Yesterday I got some AMAZING NEWS. I went to OB sick call & they told me my levels are 10, 587! They have never been that high...its an amazing feeling it really is. Earlier that morning I had taken my vitamins and I gaged soo bad, I almost threw up. It great:) My boobs are still super sore, and my nipples are weird as can be. My friends told me I looked a little pudgy yesterday, it was awesome. Im hungry & tried 24/7, its crazy, haha. I am so happy, yet I am so scared. I feel like I can't even be super excited about this pregnancy, because Im waiting to wipe and find blood. I talked to a friend this morning, whose been through this...she said its normal, and I'll probably worry my entire pregnancy. Which honestly, makes me feel better because I was starting to think there was something wrong with me! Im not over here hardcore stressing or anything...it's just in the back of my mind. I keep praying to GOD begging him to keep this baby, and not let me go through that pain again. Telling him if I have to, to wrap his arms around me & not let it shake my faith. And thanking him over and over again for this miracle.
Everyone is always giving advice some amazing, some awful. I even deleted two girls off my page because I felt their comments were bitchy, and they were annoying me. Reading their comments got me REALLY MAD, I dont need that. So I deleted them -I must say I feel sooo much better now. I just hate when people act like they know what Im going through. You don't! Talk to me when you have wanted to be a mom as long as you can remember. Talk to me when you have to grow up at 16 because you lost a baby. Then couldn't get pregnant for YEARS after because you were too young. Then you finally are able to start trying and it takes 9 months, (which isn't long at all) and you only know your pregnant 5 days and you lose the baby. Then it takes another 7 months (again not long at all) ...when you go through that, you let me know! We will talk! In the meantime, I'll take my doctors advice:)
So I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday...sooo tuesday could you uh hurry up? haha. I dont know whats going to happen, I assume more blood work...probably an ultrasound! Talk about everything. I'm really excited....really nervous lol!
BELLAAA BEAN -Gosh, shes such a pain! I love her, haha. Shes always into everything. She makes this house SUCH A MESS...and I just look around and laugh because who know one dog could make such a mess, haha. Shes SPOILED TOO. I can't help it! haha...shes adorable. Last night I went into the bedroom to watch law and order at like 6 or something...and she just followed me and laid with me all night. I ended up falling asleep pretty early. And she just stayed in there with me. She follows me everywhere. Its adorable! I don't think I could ever leave her to go on vacation or anything , she'd probably have heart attack haha. I seriously am really thankful for her though, I can honestly say I look and her and Im like wow I freaking love you so much! haha. She most deff keeps me on my toes thats for sure!
LEAVEEEE: Wellllll Justin did CQ last night...so he has today off!:D Woo...which means his leave starts today...and he has I think he counted 17 days off now!:) Pretty awesome. We aren't going to do much of anything Im sure. He only took leave days because they told him he had too. Then we were like well lets just go home...but now since we can't Im sure we will just be spending time together. It sucks we aren't going home, we were really looking forward to seeing everyone...but hey its just going to make Christmas ever more special<3 And seriously, have a baby or go on vacation? -Easiest decision I have ever had to make.
Well, thats pretty much whats new with me! I think Bella & I are going to sneak back in bed with Justin, Im getting tired again:)<3
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