I haven't had a drama blog in a while!

I'm so over drama at Ft. Bliss. A while had went by with none, and then suddenly boom drama. I dont know why people feel the need to lie about things, if you want to say the TRUTH fine..but don't go fucking lying. The only reason someone should feel the need to lie is because they want to make themselves look better. Dude, grow up. No one cares what you have to say. I'm pissed though, I opened up my house to this bitch, and this is what she does? Lieeee...and talk shit. And Im pissed too because I could have just let it pass and said fuck it, who cares if the other person talked shit about me...but nooo Kim can't let shit go without getting to the truth. Whatever.

New rule: I don't give a fuck. If you don't want to be my friend, byeeee. I have plenty of amazing friends that don't talk shit about me behind my back. Which is why I didn't find it hard at all to block & delete this person. I can be civil if they were at an event Im at...(which will never happen). Buttt if it was. I just wouldn't talk to her, who cares.

I am so glad Im about to have a baby, so I can use the excuse I don't have time for this bullshit. Im so over explaining myself to people, I feel like Im always defending myself & no one believes me anyways. So why bother? I might as well say 'Well you don't believe me so sure I said it'. I will never understand why people say things OUT LOUD in a group full of people but then when confronted lie out their ass. Or get pissed off, umm you said it? So why are you mad that it got out? I have changed so much since last year...I have LEARNED to keep my mouth shut around certain people. Of course when this girl was saying 'your friend was saying this, this, this oh and this about you' I wanted to BLOWWW UP...I wanted to say soo much, I was soo pissed off. Instead I said 'Oh thats awesome to know that she talked shit about me, I guess she really doesn't want to be my friend at all. O-well Im not going to let it bother me'. <--ohh it bothered me. But you never would have known at the party because I wasn't going to allow it to happen. But of course, saying the right things don't matter because people just get pissed that you didn't feed into their bullshit and make stuff up anyways. Even so, I still know in my HEART what I said..and that makes me so proud because I could have off the deep end...but instead I kept my cool. Thats great for me..*pats self on the back* because that doesn't happen often haha.

Oh, and Im not going to fucking SAY this again. NEVERRR ONCE did I make fun of someone for a miscarriage. NEVER. NEVER. NEVER.  NOT ONEEEE PERSON MY ENTIRE LIFE. And if you think I did, you need to grow some fucking balls and say it to my face. Because this is like the millionth time this shit has been brought up. Did I make fun of her for being pregnant, yessss we had jokes at her expense. But when I found out she lost the baby, I felt HORRIBLE FOR HER. Because I KNOWWW what that feels like. Do I hate the bitch, very much. But that doesn't mean I don't share her pain on that level. I would never make fun of someone for having a miscarriage. And Im sick of people fucking saying that. And they obviously can't say it to my face..sooo yeah. It just pisses me off because a BESTT FRIEND told me this one girl was talking shit about me for something totally stupid about my pregnancy...and in the same sentence of me making fun of HER for something linking to that...Im like yeah Im pissed but I really hope she stays pregnant this time, Im praying for her to stay pregnant. Because I wouldn't wish that on my worse enemy. Talk shit about all day, and Ill talk shit about you back....but Id never wish bad upon you for having a miscarriage. and Id be there for you if you had one. Because I just can't turn my back on someone for that, I know how lonely it can be..and I want EVERYONE (even stupid whores) to know that they aren't alone! This pisses me off more then ever because I have been around A FEW people who have said things bout people deserving everything the get, or GOD punishing them...and it makes me sick to my stomach because is that why I lost my babies? No thats not...but if you think that about them you probably think that about me. So yeah I want to throw up when someone says anything rude about someone having a miscarriage.

I'm so over caring seriously. I'm going to turn into a bitch who doesn't care. :) I know I say this all the time, but I have had enough. People are always going to lie...they will go out of their way to talk shit about you, instead of being like 'hey I heard this, it hurts was that true'. Even if they LIE their assssss off..at least you tried to get down to the bottom of it...although it doesn't matter...I tell the truth & people still don't believe me -so fuck it:D

And this ends my bitchy blog about people:D