calm down lol. He's been super sweet lately and helping a lot. The other day he offered to rub my feet, it felt amazing lol. We got our car detail cleaned earlier this week, because it was nasty & everyone at work told him he couldn't put a baby in that thing haha. one SGT told him it seems like a farm! hahahaha. As for work Justin graduated WLC -SO proud of him!!<3 He won't be making SGT April 1st like we hoped, points went too high! But I am still proud of him regardless..they are talking about making him a CPL..anyone who knows army talk knows that means he gets to go SGTS work with SPC pay...nice. No one wants that rank, but I take it like this --yes its not extra money but its another rank & its something to be proud of! Even if he will get the shitty jobs:P Hopefully points will lower next month and he will make Sgt so he won't be CPL long, if at all:P Gosh I am so proud off him!!!!<3<3<3
All in all everything is going great, just praying that things stay this way! You never know with life!
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