recap 2011

I'm going to attempt to recap 2011.

January: I started the new year with my mom, sister, Sandra, Seth & the Tortorich's. :) Of course my birthday is on the 9th:) Sandra, mom, Vicki & I celebrated my 21st birthday at the casino! My period was due ON my birthday so I planned to have just one drink at home (we went to the casino the weekend after) once my period came, because I just knew the damn thing was going to show. Well I was in for a huge surprise when my period was late. I tested on Monday the 10th and apparently didn't give the test long enough because I got a BFN. Sandra came over on the 11th and made me take another test so she took a test just to make sure they really work (she was pregnant with Kylee), as we were throwing hers away we found mine from the day before..with a BFP on it. I took another test & sure enough I WAS pregnant. We jumped up & down like crazy people, I bawled like a baby & called, texted & facebooked EVERYONE! I got to celebrate till Jan 15th when I suddenly started bleeding, I knew what was happening so I had my sister rush me to the ER where they checked levels. My levels were very low & they told me to go back in a few days, but I already knew what was happening. The very next day was Seths 1st birthday party -which was the reason I stayed in MI so much longer last year. Levi couldn't be there due to deployment so I really wanted to be there for her. I sucked up the tears & went to his birthday party, because there was no way I was missing it. The 17th I just spent in bed, pretty much crying all day. I went back to the ER on the 18th -Seths actual birthday. It was confirmed that I had lost the baby. My world came crashing down.

Feb- Umm...valentines day? Idk, I spend a lot of Feb depressed, well pretty much till July haha.

March -Wooo hoo -March was THE MONTH -we were getting out of that NASTY apartment. I was planning on moving into high vista apartments. But then Amanda told me to try to talk to housing & get a house, since we had been waiting a year! By george they had a house for us! Only problem, we couldn't move until after our lease was already up, so we got stuck paying WAY To much for an extra month in that crap hole. It ended up being beyond worth it though, I LOVE living on post! I think we ended up leaving late March/early April..Im not exactly sure. But it was the biggest blessing!!<3

April -Easter...thats about it lol. We spend the day with friends, and I got to host in my NEW house:)))<3

May- My mom & sister came to visit. We had a ton of fun, and I hated to see them go! I also got the dogs in May:) I had been thinking about getting a dog for a while, Justin kept saying no. So I borrowed my friends dog & told him she was ours (haha) -he did NOT think it was funny but we kept the dog over night & it made him realize we wanted a dog. The next day or so Jena & I went to the humane society to find me a dog! I fell in love with so many, but there wasn't one that caught me eye. Justin wanted a bulldog and while we were looking we found the perfect bulldog, he was soo cute. Justin was taking 10 years to text back if he wanted the dog or not, and besides the dog had a collar with tags & everything so we assumed he had a home. They said we could adopt him, but if his family came for him in the time frame we would have to get or money back or get another dog. I ended up leaving & going back less then 30mins later..someone had already grabbed that dog! So Justin & I went back later & he went to ask about the dog, just in case...and they said no. So they took him to BELLA. They said they had the perfect dog for us, and that she was a boxer. They went on to tell us about her....and then I asked when her 'day' was..they said tomorrow. (mind you they were having a special for half off dogs, so Im sure she would have gotten adopted) I couldnt say no! So it was set she was the baby we were taking home! Justin then walked around & found Vega...I kept saying no and he wanted to trade Bella for Vega and I said no way, I was already too in love. We ended up getting Vega.. We left that day & couldn't pick up the dogs for a few days...meanwhile I picked up my mom & sister. The next day we picked up Bella:) it was amazing...then we got Vega woah she was SO scary once we got her home. I tried to understand, but I was terrified. 2 or 3 days later Bella wound up in the hospital with parvo=( It was horrible & I thought she was going to die. We managed to save her, and it was amazing. The whole time my mom & sister were here we spend time doing things around texas, visiting white sands, hiking up the mts & going on the tram.

June -Justin did some lame field time..which didn't end till the middle of July. Our stinking laptop crashed...so I went a couple weeks without a laptop but then I finally caved & got a new laptop. Woooo, I got a mac...&& boy do I love this thing! Best decision ever!

July -July 4th weekend=best weekend ever.Although I didn't realize it was going to be such a great weekend till a few weeks later! Yessss people -Im talking about the weekend I got pregnant with my Alyssa (the 5th to be exact, haha). I thought for sure there was no way I would be pregnant because I ovulated a few days after he left and since I had sex ON ovulation & never got pregnant it deff wasn't happening when I couldnt even have sex ON it. July 22nd -My period was due, I was sure it was coming but for some reason I got it stuck in my head that I HAD to test that day because it was a friday & if I DIDNT test then I wouldn't be able to go to the doctors that day & I wouldn't get my progesterone...I got myself all crazy then was like dude calm down your NOT pregnant...so I tested anyways when 12:30 hit n I still wasn't pregnant (besides I was supposed to swim that day). To my BIG HUGE surprise...I was freaking pregnant. First person I called was Sandra -freaking the hell out. I left her a message crying telling her call me back asap it was an emergency. She called right back, scared to death. Then I called Justin crying my eyes out, he had to calm me down AGAIN. Telling me this was a good thing (duh, haha). Then I called my mom...who had to calm me down- again! Lynnelle (yeaahh I know) was who I had plans with so I told her I couldn't go swimming and might need a ride to the doctors (who btw work half days on friday, oops haha). She took me to the TMC where they gave me another test, and told me I was deff pregnant. I felt like I was on cloud nine, but I was also so terrified this would be our third miscarriage. Justin & I went to dinner at carinos to celebrate! I spend the rest of the weekend on the couch, scared to death to move. My doctor was out of town -go figure. So I went in monday for blood work....Tues I started spotting -I thought for sure it was over, even though it was VERY VERY VERY light & nothing like how my previous two miscarriages were I was scared to death. The doctors office told me to to the this other doctors office so Liz (bless her heart) took me down there...they didn't even see me & said to go to the hospital... I went and spent a few hours there. The spotting stopped, but they did an ultrasound (I begged). I got the see the flicker of my beautiful baby, it was the most amazing feeling in the entire world! My levels were outstanding, but they wanted me to get them re-checked in a few days. So I went to OB sickcall on post, where I was told I don't have a referral for pregnancy & she didn't really know what to do since it was confirmed I was pregnant OFF post and she didn't know my numbers so she wouldn't be able to tell me if they doubled..I told her I knew them & so if she could just tell me the numbers I would know. She said we would 'confirm' pregnancy. She called with the results and YESSS they were great. Thank God! She then told me since I already had a doctor off post she would help me stay off post, and she did!<3 Ohhhh -we also gave Vega to someone else this month....after she attacked my face! (I dont miss her at all lol)

Aug -the 2nd was my first ultrasound with my doctor! Justin got to go because he was on leave:) I got my first picture of our daughter. We planned to leave for MI that day, and so right after my appointment giving us permission to go home...we put everything in the car & got Bella ready to go. We got about 2 hours or so when the AC blew out -we turned back around once we realized it wasn't getting fixed & there was no way we were driving the rest of the way with no AC. Justin turned OLD on the 4th, haha -Jk hes 23 now:)) The rest of Aug was spent going to the doctor, getting checked, ultrasounds & trying not to freak out about every little pregnancy sign!

Sept- I made it out of the first trimester though -which was the biggest success for us & we were sooo thankful! We celebrated our 7 years together on the 3rd & then 2 years married on the 26th!<3<3 I love that man so stinking much!!<33

Oct- Justin was leaving for the field & was going to miss finding out the sex. So we decided to go ahead & try the free college at 15weeks6days (Oct 13th) just to see if MAYBE they could see something and Justin could possibly be there, but if not at least he'd get to see the baby:) That was the day we found out Alyssa was a girl:) They said they saw her vagina but they didn't want to say 100% sure because it was so early. :))))) I then went to my doctor who confirmed (and I have had tons of ultrasounds confirming haha because I was scared haha). Justin spent half the month in the field -lame!

Nov -Justin spent pretty much the whole field in the month, and came home just in time for thanksgiving:) We celebrated thanksgiving with our friends at Jessica's house -it was a blast:) Then I did my FIRST all night shopping spree with Vicki! We left around 9:30pm and got home around 6am (I believe). I got TONS of toys for our daughter:)) and Kylee (her daughter who is actually here haha) got beyond spoiled as well:)))

Dec -Came & went pretty quickly. On the 15th I came home:DD Which is where I am now...and on the 18th I had my amazing baby shower!<3<3 I have been busy since Ive been home running around trying to spend time with everyone:)) anddd now its new years eve...Jen & I are lame as hell, and we are just hanging out all night sitting on the couch, haha. What a way to party, haha!

On that note -2011 wasn't horrible, even though it started horrible! But now Im ready for a NEW YEAR ---heres to us finally being parents<3<3<3

christmas leave

I haven't blogged in ages because I have been at HOMEEE<3 I have been beyond busy, usually when I come home to visit Im busy, but no where near this busy. People are just piling up to see me, it feels great...but I feel horrible that I haven't been able to make time for everyone.

Lets try to recap vacation so far. I got in on Weds evening the 15th, LATE. We stayed the night at my Aunt Vicki's house, and we stayed up till about 2 am visiting..it was tons of fun! The next morning we all got up ate some breakfast & spent a little more time together before we hit the road. It was so great to spend time with them! I fly out on the 6th early in the morning so on the 5th we are gong to drive back up to detroit and spend the day with them again, can't wait<3 Friday mom had to go back to work so Jen & I spent the day together, I stopped by to see Jill & Betsey. Always so wonderful to see them, then we stopped by Amandas & spent some time with her. For dinner we went to pizza hut with Lindsay & Jay. So I got to see some of my pizza hut friends too. It was nice, and of course the food was amazing!!! Saturday we spent the day running around getting ready for my wonderful baby shower. Mom, Jen, Amanda, Kendra, Sandra, Seth, Kylee & I all went to lunch at this mexican place in Benton harbor, it was pretty good. Then we went straight to McDonalds to visit was Tara, Kloe & Jaymes. They are growing like weeds, its unreal. <3 ....

 Sunday was my BIG DAY the baby shower:) A lot of people showed up, and I had a great time. It was so wonderful to see everyone! I got so many great gifts...and a ton more after the shower from people who couldn't make it. It was so amazing and I owe a BIG thanks to my mom for throwing it for me!!<3 I  have gotten so many gifts since I have gotten home that I seriously don't know how the heck I am getting everything home haha. We will figure something out Im sure:))<3 Thanks again to everyone who came, and everyone who couldn't make it but still got me gifts!!!<3

Monday was back to a normal day..and to be honest I can't remember for the life of me what I did haha. Tuesday I went over to visit Lindsay, Aunt Cathy & Jay<3 Weds -Me, Justin, Jen, Amanda, Kendra, Sandra, Levi, Seth, Kylee, Krystal & Kenzie all went to bouceland...oh but first the girls went shopping at the mall for a few things! :) After bounce land Jen, mom & I met up with the family to see them at Mcdonalds since Amy & Ashlyn were only in town for a day. Then Thursday was dinner with Amanda & Whitney, and Im not sure if I did anything in the evening, I think Lindsay might have came over to hang out! Then Friday was dinner with Sandra, Lindsay, Jen & Jay...then to target & then Lindsay came over in the evening to hang out:) Saturday was Christmas eve mom had to work till 6 so Justin & I went to spend some time with his mom, dad & Lee! Then in the evening we just spend time with the family & Lindsay came over again:)) Sunday was CHRISTMASSS:D I spent the morning with mom & Jen..then the afternoon with Justins family & then in the evening we had Christmas dinner at home. Then we went to the movies to see we bought a zoo, it was a really cute movie:) Monday mom had the whole day off so we went to cousin aunt Lauras and spend time with that side of the family..it was tons of fun but a VERYYY long 3 1/2 hour drive lol. Then yesterday Justin, Jen & I went to get out massages from cousin aunt Carole that my awesome mom bought us (and Jens was free for her birthday), they were AMAZING. Then we went back to Carole's house & we just hung out all evening and had dinner! NOWWW Today....Justin & I went to lunch with Sandra, Levi & Levis sister (and all the kids) and now I am home enjoying some down time while Jen & mom are at the gym. I came home & soaked in the bathtub for a little bit..and now Im finishing up this blog! Lindsay & possibly Aunt Cathy are coming over for dinner...so that should be fun:)

I can't believe how busy I am, and how I only have a few days left..its unbelievable. I have been having a lot of fun, but I am so very tired! lol. I miss my own home & everything. I must say its great being in MI but I deff wouldn't want to move back home...life is just too great in texas haha. Although Im sure it would be a little different if I actually had my own place here, hah. I got so many amazing gifts for Alyssa so I can't wait go home & put it all up!! Im so excited to see what else I need...ahhh. I can't believe how soon until Alyssa is going to be here...in a few days it will be 13weeks left. Wow...I can't even wait to meet my beautiful daughter<3<3

I love my husband!

In exactly one week at this time I will be having my baby shower in Michigan! Gosh I can't even begin to explain how excited I am for this! I can't wait to see everyone that I haven't seen in wayy too long. Ahhhh. Im so excited. I go home on Weds -just a few more days!:P Im going to start packing tomorrow I think...or maybe tonight (If I started feeling better). Which I have to say EVERY SINGLE TIME I got home something happens usually I get super sick right before I go -this time is no different. Ive come to the conclusion I get so sick so Im not getting all excited & stuff about coming home..because Im too worried about feeling miserable...also so I dont get sick at home.

Friday I went shopping with Vicki & Carah after the hubbies got off work..we went to Ross & Kolhs. I'm so excited to say I got my mom something really cute from Ross for Christmas, Im sure shes gonna love it:D Carah got her mommy one too...and Vicki got her mom one as a joke LOL. (sounds weird that Carah & I got our moms one for REAL and Vicki as a joke...but its true LOL). I'm SUPER excited because my awesome friend Nikki told me they had the toy bins thing I wanted to get Alyssa at Ross for only $20. A lot of people said not to get it but a few said they had it and loved it. I wasn't going to go for it, but I figured I wouldn't find something like this for the price. I was extremely happy to find out it was metal & not wood. Cheap metal of course lol. But I put it together and its EXACTLY what I wanted. I was wanting something little for her little toys (pretty much all her used toys I have picked up from the Jr enlisted, yard sale & thrift shop...mostly of jr enlisted though lol)..and every toy I wanted to fit in there ended up fitting. So Im super happy. I still need a BIG toy box for the living room but that can obviously wait.

Yesterday, I came down with something, Idk what. I've got diarrhea horribly. Yesterday I spent the entire day in bed & in the bathroom. Usually when I'm sick I don't eat anything but maybe a cracker or too because I really just don't have an desire to eat. But with miss Alyssa in the womb thats just not possible. Yesterday I didn't eat a lot, but when I did...bad things happened:( I've been drinking lots of water so I dont get dehydrated. Today I'm feeling a little better, so hopefully thats the end of all that nonsense.

Last night Justin & I were laying in bed and Alyssa was going nuts in there! lol. I could see my belly moving all over the place, so I told Justin to watch it. Well he didn't wait long before putting his hand on there...and once she kicked he was like WOAH. He was so surprised at how much stronger shes gotten already. He was like how is she even that strong?? lol. I was pretty shocked too it was like over night she got that much stronger LOL. She's starting to move higher up too. Its pretty amazing. I swear anytime I ask someone when this is going to happen a week or so later it starts happening. I guess I need to slow down:P I have to say my husband is super adorable when it comes to me being pregnant. He always jokes around & calls me fat. But hes the first person bringing me home sweets when he goes to the store. LOL. Hes always bringing me choc & krispy kremes -great man:) Yesterday he put his hand on my belly & he was like why aren't you that big? Im like what LOL..hes like well other pregnant chicks are like this big and all huge..he did the movements with his hands making them all huge...and hes like your really not that big lol. I was like idk but thanks haha. Then he puts his head by my belly & kisses Alyssa and randomly talks to her. It's super sweet...things like that make he think hes going to be such an amazing father! Im so excited to see him hold her for the first time ...ahh a dream come true!<3<3 I love that we are getting a family! Such an amazing blessing!

Well, I'm going to lay back down, maybe watch a movie or something!

Brr its cold outside

I thought I moved to Texas to get AWAY from the snow? This is our second year here...and our second year with snow. Of course its nothing like Michigans snow- which Im totally grateful for. Last night I started snowing & we got a freeze. So far (at least this is what I have heard via facebook) there has been 180 car accidents since last night...and at least one death. I was reading peoples comments about how El Paso doesn't salt the roads because it just doesn't snow enough it make it worth it cost wise.....I think saving someones live is worth it. Just saying.... Hopefully we don't have as many pipe problems as we did last year...or everyone losing power. That was just CRAZY. I have to admit as cold as it is and how miserable I am..its still beautiful.  Justin got a two hour delay to go into work..which kind of sucks because he was supposed to go to the board for e5. Hopefully they will still go today, and if not today..later this week. Bella saw snow for the first time....and gosh she loves it. This morning she kept CRYING and CRYING so I finally let her outside..Im gonna let her play for 30 mins and see if thats good enough for her. Crazy dog.

I was planning on giving Justin the car for today anyways...but now it kind of sucks because Im actually really stuck in the house. I don't wanna call any of my friends because the roads are so bad....and I don't want to go anywhere because people can't drive and I don't want to put Alyssa & I in danger. Last year we had this for a few days I didn't leave my house either. I'm just not taking chances...not to mention this year if I get into any type of accident at all I have to go to L&D to get checked out. Not my idea of a good time.

I'm soo ready to go home...not ready for all the cold at home. But deff ready to be in Michigan & see everyone. Exactly one week & one day...I'll be flying home<3 Gosh I can't wait. I can't believe after all the baby showers & kids birthday parties I'm finally having MY OWN baby shower. Seems so unreal.  I hope Alyssa does lots of kicking durning the shower for everyone! I also hope the weather is good in Michigan so no one has to miss it due to stupid weather! Alyssa's room is coming together very nicely. I couldn't be more excited!! I even leave the door open most of the time so that when I walk to the bathroom or my room I can peak in her room!:P Sometimes I just walk in there...everything is put away nicely...but I just want to do more!! I found the most awesome shelve at goodwill yesterday for only 4 bucks. It's blue but Vicki is going to help me paint it pink & hang it up!:D I wish I could go to walmart or hobby lobby RIGHT NOW so I could get started on it lol. I hate when I have unfinished projects laying around.

I guess I don't have much else to say..

Extremely blessed

Alyssa's crib & dresser set shouldddd be here by the end of the week. Yesterday I decided to call and see what was going on with it (even though I knew they had till Weds to call, I was getting impatient). The man I talked to was super nice, and I explained I wasn't mad just curious, and getting super excited! I think he understood because he was super helpful and tried to get me as much info as he could. He said I will get a call by Weds to set up delivery. Which my friend said when they called her they wanted to deliver the next day, so Im crossing my fingers for Thursday! Because I realized woah, her stuff is coming soon and I am NO WHERE NEAR ready for that I was chatting Carah who told me to start washing clothes now...so I did. Ummm....all Im going to say is wow. LOL. I had went through my clothes the other days because I wanted to take the 6-9months and up out to let Sandra borrow..its the least I can do for all of the clothes she is just giving me. And lets face it, Alyssa doesn't need them just yet:) So I went through those and then put everything back in the box. Well yesterday I actually started laundry. It took 3 loads to wash all her stuff. LOL. Woah. So then while that was washing Jena & I got in her room to tackle that mess. I seriously wish I would have taken a before and after shot, Im not even kidding lol. We got the mattress out and put that into the shed to store. Then we put all the toys in bins (for now) because I had already sanitized them. We stacked the diapers, and found a home for everything...again for now LOL. Most everything is piled in the closet, and I have ideas of where I want things to go, but I won't know for sure until my dressers get here. I had a little bit of a tear fest for a second, as I looked around the room, which looked so clean & amazing....and just took it all in. This is really happening for me? It was really nice to get to do that with Jena, esp since Vicki & Carah are going to help me put everything away when the dressers get her. Luckily, I was a mess the past 5 months so that allowed a lot of work to be done & I got it do it with all 3 of my best friends. 

Yesterday morning I got a facebook message & a text from two friends LOL..telling me to message this girl because she had some baby girl items she wanted to give away. If you know me, you know I won't turn anything free away (unless I already have it of course). She tried to give me a VERY nice changing table, but my dresser set has one so I said no to that. Then she gave me a box full of clothes, and a mirror for the car, wipes case, toys, shoes...and such. It was really wonderful. But what really was like woah, that is amazing...she gave me an entire crib set, the mobil, sheets, bumper, skirt, wall decor & a hamper. Its superrr cute.. but Im gonna be honest...I still kind of want my monkeys=/ I took it off the ladies hands because she said she just wanted it to go away, lol. She didn't want to throw it away but she really didn't want it anymore and needed it gone. Its super super cute..and now I would feel horrible if I didn't use it. But part of me still wants the monkeys. Justin said we should skip the monkeys and use this one because it will save is 100+ dollars...but honestly. Idk if I can do that. I have gotten used everything...this is the ONE thing I really want lol. But I figured that I would put it up and see what I think, then decide. I still have a while! Hopefullllly someone will buy it for me at the shower then I can saw welpp...haha jk jk. No idk, I feel kind of bad if I take it and don't use it..but she really just sounded like she wanted to get rid of it and was soo excited to give it to someone lol. I just can't shake this feeling of wanting my monkey set lol. But I have a few people in mind that I could pass the stuff down to..and if worse comes to worse I could donate it to Jr Enlisted. One of my friends already said she loves it and if I dont use it and she has a girl she WANTS it. So that works out perfectly:) I was thinking though, the hamper has a flower on it...and I think it will sort of match with my monkeys so I could keep that regardless and not have to buy my monkey one. It was so awesome though because I asked the lady 'so how did this come about LOL' she asked if anyone knew anybody that was having a baby girl...and 3 people said my name. Which I have to say made me feel really awesome. That 3 of my friends thought of ME! It's deff a blessing to have such amazing friends. I am so blessed! I really expected to get pregnant & go broke because of everything I was going to have to buy..but I haven't even had a shower yet and I have a ton of things that people have blessed me with.

 Thank you, thank you, thank you everyone<3

Black Friday Shopping!

Last night Vicki and I braved black friday. I'm not going to lie I was absolutely terrified that it was going to be bad & we were going to die. BUT to my surprise it really wasn't that bad. Walmart was starting sales on everything but electronics at 10pm. So we got there around 9:30, I was kind of worried we wouldn't get what we want because we didn't show up early enough, but we asked around & found out where the toys were. Vicki really only wanted one thing, so if we didn't get it, it wasn't going to be the end of the world. We saw this girl looking in all the boxes so I asked her if she knew where the toy was, she pointed way down, so I walked that way incase she was right. SHE WAS WRONG LOL. Another lady really wanted barbies & someone told her they were down farther too...so she left. A few mins later this lady told me she could see in the box and it was the barbies, so I went to find the girl & let her know that she was actually right by them and it was for sure for sure that that is were they are. She was so happy I told her she told me she loved me HAHA. I was really happy to just be able to help her get what she wanted:) About 9:45 for some reason people started opening all the boxes. I think what happened was that the employees were starting to open them & everyone decided to help...wellll...they weren't supposed to. At first I was scared to join in because I didn't want to get in trouble, but after few seconds I decided to dig in LOL. A few mins into the craziness we found the toy we were looking for. And then some:) I found these brats dolls and grabbed 4 incase those were the barbies the girl wanted. An older lady who was clearly having trouble getting through with her cart and well the fact that she was pretty old asked where I got them..I had 4, I didn't want any of them. So I gave her two of them, she looked really happy about that:) Then Vicki bought one, and I put the other one back. Everyone I came a cross was super friendly, except this freaky amish lady -she was very rude LOL. We grabbed everything we wanted & headed for the check out, assuming the lines were going to be horrible. NOPE! Not even a line at all -yes at walmart can you believe it? So as we were ringing up our stuff we noticed the floor mats were ringing up as 12 bucks, and we were told they were only 5. They pulled the AD out and showed us they were 12, I got one anyways because I had really wanted one for Alyssa..plus its princess:) And $12 is a great price! As we were talking to the manager there was a girl behind us that only wanted to buy 3 things, I told her to go ahead & check out before us. She thanked me like 4 times and told me I made her night lol. It was so cute. We got checked out & everything...leaving walmart at 10:14...talk about making amazing time!

We then headed over to the basset center mall to wait in line at kohls. We got there around 10:30 and there was hardly any line. Im so glad we got there when we did because the line started forming shortly after that. We met some really cool people in line there too, and talked to them almost the whole time. This lady even let Vicki use her nail polish haha. They let us in at midnight and people went CRAZY for a second haha. We all ran to the escalator which turned off because of the weight haha it was soo funny. Vicki grabbed a cart & I followed her. I was scared to lose her so I didn't grab one, which was a horrible idea. We ran up the toys & we were the FIRST ones up there. We just starting throwing stuff in the cart, it was awesome. Before we knew it our cart was full and we were trying to juggle things. We ended up finding two bags and filled those both. We both really wanted this walker thing for just $10 and couldn't find them anywhere. We were a little bummed but we really didn't understand why they were gone because we were the first to the toys. So we started walking around & saw a guy with 3 in his hands, we asked where he got them & he pointed to the other side of the store & said there was none left. We walked in a circle to check things out...and I was saying 'man I really hope we randomly find at least one of those, two would be ideal' and BOOM it was like they fell from the sky because Vicki was like LOOK and pointed UNDER THE CLOTHES on a shelve haha. There was probably 10 left, so we each grabbed one and were very happy campers. We then went around AGAIN to see what we missed haha. Eventually we decided our hands were too full, and it was time to check out. Soo we waited in line, which felt like 10 years LOL. Then we took everything out to the car, got in circled around the parking lot (so people didn't know we were going back in after unloading our stuff)..and went back for more. We took our time this time and really looked around, the line wasn't so bad the second time around and we ended up leaving pretty close to 3am. We deff got everything we wanted and then some:)

While I was at kohls I was commenting on EVERYONES stuff I saw on facebook about the PX asking about the line, because Vicki really wanted to get her husband an xbox for $100. We kind of figured she wouldn't be able to, but figured it was worth a shot. Ashley is amazing and called me to let me know they had been in line for a few hours and we could just stand with them. We were a tad worried that people would say something but no one did. Thankfully. We went in, and Vicki ran straight for the xboxs and I went for the games. Both already sold out. So we wandered over by the toys to see what was going on there. I got two little books that sing and make noise, one for me & one for Sandras daughters. Go figure she already has is, haha. So I decided to give it to Vicki!:) Vicki got a hello kitty christmas tree LOL. Its super cute! Then we were super tired & decided to call it a night.

At the end of the night I spent: $204.37. I have a mail in rebate for the toaster oven I got, which I hateeee those stupid things & didn't realize it had one or I probably wouldn't have bought it lol. With that I get $10 back, which drops my total down to $194.37. THEN I got $15 kohls cash for every $50 you spend. So I got $45 so spend however I want:) Which then drops my total down to $148.37, but I mean not really its more just $45 in free stuff but whatever:) Based on my receipts I saved $234.61. But one of the toys at walmart was originally $50 and I paid $25. Then I dont know how much I saved at the PX because I don't remember the actual price of the toys I got..but I want to say they were at least $15-20 bucks.

So I would say I made out wonderfully. I got myself like 7 shirts I believe, all for $5. Alyssa, A TON of toys & a toast oven that I have wanted forever! Amazing!:D Thank you black friday, and esp kohls for have such great savings & for the %15 off our whole order:D

I am thankful for...

HAPPY TURKEY DAY:) Of course for Thanksgiving Im going to post a blog about what I am most thankful for, how could I not? I am so blessed!

This year started out horribly with loosing the baby, and honestly I wasn't sure how I was going to pull myself out of the depression. But with the help of the amazing people in my life.. & of course a blessing from GOD ..I was able to do a complete 360, and I am now the happiest person in the entire world. I was able to realize that no matter how unfair & how far it was that I lost my babies it was for a reason. And learn that my children were just too beautiful for earth & are now hanging out with the BEST babysitter until I can arrive to take care of them<3

I am so thankful that I am finally getting my dream come true. I have an amazing daughter growing inside me, which is such a miracle. I am so thankful for everything that comes along with pregnancy -even the aches & pains..because they are constant reminders of how I have an amazing child growing inside of me. I am so thankful that I get to feel her kick & that shes not shy for Daddy either so he can be apart of it. I am so thankful to watch our house fill up with baby items. And for all the amazing gifts I have received for her. I absolutely could not be MORE thankful for Alyssa!<3

I am VERY thankful for my husband. I look at him, and I CANNOT believe we have made it this far. I have an amazing marriage, and I am completely happy. Just like with getting Alyssa, we had to go through the storm to get the rainbow.. its the same with our relationship. It wasn't always rainbows & butterflies..and it still isn't always. But I can honestly say that I love him now more then I ever have. I am beyond blessed for everything he does for me. He works hard to allow me to be a stay a home wife and soon to be mother. Not a day goes by that he doesn't have me smiling or laughing. I am so blessed to have found my soul mate!

BELLA -Yess I am thankful for my dog, haha. She has brought so much fun & excitement into our lives. She is a pain in the butt, but worth it completely. I never knew I could love a dog so much, but I really do. Shes deff our child:) <3

My family & friends -I am so thankful to have such amazing supportive people in my life. My family & friends have been there through thick & thing...and I couldn't be more thankful. I am so thankful for everything that you guys have done for me, you don't even understand. I have gotten so many amazing gifts for Alyssa, I never would have imagined I would have been so blessed. I really appreciate it<3 I am also so thankful that even though we are wayy to far away from home I have a great support system here  and a wonderful army family. I love that we don't have to spend the holidays alone even though we don't have our family. Its such a blessing.

The ARMY -I am so thankful for the army. Without it I have no clue where Justin & I would be, but I know our live defiantly wouldn't be this fabulous. The army has given us so much and I can see why GOD put it into our lives.

I am thankful that I have found a great Church to attend and PWOC which helps me learn more about GOD and also the bible study that helps me learn about my marriage & how to help it grow.

I am so thankful for all that GOD has given us. We are very blessed! I am thankful that we have a roof over our head, money in our bank account/a steady pay check, food in our belly's, we don't have to go without things we need, and we have a car!

I am thankful that GOD allowed us to have enough money to go home for the holidays, and that my mom, Sandra & my sister are all going to be able to come down to see Alyssa after she is born. I am thankful for amazing technology that is going to allow everyone to watch her grow through pictures online & skype. And that I have been able to watch my family & friends children grow through those things as well.

I am thankful for all the soldiers that are overseas fighting for us right now, and that can't be at home with their families. And thankful for all of them who have fought past or present. I am thankful for those who came home, and also thankful for those who paid the ultimate price. I am thankful for their families back home supporting them. I am thankful that GOD has allowed many of my friends husbands to come home early from deployment & that they will be home for the holidays. And I am ESPECIALLY thankful that Levi is home safe & sound & that we are going to spend the holidays with our best friends again. I am also very thankful that we have been an army family for 2 years with no deployments (even though Justin really wants to go).

I AM SO BLESSED<3

MESSSSAGE TO SOMEONE!

I don't know how to delete a blog...so Im just putting that:)

doctors appointment

I had a doctors appointment today:) All he really did was listen to her heartbeat and then we talked about my stinking ear. I told him Im still having issues with it, even though it doesn't actually hurt its annoying and feels clogged. He gave me more of the magic medicine he gave me last time and told me if I use it and it doesn't go away fully without 3-4 days to call him and he will send me to an ear doctor. I told him Im super worried because I have to fly on Dec 14th and I know its going to be hell flying with a jacked up ear. The nurse told me on my way out that the ear doctor may tell me I can't fly if we don't get it taken care of. Im sorry but Im not going to not go home because my ear hurts, really I will just go to the ER the next day if I have to lol. I refuse to not go home because of my ear. Today I am 21 weeks, woop woop:P and I have gained 11lbs. Which they said at 20 weeks I should have gained 10lbs and a 1lb a week every week after. so as of right now Im exactly where I need to be. That feels great:) My doctor is super cool though, today he looked so happy to see me LOL. I wanna ask him what the chances of him not delivering Alyssa are. But I figure we have 19 weeks to talk about all that stuff, so we can do all that talking later.

Housing is amazing. Im so blessed to have on post housing!! I got my fence, all Im waiting for is the door, they put the poles up for the door today...so just attach that door and call it a day. I really hope they put the door on today, other wise I probably won't have it 100% finished till Monday. Either way, I LOVE IT. It looks really nice..and its a nice size! I can't wait to take Bella out there for the first time and let her run around like crazy.

Today I am SOOOO tired, haha. I went to see breaking dawn with Jena last night. It was really good, and Im proud to say I stayed awake the entire time. Although there was a few times I thought I was gonna fall asleep LOL. Going to bed at 2:30 is not my idea of a good time, esp when I have to be up all early for my doctors appointment:) But it was a lot of fun. Today Im just relaxing, we were supposed to get coffee with other friends but life happens. Andd...Im glad. haha. Im SO TIRED. Im going to take a little nap in a little while, and then later tonight Im going to the tree lighting on post. Im VERY excited for tomorrow though...even if it does mean waking up at 7....just saying. LOL. ITS THE POST WIDE YARD SALE WOOOO! I'm going to get up all early and go help with the FRG for a little while. Then Im meeting up with the girls to go shoppppping! I hope I find a bunch of awesome things...I can't wait:D Im mostly shopping for Alyssa obviously! THEN SUNDAYYY MY LOVE COMES HOME! So excited for this field stuff to be overrr. And Im sure he is too. The things my husband does for me, amazing. I dont think I could ever thank him enough.

Parenting

As I'm sitting here with my daughter kicking me and moving all over inside me.... I'm reading my facebook and I see a status this proud momma posted about how her two kids got birthday cards in the mail, her son opens it up and sees money..he then asks her 'Mom can I donate this money to kids with cancer, because I know that is way more important then any toy I want'. I stopped dead in my tracks to really think about what kind of mother she must be...we don't really know each other. I see her statuses on my newsfeed as Im sure she sees mine. But I don't really KNOW her...but her status really got me thinking. She must be one amazing mother to raise such amazing children. Then it gets me thinking, I want that for Alyssa. I want to be an amazing mother, someone that she looks up to. I want the very best for her. You ever meet a child, and your just sitting there watching, not trying to be judgmental...but thinking WOAH I pray my kid never acts like that. If you haven't, well I guess Im a horrible person then. LOL. Because I do..everyone says its all about how to raise them. Which I believe, but I do also know you can do everything right and still have a rotten child. It makes me want to talk to those people with AMAZING children, and just ask 'what did you do differently from other parents'. My mom is my life, shes everything to me. I mean everything! I don't know what I would do without her, and please God don't let me find out for MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY years. I always go to her for advice on anything, esp parenting. I hope and pray I can be HALF the mother she is. 

One thing that my Mom always tells me is that you have to respect your husband, and your children. If you don't respect the people living in your household your children are going to pick up on that. And they won't respect you. Well one thing that really worries me. If you actually really know Justin & I...you know our relationship. You know how in love we are, but you also know how 'mean' we are to each other. We LOVE to joke around, all day every day. He calls me fat daily, I tell him hes too skinny. He makes fun of me for things, I make fun of him...its just how we are. And of course we do it with smiles on our faces and lots of love. He tells me 'go get me a dr pepper. now' so I tell him 'say please?' and he says 'go get me a dr pepper please. NOW'. Its all fun in games...but now that Alyssa is coming I worry she will pick up on those jokes and not realize we are kidding? Do we need to change who we are to be better parents for her? I know that she will know we love each other more then anything. We don't fight often **knock on wood haha** Although I know when we do we will either A) not be able to do it around her or B) change up the way we fight haha. I don't want her to think marriage is perfect, because its notttt. I want her to know its normal to fight, but I also don't ever want her to see us disrespecting each other. 

There is soo much to being a parent.  I know I will lose my temper, she will drive me nuts, I'll wanna sell her to the zoo (maybe haha), there will be nights I will be crying because she won't sleep, or stop crying. Over the years she will test her limits and be bad, because thats what children do. I just hope & pray I am never the mother that I have seen others be. Is that being judgmental? Im not really sure. I like to think of it is as learning from other peoples mistakes, as I hope people learn from mine -because there will be plenty of mistakes. I swear, I used to think when it came time for me to finally be a mom I would want to hold her 24/7, let her get away with things because shes too cute. But over time, Ive learned that I just can't do that. How I raise her from day one is going to set up the rest of her life. Which Im not going to lie, is a tad be scary. Kids will do as much as you let them get away with. I don't want to be mean mommy, but I know I will have to be in order to be a great mother. I think people take the things I say too personal though, like I can look at someone and say, I don't want to be a mom like her AT ALL. Doesn't mean I hate her as a person, just means I don't want to follow in her footsteps of parenting. Theres nothing wrong with that. LOL. I can think your crazy, and you can think Im crazy:) I have friends who are all about being natural with everything...I think they are crazy...and they think Im crazy:) haha. Everyone parents differently. Like Jena, wants 5 kids..I think shes NUTS haha. She thinks Im nuts for only wanting 2..thats life:) 

I have to say, Im SUPER glad I got a dog though. Bella has been my test tool:P I didn't realize it when I got her, but she really has been. Shes the PRIME example of dogs/kids will do whatever you allow them to get away with. When I first got her I had her trained not to get on the couches or on the bed. Over time I changed that because I wanted to cuddle with her. I still don't mind that she does it. and Im glad I let her on them..I wouldn't change that. I am a little worried about her getting excited and jumping on the couch when Alyssa is laying there...but its going to take time. I started a horrible habit of feeding her people food..ahhh why! LOL. Actually -Justin started it. And I finished it, haha. Now she begs horribly, I could totally break that...but whatever shes only gonna live a few years she might as well get some good food of the deal:P But the worst habit is that she loves wrappers, and anytime I finish anything she wants to lick it clean. Before I didn't really mind it, but now I HATE it because she knows if I lay it down, its hers. So she takes them off my night stand and licks them to death, then Im picking up wrappers every where haha. I wish I could train her to throw them in the trash when shes done haha. Other then that, shes a really good dog. Shes still a baby so she gets VERY hyper whenever ANYONE comes over. She acts like she gets no love at home....as shes laying next to me while I type this. Dont let her fool you, shes spoiled:P Im just so glad I got to make mistakes with my dog, and see how it one time can effect the future, now I know not to do that with Alyssa! :) 

Little girls come with a lot of STUFF

As a lot of you know the past 5 months I have been picking up things here and there...mostly FREEE things from the Jr Enlisted or amazing people giving away clothes on facebook. Well now the room looks like baby stuff has thrown up all over the room LOL. I finally got my crib/dresser set ordered, which I'm SO excited about:D I got an e-mail today saying they should deliver it on or before the 19th. They are going to call to schedule delivery. So tonight I went into Alyssa's room to have a look around..and woah LOL. I know once I actually go through everything and put it away, Im going to realize I have like nothing. But looking at it all sitting on the bed is just plain scary haha.  So tonight I threw everything in piles, clothes, bibs, towels, toys, blankets lol. What is even more scary is how much stuff I still NEED. Thankfully Im getting my stuff soon so then that will help get the room set up..so I won't feel like its just a mess. Then that should hold me over till I got home for Christmas:D By the time I get home it will be Jan, I can put everything away & see what I still need. THEN I just need to hold myself over till March for my second baby shower..haha. THEN less then a month & my little princess will be here! Ahh I can't wait!<3

I'm so happy though because I already have quite a few toys for her and books:D Im so excited to read to her...I kind of want to start now but honestly I feel silly. I really thought Id talk to her too...no, I feel weird doing that too. Besides what am I supposed to say? haha. She kicks all the time now...its amazing. I swear it doesn't matter what Im doing if she kicks I smile. She kicks a lot in the morning and at night. Yesterday I stayed in bed all day and she kicked all day long...amazing. Shes so strong I swear. I haven't figured out what makes her kick, except for eating. It never fails if I eat, shes gonna start kicking. Kind of makes me wanna eat 24/7 haha jk.

As far as my weight goes..Im really excited to see how much the doctors scale says I have gained. Last time I was there (like 2 weeks ago maybe?) I had gained 7lbs. I was SO excited haha. So Im wondering if I gained anymore. My babycenter app says I should have gained 10 by now..and expect to gain about a pound a week for the next 20 weeks. That would put me at 30lbs total. I'm just saying...I'll probably gain more then that LOL. I keep saying I hope that I'm on of those amazing girls that leaves the hospital and you are like what the hell did she even have a baby? hahah, I KNOW thats not going to happen. But  it would be nice. ALSO would be amazing if I could lose all my weight in 6-8 weeks. Im PRETTY sure my mom told me she lost all hers in that time with me, not with my sister though. HOWEVER she eat healthy with me, and not with my sister. and I don't eat healthy. ALSO would be amazing if I got no stretch marks. Hahah <---a girl can dream can't she:D Really though -no matter what happens to my body, Alyssa was WELL worth it thats for sure!<3 Ummm IDC if this is TMI IM SHARING lol...seriously my nipples are so bad now. I might have wrote this in my other blog, idk haha. They are sooooo big. What the heck LOL. Alyssa betttter be able to BF esp since my boobs are already CRAZY LOL!! Seriously though, are they gonna go back? LOL. I swear they are like IDK hahah. Soo big! hahahah. and DARK. hahah. ok ok ok, enough about my boobs!! HAHA. Other then that, Im not noticing any other body changes. Well besides the obvious one, my belly is getting so big. I LOVE IT. I can't see my vagina anymore when I look down, yep I love it! LOL its hard to see the bottom of my stomach too..Its tooo funny:P ohhh and my face DID clear up for a few weeks, it was beautiful but now we are back to pimply again, haha. Seriously, I dont know how people don't love pregnancy. I LOVE it. And its not like I feel great all the time....trust me I dont. Im tired, out of breath, I'm super emotional, I get my feelings hurt, I cry, Im uncomfortable, Im in pain, Im always starving...but seriously...all of those things make me smile because I know Im growing a miracle inside me! And Im not just saying that...I really do smile when those things happen. Once Im done crying (who knows why Im even crying because I never do) I just laugh at myself. I can honestly say, I thought pregnancy was so amazing before, I had NO clue just how amazing it really is.

Justin goes back to the field tomorrow...wahh! haha jk. Its the last week YAY:D We had another wonderful weekend. I seriously love him so much:) And I dont care what anyone says, sometimes that few days away from him just makes me realize how in love I really am with him. Even though last night I totally had a melt down, because he always calls me FAT, he always has..it doesn't bother me because I know Im sexy haha..well last night he didn't even call me fat since like way earlier that day but I couldn't get full..so I kept going to get food and he was playing his game. I felt like everything I was getting he was thinking oh my gosh shes a whale LMAO. Seriously, then I convinced myself that I was eating too much...so I got all sad and told him I can't wait till he goes back into the field so I don't have to hear that Im fat everyday...and I was BAWLING my eyes out while eating a ppj sandwich HAHAH. He was like babe seriously you know your not fat your beautiful. And then I couldn't stop crying and he was like laughing at me soo hard, which now Im sitting here typing this laughing so hard...but seriously it was sooo funny. I don't know how I got myself all worked up over what I was eating but I deff did! hahah. Gotta love those hormones:D Im just saying though, it deff gives me something to laugh about later! And my husband -just simply amazing for putting up with my CRAZY self!:)

my amazing day!! LOL

I just have to blog about my wonderful day!

So bright and early this morning my dog woke me up -6:30 not my idea of a good time, But whatever haha. Well then I ran by Amy's to pick some a few things she was going to give me. One of them was a care bear blanket for Alyssa, its sooo cute. Then she also had a doggy stocking she gave me for Bella...soo cute. Then I go to PWOC which is always a blast & Amanda came up to me & gave me the cutest Christmas tree decoration. Its a little mouse that says Mom to be, its sooo cute. Then she told me to ignore the year on the back which said Christmas 1990. I thought that was the coolest thing because I was born in 1990!:) I have to say I feel soo blessed by the things my friends have given or bought for me. I love my friends:)<3 So then PWOC was wonderful as usual.

Then Vicki, Anna and I went to lunch at the px. As I was parking I saw the glass guy..I was soooo happy because on halloween weekend I was driving and I got behind a semi and a rock flew up and hit my windshield, I was sooo mad, but I also knew that the glass guys are ALWAYS at the px and always telling you that your chips will be covered. So I was just waiting to run into them. Well today was my lucky day ((which apparently they are at the PX every day haha)) and he fixed my TWO cracks- yeah we found another one..depressing. LOL. Buttt it was totally covered by my insurance -I love you USAA- but I had to call them to get my member number, which is pretty funny because I could have just gotten it out of my car. Well I was MEANT to call them today because they asked my address which I swore I updated, but I guess not...and then he sent me over to renters insurance to update my address on that as well. After he updated my address for all my stuff he said that car insurance didn't change but my renters went DOWN $22 a year. Which is only a few bucks a month but hey thats amazing and I will take it. I wish I would have updated sooner, since Ive lived here since April haha. But Im so glad it was caught now and not after something happened to my house and then nothing was covered. I LOVE USAA though lol. Im so excited because if that crack never happened, I wouldn't have updated my insurance saving me money. What a blessing! LOL.

But my day wasn't done being awesome after that. THEN we ate lunch, and went into the PX where I finally found the perfect bra! AND it was only $24, which if your a girl you know bras can be pretty pricy. So I was soo excited...I dont even want to talk about what size I am now...but Im gonna post it anyways because if I dont everyone is gonna wonder. 38 D LOL. I went from a 36C to a 38D in just 20 short weeks! LOL. My girls are HUGE now. LOL. Im not saying I don't love them because I deff love them more now that I found an awesome bra LOL. THEN I found a shirt for only $10, and if you have ever shopped for maternity clothes you know thats such a blessing lol. THENNNNNN LOL..I found the CUTEST outfit for Alyssa! Well, Vicki found it. LOL. She said I had to buy it, she had it in two different sizes for Kylee haha. It says Daddys favorite girl, and its got pants to go with it. Its super cute and was on sale..and I got it in 9months because I know I already have a lot of little clothes!

BUT thats not ALL lol. So then I call my mom just to talk and I ask if she knows yet about getting a coupon for Thanksgiving...for those that dont know We are getting Alyssa's dresser set from JcPenny's.. And its a pretty penny, Im not going to lie, but we were waiting around because its on SALE and for my mom to get a coupon that is either 20 or 25% WELL she got one in the mail! She wasn't home when I called so shes gonna check it out, butttttt that means we get to order her crib/dresser set soo soon! IM SO EXCITED I CANT EVEN CONTAIN MYSELF LOL.

Now Im just relaxing, because Im SUPERRR tired from my long amazing day!:P

no title...

I am so ready for Dec, yes I know it only just turned Nov. But Im ready to go home and see my family & friends. Its soo close, yet so far away:( Im also ready to start getting Alyssa's room set up..I feel like I'm wasting time sitting around doing nothing. I want to order her bedroom set ASAP, but I have to wait for a coupon from JcPenny's. The black friday AD came out for Pennys and they said that furniture is going to be 45-65% off. So Im praying mine goes on sale, or one of the other ones I love. Because then it will be on sale, AND I get my moms discount woohoo! Once I get her bedroom set I think Ill feel a lot better because then her stuff won't just be laying around every where, and I can wash & put away the stuff she does have! I'm just so ready to get things going on her room, ahh. Im also ready for this stupid field crap to be over. My poor husband, I swear -Im so thankful hes the one in the army and not me. haha. I hear wives complain about staying home with their kids..Im sure your husband would trade with you in a one second LOL. The things my husband tells me  -I know I'd rather get 4 hours of sleep because my baby is crying and then get to lay around all day with her..then nap when she does...then get 4 hours of sleep and go on a 'mission' and be doing crap all day. They deff take this crap like a champ though, way better then me or ANY of my friends would haha. Im so proud of him though, for everything! He got a coin while out there again, this one he actually seems kind of proud of! Last time he was like eh whatever haha. But I think its because he really didnt know why he got the last two.. this time his SGT wrote a big paragraph about how awesome (pretty much what it said I guess) he is. Just makes me so proud, hes grown into such an awesome man and amazing solider! He goes to the board on Dec 5th...woo hoo<3  So this weekend hes getting his ACUS ready for that. Which means $$$$, anything that has to go with the army means money I swear. haha. I know its all worth it though. If he passes the board they said he will be SPC with a P status...and he will go to WLC (I think thats what its called haha) in Jan. Then they said after that stuff its just waiting for points! He also came home an told me hes doing or maybe doing more field training in Jan. Then he should be all of a feb off and back in March, but Idk how much he will be doing in March because Im due at the end:) Wow when you say it like that March doesn't seem too far away haha. Only 21 weeks left and our daughter will be here. Which reminds me, today we were in the baby section and Justin was like wow, how am I going to shop for my daughter? Haha it was cute. 

I am suchhhh a grump lately. Ive been getting annoyed by EVERYTHING. I try so hard not too, but I can't help it lol.  Today Im super mad because my ear is acting up AGAIN. Its like clogged, I dont even understand how this happens. Its been months messing with this crazy ear! If it doesn't go away in a few days after starting my drops again looks like Ill be calling the doctor. I also hate burlington coat factory, haha. I went there today to look at their crib/dressers set to compare prices and see if I liked any. I couldn't really tell because all the ones on display looked horrible! And they didn't have the prices displayed for both dressers. And I swear no one worked there at all.. because I couldn't find a single person. I was like oh my gosh this is crap. So then Justin went looking for clothes...because he always turns shopping to be all about him! Haha, but he  got some clothes for super cheap so that was awesome! Well I went to look at bras because I need a bra horribly...first off it was MESS. There was crap everywhere all over the entire store in fact... and they didn't have my size at all. How hard is it to find a D haha, yes seriously by boobs have decided to grow -a lot. Im going to need to go to JcPennys and find one I think...I wanted to try to suck it up and wear the one I have for my entire pregnancy, but thats nott happening. I can always tell how much they have grown because I knew how they fit in my hands before I got pregnant -perfectly. NOW they are huge, hahahah.  Oh and we wanted ihop this morning, well I did lol....and we went to two different ones- crazy long lines, like we probably would have waited over an hour, I was like DANG. We will never try to go out that early again LOL. We got krispy kreme instead. It wasn't ihop but it was still pretty good, plus we have extras. We got a dozen, and oh my gosh my husband ate 5! WOAH. I ate 2, so needless to say I will be sharing with him. Then I got hot choc, which wasn't good...and then spilled it all over the floor of the car. Niceee. We had a lot of laughs about it though, so its all good. 

Nothing new has really been going on, well except that I feel Alyssa ALLLLL the time now. I LOVE IT. Oh and Justin felt her on Friday, it was soo funny. I told him I thought it might be to soon but we can check because the ultrasound tech did say shes very strong so we thought what the heck haha. So I put his hand on my stomach and then she did a strong kick and I was like oh my gosh did you feel that -well his hand was all weird on there, so he readjusted it and then I felt her move again and he didn't...so Im like whatever Im just gonna stop saying anything and he will tell me if he feels her..and then all of a sudden he was like 'holy shit I think I just felt it'. and I got super excited I was like REALLY? And hes like 'yeah, unless your stomach is doing some weird ass gas' it was sooo funny. I was like wow. Haha. I love him, hes so crazy haha.<3 

Boy or Girl? 21 Old Wives’ Tales That May Tell You

Boy or Girl? 21 Old Wives’ Tales That May Tell You*

Sleep PositionPay attention to which way you lay down in bed tonight. If you prefer sleeping on your left side, you’ll have a boy. Right side? You’re pregnant with a girl.
I sleep on both so I seriously don't know. I always slept on my left side before I got pregnant, and now I always start on my left side and end up on my right, or back or who knows. So I can't even vote on this one lol. 

Upset StomachLittle girls aren’t always sweet. Extreme nausea means you are having a daughter.
Umm yeah....GIRL haha.

Soft or Dry HandsIf your hands are dry during pregnancy, you are having a boy; soft—expect a girl.
They feel like they always have.... 

Food CravingsYour favorite pregnancy foods may tell you what sex the baby is. If you’re craving citrus while pregnant, you’re having a girl.
Girl...lemons, yumm. haha. 

Adult AcneIf altering hormones makes your skin break out, expect a girl.
GIRRRRL. My face was horrible at the beginning haha. 

Graceful or Clumsy PregnancyIf you feel as though you’re gliding through they day, you’ll have a girl. Stumbling? It’s a boy.
Ive always been a cluts..so Im not too sure. But I haven't fallen since I got pregnant so I guess this could maybe count as girl? Idk. 

Face Weight GainIf your face gets fuller, it means you’re having a girl.
BOY (so far, anyway).

Sugar and Spice Food Cravings
Craving salt during pregnancy? Potato chips, pretzels, and popcorn means a boy is on the way. Need a little something sweet? Ice cream, chocolate, and candy means you’re having a girl. 

GIRL lol. 

Mood ChangesIf you’re experiencing pregnant mood-swings, expect a baby girl to arrive soon.
...Girl. lol.

High or Low Pregnant BellyIf you’re carrying the baby low on your stomach, expect a boy. If it’s high, you’re having a girl.
Not sure – I think this is for those who are farther along.

Baby WeightIf you’re carrying baby in front, it’s a boy. Is the baby weight spaced all around your middle? It’s a girl.
Im not 100% sure, but looking from my back..Id say a girl. 

Pendulum TestDangle a chain with a charm over your palm. If it swings back and forth: boy. In a circle: girl.
It said girl:P However the pencil test says boy. soo idk. haha.

Model Your Hands“Show me your hands.” If you would hold your hands palms up it’s a girl. Down? You’re having a boy.
Not sure..

Toddler AdviceGet baby advice from a nephew or friend’s little boy. If a toddler boy shows interest in your belly, you’ll have a girl. If he ignores you, it’s a boy.

Girl! 

Eat Garlic

Guess the baby’s sex by eating garlic. If the smell seeps out of your pores it’s a boy. If there’s no scent it’s a little girl. 
I have no clue...

Key to PregnancyIf you pick up a key by the round end, you’re having a boy. If it’s by the long end? A girl. 
Not sure

Even and Odd NumbersIf your age and year of conception are both even or odd, it’s girl. One even, one odd means a boy.
GIRL

Baby’s HeartbeatIf the baby’s heart beats more than 150 times per minute, you’re pregnant with a girl. Less than 150, it’s a boy.
Well, Im not sure...at the begining the heart rate was always high, now her heart rate is 140-150. 

Stress TestA child tends to be of the same sex as the parent who is less stressed at the time of conception.
That would be girl. I wasn't stressed because I was just told I would get clomid, and I wasn't trying because I figured I couldn't get pregnant since he was leaving a few days prior to ovulation. Justin was stressed because of the field training crap!

Dream MeaningsIf you dream about having a girl while pregnant, you will wind up having a boy and vice versa.

I haven't dreamed of either. 

Breast SizeIf your right breast is larger than the left while pregnant, you are having a girl. If the left is larger, it’s a baby boy.
Neither.

Id say girl wins:))) I go tomorrow to the college again with my friend so she can find out the sex, Im gonna get another ultrasound because and see...and then my doctors appointment is Tues! So lets see if Alyssa is still a girl:) haha 

Pregnancy hormones at its best

Ah. I'm going to blame this mean blog on pregnancy hormones, why? Well because I finally have the chance to use that as an excuse...and because I do really think it is hormones.

I am so sick of ungrateful people. I have been hearing TONS of stories about someone, and I want to take this girl and smack the crap out of her and give her a reality check. Your family (ESP YOUR MOM) does soooo much for you, so heres an idea. Appreciate it, stop acting like your the queen of the world. I dont know you realize but when people had to spend hard earned money on those gifts you didn't appreciate, and didn't even say thank you for.  Im sorry but 'thank you so much, I got your gift' goes A LONGGGGGGG WAY. And it makes me never want to spend money on you again. And no Im not kidding. Because heres the thing, you act like a spoiled brat and people aren't going to be there for you next time. Which I do notttt understand, you weren't raised this way. And the way you treat your mother is crap, and I wishhhhhhh one day she would teach you a lesson. But she won't, because shes too nice and she loves you. It makes me sick to my stomach. Nothing makes me more sick then people that use their parents. And uh your mother loves you so much, so those RUDE comments you make really hurt her. Im positive she cried over your last horrible comment. And I seriously wish I was there when it was said to A) say something or B) punch you. YOU DO NOTTTT TREAT YOUR MOM LIKE DIRT. END OF STORY! Not to mention, your mom isn't going to be around forever. And tomorrow deff is not promised. How would you feel if god forbid she died tomorrow? This goes for EVERYONE, do your loved ones no how much you mean to them?? And how much you appreciate every little thing they do for you? If not its time to let them know. Theres tons more I could say, but Im going to leave it at that. Im not trying to be a horrible person, but when you treat people that I love bad, it hurts me. And it makes me angry.

I have noticed since getting pregnant I feel differently towards certain people. I have way less patience, and I feel like hitting people a lot more, haha. I get angry a lot easier. and I get my feelings hurt a lot more. Part of this anger is coming from the fact that Im tired (I really don't think its because of the pregnancy) I haven't slept good for weeks. And its been worse since I got sick, which Ive come to the conclusion that this is nottt a cold. It has to be allergies. My nose is running all the time and my head hurts thats about it. But my nose running is clear, no green. Which is a great sign...but I can't sleep lol. My dog is super annoying at night...I dont wanna kick her out of bed because I LOVEE cuddling with her but sometimes I wanna smack her haha. Anddd yes Im gonna say it...I misssss my husband<3 Usually durning the field hes able to text me daily, so its not that big of a deal. Well this time I haven't been able to talk to him hardly at all, it deff makes it different. I'm totally fine with him being in the field because Im just sooo thankful hes not deploying, and that hes only gone 2 weeks instead of a year. But I would be lying if I said I didn't miss him. I always miss Justin when hes gone, even if its just CQ haha. And sorry but if you don't miss your husband when hes gone theres something with with you and your marriage. I still do think its annoying when girls whine on facebook 24/7 about missing their man though. Just because I think they need to remember that while their husband is gone 2 weeks...your friends man is gone a year. Be thankful!

My neighbors dog.....barks all the time. And you know I have lived here since April..Ive been nice but today it just reallllly annoyed me. I was laying in bed, with the fan on, and I could STILL here it. I wanted to yell out the window SHUTTT UP. But I didn't. I just hate it, its a beagle, I hate those kind of dogs anyways, they are so cute but their bark drives me up the wall. Ahhh. I just want them to take their dogs inside so they dont bark, lol. Thats all....but Im sure tomorrow will come and it won't annoy me as much. Just today it does..

People who complain about living on post, or military housing yet they do nothing about it. Well heres the thing, no one is going to love where they live all the time and thats just fine. But people who are like I hate housing its the worst choice I ever made, blah blah blah. Yet they don't move? Instead we get to see them post all over public forms about how much they hate their house. I think they forget the list for housing is huge, and many many many people are on the list that would LOVE to live in the house you complain so much about. So please, do us a favor and move off post and try to find a nice house within BAH, that you don't go OVER at all. Because its not easy. We lived in a townhouse apartment, we never went over BAH....but our apartment was crap, everything was always broken, they never fixed anything, and we lived with mold. If youd like that over housing, please feel free to give them a call. :) And yes I do know its possible to find houses/apartments that are under, but its nottt easy.

Wife's who think they are entitled to something FREE, or everything free- just because their husband is the army. I hate that. I see why it happens though, because they are soo used to all these AWESOME things the army puts on for us that are FREE so when something comes along thats not free they are mad. Or mad its not on payday so they can afford it. I understand money is tight, but complaining about how things aren't free is crazy to me. For instance, the air show this weekend...I thought it was free because thats what I was told. So when I found out it was 8 bucks I was like uhh man I dont wanna pay that LOL. and I considered not going, I cracked a few jokes about how it should be free so I didn't have to spend $8 and went on with my day. Totallllly jk though. I wasn't mad at all. I ended up going because $8 is nothing and it was a lot of fun. (the only reason I wasn't gonna go is because 1 Im cheap and 2 this pay day is like 10 years long haha). Well mind you, this company (I believe, or maybe it was just one man Im not sure sorry lol) went out and bought a TONNNNN of tickets free for our soldiers to get in free. HOW amazing of them! Thats awesome. Well then there was girls mad because our husbands are in the field so they didn't get to go, and some units are deployed so that was a lot of people who couldn't go so they should have just given the tickets to the families LOL. CRAZZZZZY. Calm down killer. Not to mention kids under 5 are free, just throwing that out there. Or the post puts on a free concert, or something and people end up complaining it wasn't good enough. Or there was civilians there LOL.  It's crazy to me.. why are people so ungrateful? Please take a minute to remember life before the army...I dont remember ever going to an event where they give you FREE pumpkins for your kids, and activities to go along with it...such as painting your pumpkin. I never remember going to free concerts all the time, and they are GOOD concerts too...not even ones people have never heard of. LOL. I don't remember going to tons and tons of events that are just free and fun for kids....and If you do please tell me where you lived because Im gonna move there after we get out of the army LOL.

Moving on...people who get mad at me for the things I feel strongly about. Heres an idea, everyone is entitled to their opinions, Me being one of them. I'm not going to change the things I post on my facebook just because you don't agree. Last I checked it was MY facebook, and we have this thing called freedom of speech. And theres this thing called delete me if you don't like it. Sorry, Im not going to sugar coat it for you.

I probably shouldn't post this blog, but Im going to anyways.

someone pinch me!

I am soo proud of my dog! Haha. Ever since I got her she's been going into the kennel ANY time Justin and I leave the house. Oh yeah wait a minute...if your going to complain about me kenneling her -no one cares. But anyways shes getting a little older now, and I haven't cleaned up dog pee or poop in my house since Vega left. And Justin told me before he left for the field that sometimes he leaves her out if hes just running to the gas station. So one day I tested her when I took him to work, thats probably 30 mins or so...she did great. So yesterday I was feeling bad because I have been leaving a lot this week so I decided while I went to my appointment I'd let her stay out. She did AMAZING!:) I mean she did chew up some trash I left on the counter, which is funny because I had it in a pile and said I need to take this out before I leave...and totally forgot. It was just a bag and a box. She always gets paper and chews on it, even when Im home, so that didn't make me mad at all, weird dog haha. Then I decided to let her out when I went to the PX..again amazing! So then AGAIN I trusted her for about 4 hours when I went to dinner ...again perfect:) Soo I think Im going to stop forcing her to go in her kennel all the time. If Im going to be gone for a super long time without being able to check on her Ill still put her in the kennel, but its so nice to know for now at least, I can leave her free...as long as I make sure my house is clean haha. Its so amazing how fast shes grown up:(

BTW this is funny, I was thinking as I was typing that all out. If you have ever met me, you know when I talk I TALK...and my stories drag on forever...I just realized I do the same thing in my blogs hahhaa. So major props to people who actually read these haha.

Anyways -So yesterday I had a appointment. And SOOO WEIRD. Last month when I had my appointment he said at the end, next time we will find out the sex. SOOO I went in assuming HEY we will find out the sex...well I drag Jena along, because I didn't wanna go alone LOL. and suddenly they put us in a back room, with no ultrasound...Im like hmm? So Jena takes Wes to go pee, and while out there asks the nurse about the ultrasound...they said Im not getting one so she waits in the waiting room. Well in comes my doctor with the doppler, so I asked.. um I thought we were finding out the sex this appointment, its okay if we don't but you said last time we were? So he goes we can, and takes me to another room....then he leaves while the machine comes on and the nurse says Im sorry I didn't know, I said I dont think he knew either LOL. So he does this SUPER quick ultrasound tells me its a girl, and that was that LOL. Well durning he said 'it grew', mind you my doctor has a CRAZY accent..so I heard ITS GONE. and I was like WHAT and he said it again I was like oh my gosh I thought you said the baby was gone LOL. It was so scary...well then he just looked in between her legs, said she was a girl and turned off the machine. Then he tells the nurse 4 weeks, and told me we will have an official ultrasound then. I was like wow so weird haha. Well then he asks me when my baby shower is and I told him Dec and hes like OK, we will check again to make sure shes still a girl. weird haha. oh and he said my placenta is still low, but again said hes not worried. I asked if we could have sex, and he said yeah but not hard LOL. But seriously the way he said it looked like he didn't want to say yes....soo idk=/ But Justins in the field anyways so it doesn't really matter lol.

So now Im not really sure what to do, because I dont want to keep having 4,000 ultrasounds. Even though seriously all of my ultrasounds at my doctors office have been under 5 mins I swear lol. He just checks to make sure shes okay and thats that. Now at the hospital the two times I had ones that were a little longer. And then the one from the college was like 45 mins long...but Ive heard too many ultrasounds can be bad so Im kind of worried=/ Because my next appointment is Nov 18th, well I have to have my invitations mailed out at least a week before that... and how am I supposed to do that if I dont know if shes officially a girl LOL. So I may to the college in a few weeks, like 2 or 3 maybe...just to get that triple check LOL since I am still so early on...and that day just go mail out my invitations. Because I really don't wanna send out invites saying ITS A GIRL and then have to call everyone or something saying ohhh we were wrong his penis just took 10000 years to grow hahah. But then I might just say eh whatever shes a girl, and deal with it if it happens. I dont really know yet. haha.

However, Im so excited..yesterday I called around and glad a place booked for my baby shower:) The Watervliet library. I was kindddd of worried when I couldn't find their number ANYWHERE. And I was starting to think they didn't exist haha. I called coloma and they told me to rent their room it was 100 bucks, and 50 deposit, um no way haha. So I called around a few more places and yeah no. So then my friend Amanda told me watervliet was only 50 and to call them...so I googled a little harder and found the number. Even better its $50 but $20 of that is deposit, sooo its really only $30 which is awesome. Since I thought for sure it was going to be $50..Im happy:) Then I was talking to Sandra and my mom about the shower and I just got sooo excited..I can't believe it. Im finally getting my dream come true, this is really happening..someone pinch me lol. I can't wait to go home and see everyone and show off my baby belly:)) LOL. 

As I said earlier Justins in the field..he will be gone till next friday, one week left:) And then after that hes gone till about thanksgiving but home every weekend so its not too bad. His SGT let him use his phone to call me yesterday just to see how the appointment was. :) Im like STILL A GIRL haha. And then he was so cute, well how is the baby, how are you feeling...lol. Im like I have a cold but thats all, and hes like thats not gonna effect the baby is it? I think its starting to get more real for him, and the fact that he heard Im sick over the phone and hes not there to physically see it probably bothered him, because if I was hope I know he would be telling me to stuck it up:P haha.

Wellll...thats all I feel like writing<3 

Looks like we are having a girl:))

Today I went to the free college to try and find out the sex before Justin left for the field, because its obvious theres no way he was getting out of the field for a doctors appointment --even though they were kind of acting like they were gonna let him LOL. We decided not to take the chance of him missing it, and since the college is free we figured the worse case would be we went in and couldn't find the sex so it was worth a shot. I AM SOO GLAD we did because they were able to say that it LOOKS like a girl. They said they couldn't be positive because it is still early so the balls may not have appeared yet, but it looked just like a vagina haha. So for right now we are saying its a girl. My ultrasound at my doctors office is next Thursday so Im very interested to see what he says:) It was really amazing getting to do that with Justin, he was so funny. Im like I told you theres a real baby in there haha. The lady I had was really nice too. I said that the babies arms and legs seemed soo long, and shes like ohh yeah they are LOL. She tried really hard to get a good picture to print of her face, but she kept hiding. Then they allow you to bring in a blank DVD and they will record the ultrasound for you, so that was pretty awesome:) I figured if I go to the doctor on Thursday and he says its a boy, Im going to go back to the college the following week just to confirm haha.  But at this point I kind of just hope shes really a girl because I dont want to play the back and forth game and really have no clue what she is LOL.

We decided to name her Alyssa Marie:) We picked the name out when we were pregnant with out first and Justin still loves it...he wouldn't even talk girl names at ALL because hes dead set on Alyssa. I love the name too, but felt maybe there was another name out there. Now that Im told its a girl, Alyssa just seems to fitting and perfect:) My moms middle name is Marie so I love that,  also one of Justins sisters names is Marie too:) Ive always thought Alyssa was beautiful:) It seems so unreal that we are having a baby, now its even more unreal that I get to call her a SHE lol. I feel so blessed:) Besides...if she turns into a he its going to be interesting because we can't think of a boy name to save our lives. or agree I should say, he wants DANTE. Which I dont like at all lol. And I want Jeremy, which he doesn't want! soo hmm hahaha.

Justin leaves for the field monday, lame. LOL. So Im sure I will be spending lots of time with my friends! He will be in the field till the end of Nov..but home some weekends so it won't be too bad. Besides when he comes home thats like half a month and we will both be in MICHIGAN!!! Im soo excited..I can't even wait:) I miss my family and friends sooo much, I just can't wait to see everyone. Im also having my baby shower which is amazing too. Its so great how much is changing in my life...I seriously don't think I could be happier. Justin also gets sent to the promotion board in DEC....or so they are saying (haha I always add that in because the army is always changing things). He won't get his SGT or anything in DEC but once he gets points he will get it, which is awesome. Assuming he goes, and passes and all that good stuff. Im sooo proud of him, I seriously don't think he understands HOW proud I really am of him!

Well Justin just came and said he wants to watch Law & Order so Ill write more later:)

lifeeee

Tomorrow.....I will be 15 weeks. Its hard to believe it! Time does seem to be going a little faster now, I think because I'm soo close to finding out the sex:P 14 days<3

Sometimes I sit here and think about everything, and I still can't believe this is happening to us. It feels too good to be true. Its crazy too, people will ask how the baby is doing and my favorite line is 'so far so good'. I want to scream GREAT, but I feel like might somehow jinx it. So far pregnancy is nothing like I expected it to be, but I love it so much. Its funny, Im showing already..and Im hardly pregnant..but when I do a lot durning the day by evening my back is KILLING ME (mostly just the right side though) and I fall asleep soo early, haha. I love taking baths, its like the best thing EVER if you ask me..haha..so with the backaches I have been taking lots and lots of baths:) I love all the pains, it just keeps me knowing everything is okay. I still get sick from time to time. The other day I had the bright idea of eating hot funyons (sp? haha) and lemon juice...which they are just hot cheetos only bigger and fluffy. Wellllll it tasted SOO AMAZING. Until my tongue was about to die, haha. But then I brushed my teeth and it was a miracle, I didn't get the bumps and horrible pain I usually do, yay! haha So it was all fun and games until I got sick that night....it felt like I was throwing up fire hahahha. And of course I pee'd myself when that happened, because apparently I can't throw up without peeing myself:P

The other day I went into the nursery, which btw looks like a tornado hit it haha and organized things. It made me feel so much better! My friends neighbor was moving out and offered her those plastic dresser things, so she got two of them for me, YAY. I put them in the closets..they are already filled to the top with stuff haha. I have to say, so far the amount of people who have given me things, and told me they are going to give me things has shocked me! Its such a blessing. Just yesterday my friend brought over this beautiful bassinet..it looks like its never been used, and it plays music, vibrates the whole nine yards. I couldn't be more thankful! And then another friend with the thrift shop and picked me up some shorts & capris. I was like wow thank you sooo much! I feel so lucky! Not to mention the Jr Enlisted center is a fabulous recourse if your not picky -which Im not. So I have been going there every week or so to pick up baby items. I figure, its free...and the WORST case is that I have my baby showers and end up getting everything I could possibly need so I dont need the used stuff..then I pass them onto a friend who really needs them..or donate BACK to the jr enlisted. Since I've been getting so much free from them I have been donating a lot of things back to them! I have a bunch of stuff, clothes and what not that I just don't need anymore so Ive been bringing bags in randomly:)

So,.. my registration was due in July the 15th. Well I paid it and everything but never got the sticker. And got so busy doing whatever I totally forgot that I didn't get the sticker. So Justin gets a POV inspection the other day and they are like dude your registration is old, haha. He called me and was like uhh babe, did you do our registration Im like...yeahh why? haha. So yesterday I did a bunch of running around and making calls to get it taken care of. Which they said they would just mail it, but its going to take a few weeks, ooops=/ I mean but really I did get pulled over just a few weeks ago and the guy didn't say anything sooo yeah! haha. I hope we don't get pulled over again, but I had them fax over proof that its being taken care of for the army. Cuz they were going all crazy about it. Which I do understand because that is pretty serious, but its not like we didn't renew it! Which the first lady I talked to got a kick out of the fact that we didn't realize till OCT haha and then the second lady, not so much. She was pretty rude, shes like uhhh this was from JUNE (because thats when I mailed the check). Im like yeahh well crap happens! :)

Okay, I dont feel like writing anymore!
<3

Im gonna get this off my chest. And if you still think the page is funny, thats on you.

Im sure my friends who read this who think the page is FUNNY will roll their eyes and thats fine. But Im still getting messages about whats being said and this stupid page is popping up on my newsfeed and it makes me sick.

The facebook page is called overly sensitive military wives, at first when the page was brought to my attention I looked it at, I read about it and honestly I didn't think it was as funny as my friends did. So I unliked the page right away. A few weeks or so passed and I haven't heard anything about the page, well a friend of mine posted a picture from the page, so I went back to check out the page. And I ended up finding a picture of someone who Im facebook friends with on there. Saying horrible things. So of course I told her. Seriously, I would want someone to tell me if I was in a 'make em famous album' or any album for that matter. So then some drama happened, I asked people to report the page, as did she. The page got posted on Col Joes page. And it was deleted without a word. Well now a few days LATER someone informed me that they are actually e-mailing people who are ON THIS SITE and saying look, we are kicking you off of an on post organization because of the her involvement with the group. She said people spread lies about what she wrote, I hate to tell her but EVERYONE can see the things she posted. And maybe it wasn't what was under the picture, maybe it was her running to the group telling them oh shes asking people to report you. Bottom line, I think its awesome. It really shows me that Ft. Bliss is taking this page seriously. And that they won't stand for it.

What makes me the maddest I think, is people who I have in common that 'like' this page, and are active members are saying they would never make fun of someone like that. Yet there it is, wide open for the world to see. I wouldn't do this, but I do wish I could take a picture of these people...because I hate to tell you guys but your no super model -either am I, and even if you are, theres always something embarrassing about you that someone could find - even if it has to do with your personally or mistakes you made. Have you made mistakes, I know I have..millions....and Im sure I could take a million pictures or post a million bad things about you -and write it on the page for people to make fun of. That page makes fun of people who don't look good when they go out. You know army wives always say "I have kids Im tired". Guess what Ill be the first to admit, I dont have kids and I still don't feel like getting beautiful to go to the store. Most days I wear a tank top & shorts...no make up & hair up in a bun, usually pretty messy. This page targets overweight women, but not only overweight..people who look like 'crap'. And you can say 'if you go out looking like a fool don't be mad if someone takes a picture'. And honestly, I wouldn't. Im sure if someone took a picture of me looking horrible and posted it on facebook Id be embarrassed but then Id laugh, because it's whatever to me! Im waiting for me to show up on people of walmart one day, I really am. Because sometimes I go out looking pretty crazy, and thats totally fine with me.

This page keeps popping up on my newsfeed, and I really want to delete everyone thats involved just because Im sick of seeing the name. But I won't do that, because Im actually FRIENDS with some of the people who like that page (not just facebook friends). But I sit here and say, Im not a perfect person. I wouldn't even call myself a GREAT person. But I see how horribly wrong this page is. Even without the pictures, going on a public form that the WORLD can see making fun of someone who saw walking their kids to school in their pj's. Thats not right. Or making fun of peoples business's, thats their JOB. Its what they do. Why do you care? And making fun of people who are PROUD of their husbands so they wear the purses, wear dog tags, take pictures of themselves with their husbands gear on, ones who buy army clothes for their kids or wear cloth ACU diapers.. They are proud. I know I am! If your not proud of your husband, you are the ones with the issues. What kind of person does that make you? No, stop and think about it..really think about it. If someone made fun of your weight, your clothes, your look, your purse, your husband, your family -how would it make you feel? Im sure if I talked about you behind your back it would hurt, but if I publicly blasted you for the world to see, and even if its just the people who 'like' the page, thats close to 4,000 people who now have a bad taste in their mouth because of me. Sure that page is entertaining, but will it be just an entertaining when someone you don't get along with posts something nasty about you on the page? When someone sees you in a shirt, and you think you look fine but someone points out how FAT you look? And people are bashing you to no end. Most woman have a weight complex, and other women judge that. I can pick through MY friends who like this page, and point out their flaws and public bash them. Just as they can do to me, but what does that do? Does it make you feel better to laugh at someone else?

I read a blog of a lady. It was sad, she was writing about how someone took a picture of her children at the store, and posted it on there. Apparently someone told her about it, she saw all the nasty things people said about her. She talked about how immature the page is, and what not. She talked about how it hurt. But I'm willing to bet she cried, and she cried hard. People..its not funny.

The page won't be shut down, and even if all 19 of my friends unlike the page (which makes me sick because before I wrote my status the other day I had 15 friends in common, 3 of them unliked it durning the whole thing and now its back up to 19), theres always 20 more people who will find this page and laugh and think its great. Hopefully with this blog at least someone will unlike the page.

I know Im guilty of posting things about people on my personal facebook, things that never should have been posted. No matter how much I dislike the person, but you know Im learning and growing from it. And Im sorry to all those people who I hurt. I dont have 4,000 friends but I have plenty who saw many things about my drama they shouldn't have seen. You live, learn & grow from your mistakes. Thats what makes you a better person.