Parenting

As I'm sitting here with my daughter kicking me and moving all over inside me.... I'm reading my facebook and I see a status this proud momma posted about how her two kids got birthday cards in the mail, her son opens it up and sees money..he then asks her 'Mom can I donate this money to kids with cancer, because I know that is way more important then any toy I want'. I stopped dead in my tracks to really think about what kind of mother she must be...we don't really know each other. I see her statuses on my newsfeed as Im sure she sees mine. But I don't really KNOW her...but her status really got me thinking. She must be one amazing mother to raise such amazing children. Then it gets me thinking, I want that for Alyssa. I want to be an amazing mother, someone that she looks up to. I want the very best for her. You ever meet a child, and your just sitting there watching, not trying to be judgmental...but thinking WOAH I pray my kid never acts like that. If you haven't, well I guess Im a horrible person then. LOL. Because I do..everyone says its all about how to raise them. Which I believe, but I do also know you can do everything right and still have a rotten child. It makes me want to talk to those people with AMAZING children, and just ask 'what did you do differently from other parents'. My mom is my life, shes everything to me. I mean everything! I don't know what I would do without her, and please God don't let me find out for MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY years. I always go to her for advice on anything, esp parenting. I hope and pray I can be HALF the mother she is. 

One thing that my Mom always tells me is that you have to respect your husband, and your children. If you don't respect the people living in your household your children are going to pick up on that. And they won't respect you. Well one thing that really worries me. If you actually really know Justin & I...you know our relationship. You know how in love we are, but you also know how 'mean' we are to each other. We LOVE to joke around, all day every day. He calls me fat daily, I tell him hes too skinny. He makes fun of me for things, I make fun of him...its just how we are. And of course we do it with smiles on our faces and lots of love. He tells me 'go get me a dr pepper. now' so I tell him 'say please?' and he says 'go get me a dr pepper please. NOW'. Its all fun in games...but now that Alyssa is coming I worry she will pick up on those jokes and not realize we are kidding? Do we need to change who we are to be better parents for her? I know that she will know we love each other more then anything. We don't fight often **knock on wood haha** Although I know when we do we will either A) not be able to do it around her or B) change up the way we fight haha. I don't want her to think marriage is perfect, because its notttt. I want her to know its normal to fight, but I also don't ever want her to see us disrespecting each other. 

There is soo much to being a parent.  I know I will lose my temper, she will drive me nuts, I'll wanna sell her to the zoo (maybe haha), there will be nights I will be crying because she won't sleep, or stop crying. Over the years she will test her limits and be bad, because thats what children do. I just hope & pray I am never the mother that I have seen others be. Is that being judgmental? Im not really sure. I like to think of it is as learning from other peoples mistakes, as I hope people learn from mine -because there will be plenty of mistakes. I swear, I used to think when it came time for me to finally be a mom I would want to hold her 24/7, let her get away with things because shes too cute. But over time, Ive learned that I just can't do that. How I raise her from day one is going to set up the rest of her life. Which Im not going to lie, is a tad be scary. Kids will do as much as you let them get away with. I don't want to be mean mommy, but I know I will have to be in order to be a great mother. I think people take the things I say too personal though, like I can look at someone and say, I don't want to be a mom like her AT ALL. Doesn't mean I hate her as a person, just means I don't want to follow in her footsteps of parenting. Theres nothing wrong with that. LOL. I can think your crazy, and you can think Im crazy:) I have friends who are all about being natural with everything...I think they are crazy...and they think Im crazy:) haha. Everyone parents differently. Like Jena, wants 5 kids..I think shes NUTS haha. She thinks Im nuts for only wanting 2..thats life:) 

I have to say, Im SUPER glad I got a dog though. Bella has been my test tool:P I didn't realize it when I got her, but she really has been. Shes the PRIME example of dogs/kids will do whatever you allow them to get away with. When I first got her I had her trained not to get on the couches or on the bed. Over time I changed that because I wanted to cuddle with her. I still don't mind that she does it. and Im glad I let her on them..I wouldn't change that. I am a little worried about her getting excited and jumping on the couch when Alyssa is laying there...but its going to take time. I started a horrible habit of feeding her people food..ahhh why! LOL. Actually -Justin started it. And I finished it, haha. Now she begs horribly, I could totally break that...but whatever shes only gonna live a few years she might as well get some good food of the deal:P But the worst habit is that she loves wrappers, and anytime I finish anything she wants to lick it clean. Before I didn't really mind it, but now I HATE it because she knows if I lay it down, its hers. So she takes them off my night stand and licks them to death, then Im picking up wrappers every where haha. I wish I could train her to throw them in the trash when shes done haha. Other then that, shes a really good dog. Shes still a baby so she gets VERY hyper whenever ANYONE comes over. She acts like she gets no love at home....as shes laying next to me while I type this. Dont let her fool you, shes spoiled:P Im just so glad I got to make mistakes with my dog, and see how it one time can effect the future, now I know not to do that with Alyssa! :) 

Little girls come with a lot of STUFF

As a lot of you know the past 5 months I have been picking up things here and there...mostly FREEE things from the Jr Enlisted or amazing people giving away clothes on facebook. Well now the room looks like baby stuff has thrown up all over the room LOL. I finally got my crib/dresser set ordered, which I'm SO excited about:D I got an e-mail today saying they should deliver it on or before the 19th. They are going to call to schedule delivery. So tonight I went into Alyssa's room to have a look around..and woah LOL. I know once I actually go through everything and put it away, Im going to realize I have like nothing. But looking at it all sitting on the bed is just plain scary haha.  So tonight I threw everything in piles, clothes, bibs, towels, toys, blankets lol. What is even more scary is how much stuff I still NEED. Thankfully Im getting my stuff soon so then that will help get the room set up..so I won't feel like its just a mess. Then that should hold me over till I got home for Christmas:D By the time I get home it will be Jan, I can put everything away & see what I still need. THEN I just need to hold myself over till March for my second baby shower..haha. THEN less then a month & my little princess will be here! Ahh I can't wait!<3

I'm so happy though because I already have quite a few toys for her and books:D Im so excited to read to her...I kind of want to start now but honestly I feel silly. I really thought Id talk to her too...no, I feel weird doing that too. Besides what am I supposed to say? haha. She kicks all the time now...its amazing. I swear it doesn't matter what Im doing if she kicks I smile. She kicks a lot in the morning and at night. Yesterday I stayed in bed all day and she kicked all day long...amazing. Shes so strong I swear. I haven't figured out what makes her kick, except for eating. It never fails if I eat, shes gonna start kicking. Kind of makes me wanna eat 24/7 haha jk.

As far as my weight goes..Im really excited to see how much the doctors scale says I have gained. Last time I was there (like 2 weeks ago maybe?) I had gained 7lbs. I was SO excited haha. So Im wondering if I gained anymore. My babycenter app says I should have gained 10 by now..and expect to gain about a pound a week for the next 20 weeks. That would put me at 30lbs total. I'm just saying...I'll probably gain more then that LOL. I keep saying I hope that I'm on of those amazing girls that leaves the hospital and you are like what the hell did she even have a baby? hahah, I KNOW thats not going to happen. But  it would be nice. ALSO would be amazing if I could lose all my weight in 6-8 weeks. Im PRETTY sure my mom told me she lost all hers in that time with me, not with my sister though. HOWEVER she eat healthy with me, and not with my sister. and I don't eat healthy. ALSO would be amazing if I got no stretch marks. Hahah <---a girl can dream can't she:D Really though -no matter what happens to my body, Alyssa was WELL worth it thats for sure!<3 Ummm IDC if this is TMI IM SHARING lol...seriously my nipples are so bad now. I might have wrote this in my other blog, idk haha. They are sooooo big. What the heck LOL. Alyssa betttter be able to BF esp since my boobs are already CRAZY LOL!! Seriously though, are they gonna go back? LOL. I swear they are like IDK hahah. Soo big! hahahah. and DARK. hahah. ok ok ok, enough about my boobs!! HAHA. Other then that, Im not noticing any other body changes. Well besides the obvious one, my belly is getting so big. I LOVE IT. I can't see my vagina anymore when I look down, yep I love it! LOL its hard to see the bottom of my stomach too..Its tooo funny:P ohhh and my face DID clear up for a few weeks, it was beautiful but now we are back to pimply again, haha. Seriously, I dont know how people don't love pregnancy. I LOVE it. And its not like I feel great all the time....trust me I dont. Im tired, out of breath, I'm super emotional, I get my feelings hurt, I cry, Im uncomfortable, Im in pain, Im always starving...but seriously...all of those things make me smile because I know Im growing a miracle inside me! And Im not just saying that...I really do smile when those things happen. Once Im done crying (who knows why Im even crying because I never do) I just laugh at myself. I can honestly say, I thought pregnancy was so amazing before, I had NO clue just how amazing it really is.

Justin goes back to the field tomorrow...wahh! haha jk. Its the last week YAY:D We had another wonderful weekend. I seriously love him so much:) And I dont care what anyone says, sometimes that few days away from him just makes me realize how in love I really am with him. Even though last night I totally had a melt down, because he always calls me FAT, he always has..it doesn't bother me because I know Im sexy haha..well last night he didn't even call me fat since like way earlier that day but I couldn't get full..so I kept going to get food and he was playing his game. I felt like everything I was getting he was thinking oh my gosh shes a whale LMAO. Seriously, then I convinced myself that I was eating too much...so I got all sad and told him I can't wait till he goes back into the field so I don't have to hear that Im fat everyday...and I was BAWLING my eyes out while eating a ppj sandwich HAHAH. He was like babe seriously you know your not fat your beautiful. And then I couldn't stop crying and he was like laughing at me soo hard, which now Im sitting here typing this laughing so hard...but seriously it was sooo funny. I don't know how I got myself all worked up over what I was eating but I deff did! hahah. Gotta love those hormones:D Im just saying though, it deff gives me something to laugh about later! And my husband -just simply amazing for putting up with my CRAZY self!:)

my amazing day!! LOL

I just have to blog about my wonderful day!

So bright and early this morning my dog woke me up -6:30 not my idea of a good time, But whatever haha. Well then I ran by Amy's to pick some a few things she was going to give me. One of them was a care bear blanket for Alyssa, its sooo cute. Then she also had a doggy stocking she gave me for Bella...soo cute. Then I go to PWOC which is always a blast & Amanda came up to me & gave me the cutest Christmas tree decoration. Its a little mouse that says Mom to be, its sooo cute. Then she told me to ignore the year on the back which said Christmas 1990. I thought that was the coolest thing because I was born in 1990!:) I have to say I feel soo blessed by the things my friends have given or bought for me. I love my friends:)<3 So then PWOC was wonderful as usual.

Then Vicki, Anna and I went to lunch at the px. As I was parking I saw the glass guy..I was soooo happy because on halloween weekend I was driving and I got behind a semi and a rock flew up and hit my windshield, I was sooo mad, but I also knew that the glass guys are ALWAYS at the px and always telling you that your chips will be covered. So I was just waiting to run into them. Well today was my lucky day ((which apparently they are at the PX every day haha)) and he fixed my TWO cracks- yeah we found another one..depressing. LOL. Buttt it was totally covered by my insurance -I love you USAA- but I had to call them to get my member number, which is pretty funny because I could have just gotten it out of my car. Well I was MEANT to call them today because they asked my address which I swore I updated, but I guess not...and then he sent me over to renters insurance to update my address on that as well. After he updated my address for all my stuff he said that car insurance didn't change but my renters went DOWN $22 a year. Which is only a few bucks a month but hey thats amazing and I will take it. I wish I would have updated sooner, since Ive lived here since April haha. But Im so glad it was caught now and not after something happened to my house and then nothing was covered. I LOVE USAA though lol. Im so excited because if that crack never happened, I wouldn't have updated my insurance saving me money. What a blessing! LOL.

But my day wasn't done being awesome after that. THEN we ate lunch, and went into the PX where I finally found the perfect bra! AND it was only $24, which if your a girl you know bras can be pretty pricy. So I was soo excited...I dont even want to talk about what size I am now...but Im gonna post it anyways because if I dont everyone is gonna wonder. 38 D LOL. I went from a 36C to a 38D in just 20 short weeks! LOL. My girls are HUGE now. LOL. Im not saying I don't love them because I deff love them more now that I found an awesome bra LOL. THEN I found a shirt for only $10, and if you have ever shopped for maternity clothes you know thats such a blessing lol. THENNNNNN LOL..I found the CUTEST outfit for Alyssa! Well, Vicki found it. LOL. She said I had to buy it, she had it in two different sizes for Kylee haha. It says Daddys favorite girl, and its got pants to go with it. Its super cute and was on sale..and I got it in 9months because I know I already have a lot of little clothes!

BUT thats not ALL lol. So then I call my mom just to talk and I ask if she knows yet about getting a coupon for Thanksgiving...for those that dont know We are getting Alyssa's dresser set from JcPenny's.. And its a pretty penny, Im not going to lie, but we were waiting around because its on SALE and for my mom to get a coupon that is either 20 or 25% WELL she got one in the mail! She wasn't home when I called so shes gonna check it out, butttttt that means we get to order her crib/dresser set soo soon! IM SO EXCITED I CANT EVEN CONTAIN MYSELF LOL.

Now Im just relaxing, because Im SUPERRR tired from my long amazing day!:P

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I am so ready for Dec, yes I know it only just turned Nov. But Im ready to go home and see my family & friends. Its soo close, yet so far away:( Im also ready to start getting Alyssa's room set up..I feel like I'm wasting time sitting around doing nothing. I want to order her bedroom set ASAP, but I have to wait for a coupon from JcPenny's. The black friday AD came out for Pennys and they said that furniture is going to be 45-65% off. So Im praying mine goes on sale, or one of the other ones I love. Because then it will be on sale, AND I get my moms discount woohoo! Once I get her bedroom set I think Ill feel a lot better because then her stuff won't just be laying around every where, and I can wash & put away the stuff she does have! I'm just so ready to get things going on her room, ahh. Im also ready for this stupid field crap to be over. My poor husband, I swear -Im so thankful hes the one in the army and not me. haha. I hear wives complain about staying home with their kids..Im sure your husband would trade with you in a one second LOL. The things my husband tells me  -I know I'd rather get 4 hours of sleep because my baby is crying and then get to lay around all day with her..then nap when she does...then get 4 hours of sleep and go on a 'mission' and be doing crap all day. They deff take this crap like a champ though, way better then me or ANY of my friends would haha. Im so proud of him though, for everything! He got a coin while out there again, this one he actually seems kind of proud of! Last time he was like eh whatever haha. But I think its because he really didnt know why he got the last two.. this time his SGT wrote a big paragraph about how awesome (pretty much what it said I guess) he is. Just makes me so proud, hes grown into such an awesome man and amazing solider! He goes to the board on Dec 5th...woo hoo<3  So this weekend hes getting his ACUS ready for that. Which means $$$$, anything that has to go with the army means money I swear. haha. I know its all worth it though. If he passes the board they said he will be SPC with a P status...and he will go to WLC (I think thats what its called haha) in Jan. Then they said after that stuff its just waiting for points! He also came home an told me hes doing or maybe doing more field training in Jan. Then he should be all of a feb off and back in March, but Idk how much he will be doing in March because Im due at the end:) Wow when you say it like that March doesn't seem too far away haha. Only 21 weeks left and our daughter will be here. Which reminds me, today we were in the baby section and Justin was like wow, how am I going to shop for my daughter? Haha it was cute. 

I am suchhhh a grump lately. Ive been getting annoyed by EVERYTHING. I try so hard not too, but I can't help it lol.  Today Im super mad because my ear is acting up AGAIN. Its like clogged, I dont even understand how this happens. Its been months messing with this crazy ear! If it doesn't go away in a few days after starting my drops again looks like Ill be calling the doctor. I also hate burlington coat factory, haha. I went there today to look at their crib/dressers set to compare prices and see if I liked any. I couldn't really tell because all the ones on display looked horrible! And they didn't have the prices displayed for both dressers. And I swear no one worked there at all.. because I couldn't find a single person. I was like oh my gosh this is crap. So then Justin went looking for clothes...because he always turns shopping to be all about him! Haha, but he  got some clothes for super cheap so that was awesome! Well I went to look at bras because I need a bra horribly...first off it was MESS. There was crap everywhere all over the entire store in fact... and they didn't have my size at all. How hard is it to find a D haha, yes seriously by boobs have decided to grow -a lot. Im going to need to go to JcPennys and find one I think...I wanted to try to suck it up and wear the one I have for my entire pregnancy, but thats nott happening. I can always tell how much they have grown because I knew how they fit in my hands before I got pregnant -perfectly. NOW they are huge, hahahah.  Oh and we wanted ihop this morning, well I did lol....and we went to two different ones- crazy long lines, like we probably would have waited over an hour, I was like DANG. We will never try to go out that early again LOL. We got krispy kreme instead. It wasn't ihop but it was still pretty good, plus we have extras. We got a dozen, and oh my gosh my husband ate 5! WOAH. I ate 2, so needless to say I will be sharing with him. Then I got hot choc, which wasn't good...and then spilled it all over the floor of the car. Niceee. We had a lot of laughs about it though, so its all good. 

Nothing new has really been going on, well except that I feel Alyssa ALLLLL the time now. I LOVE IT. Oh and Justin felt her on Friday, it was soo funny. I told him I thought it might be to soon but we can check because the ultrasound tech did say shes very strong so we thought what the heck haha. So I put his hand on my stomach and then she did a strong kick and I was like oh my gosh did you feel that -well his hand was all weird on there, so he readjusted it and then I felt her move again and he didn't...so Im like whatever Im just gonna stop saying anything and he will tell me if he feels her..and then all of a sudden he was like 'holy shit I think I just felt it'. and I got super excited I was like REALLY? And hes like 'yeah, unless your stomach is doing some weird ass gas' it was sooo funny. I was like wow. Haha. I love him, hes so crazy haha.<3 

Boy or Girl? 21 Old Wives’ Tales That May Tell You

Boy or Girl? 21 Old Wives’ Tales That May Tell You*

Sleep PositionPay attention to which way you lay down in bed tonight. If you prefer sleeping on your left side, you’ll have a boy. Right side? You’re pregnant with a girl.
I sleep on both so I seriously don't know. I always slept on my left side before I got pregnant, and now I always start on my left side and end up on my right, or back or who knows. So I can't even vote on this one lol. 

Upset StomachLittle girls aren’t always sweet. Extreme nausea means you are having a daughter.
Umm yeah....GIRL haha.

Soft or Dry HandsIf your hands are dry during pregnancy, you are having a boy; soft—expect a girl.
They feel like they always have.... 

Food CravingsYour favorite pregnancy foods may tell you what sex the baby is. If you’re craving citrus while pregnant, you’re having a girl.
Girl...lemons, yumm. haha. 

Adult AcneIf altering hormones makes your skin break out, expect a girl.
GIRRRRL. My face was horrible at the beginning haha. 

Graceful or Clumsy PregnancyIf you feel as though you’re gliding through they day, you’ll have a girl. Stumbling? It’s a boy.
Ive always been a cluts..so Im not too sure. But I haven't fallen since I got pregnant so I guess this could maybe count as girl? Idk. 

Face Weight GainIf your face gets fuller, it means you’re having a girl.
BOY (so far, anyway).

Sugar and Spice Food Cravings
Craving salt during pregnancy? Potato chips, pretzels, and popcorn means a boy is on the way. Need a little something sweet? Ice cream, chocolate, and candy means you’re having a girl. 

GIRL lol. 

Mood ChangesIf you’re experiencing pregnant mood-swings, expect a baby girl to arrive soon.
...Girl. lol.

High or Low Pregnant BellyIf you’re carrying the baby low on your stomach, expect a boy. If it’s high, you’re having a girl.
Not sure – I think this is for those who are farther along.

Baby WeightIf you’re carrying baby in front, it’s a boy. Is the baby weight spaced all around your middle? It’s a girl.
Im not 100% sure, but looking from my back..Id say a girl. 

Pendulum TestDangle a chain with a charm over your palm. If it swings back and forth: boy. In a circle: girl.
It said girl:P However the pencil test says boy. soo idk. haha.

Model Your Hands“Show me your hands.” If you would hold your hands palms up it’s a girl. Down? You’re having a boy.
Not sure..

Toddler AdviceGet baby advice from a nephew or friend’s little boy. If a toddler boy shows interest in your belly, you’ll have a girl. If he ignores you, it’s a boy.

Girl! 

Eat Garlic

Guess the baby’s sex by eating garlic. If the smell seeps out of your pores it’s a boy. If there’s no scent it’s a little girl. 
I have no clue...

Key to PregnancyIf you pick up a key by the round end, you’re having a boy. If it’s by the long end? A girl. 
Not sure

Even and Odd NumbersIf your age and year of conception are both even or odd, it’s girl. One even, one odd means a boy.
GIRL

Baby’s HeartbeatIf the baby’s heart beats more than 150 times per minute, you’re pregnant with a girl. Less than 150, it’s a boy.
Well, Im not sure...at the begining the heart rate was always high, now her heart rate is 140-150. 

Stress TestA child tends to be of the same sex as the parent who is less stressed at the time of conception.
That would be girl. I wasn't stressed because I was just told I would get clomid, and I wasn't trying because I figured I couldn't get pregnant since he was leaving a few days prior to ovulation. Justin was stressed because of the field training crap!

Dream MeaningsIf you dream about having a girl while pregnant, you will wind up having a boy and vice versa.

I haven't dreamed of either. 

Breast SizeIf your right breast is larger than the left while pregnant, you are having a girl. If the left is larger, it’s a baby boy.
Neither.

Id say girl wins:))) I go tomorrow to the college again with my friend so she can find out the sex, Im gonna get another ultrasound because and see...and then my doctors appointment is Tues! So lets see if Alyssa is still a girl:) haha 

Pregnancy hormones at its best

Ah. I'm going to blame this mean blog on pregnancy hormones, why? Well because I finally have the chance to use that as an excuse...and because I do really think it is hormones.

I am so sick of ungrateful people. I have been hearing TONS of stories about someone, and I want to take this girl and smack the crap out of her and give her a reality check. Your family (ESP YOUR MOM) does soooo much for you, so heres an idea. Appreciate it, stop acting like your the queen of the world. I dont know you realize but when people had to spend hard earned money on those gifts you didn't appreciate, and didn't even say thank you for.  Im sorry but 'thank you so much, I got your gift' goes A LONGGGGGGG WAY. And it makes me never want to spend money on you again. And no Im not kidding. Because heres the thing, you act like a spoiled brat and people aren't going to be there for you next time. Which I do notttt understand, you weren't raised this way. And the way you treat your mother is crap, and I wishhhhhhh one day she would teach you a lesson. But she won't, because shes too nice and she loves you. It makes me sick to my stomach. Nothing makes me more sick then people that use their parents. And uh your mother loves you so much, so those RUDE comments you make really hurt her. Im positive she cried over your last horrible comment. And I seriously wish I was there when it was said to A) say something or B) punch you. YOU DO NOTTTT TREAT YOUR MOM LIKE DIRT. END OF STORY! Not to mention, your mom isn't going to be around forever. And tomorrow deff is not promised. How would you feel if god forbid she died tomorrow? This goes for EVERYONE, do your loved ones no how much you mean to them?? And how much you appreciate every little thing they do for you? If not its time to let them know. Theres tons more I could say, but Im going to leave it at that. Im not trying to be a horrible person, but when you treat people that I love bad, it hurts me. And it makes me angry.

I have noticed since getting pregnant I feel differently towards certain people. I have way less patience, and I feel like hitting people a lot more, haha. I get angry a lot easier. and I get my feelings hurt a lot more. Part of this anger is coming from the fact that Im tired (I really don't think its because of the pregnancy) I haven't slept good for weeks. And its been worse since I got sick, which Ive come to the conclusion that this is nottt a cold. It has to be allergies. My nose is running all the time and my head hurts thats about it. But my nose running is clear, no green. Which is a great sign...but I can't sleep lol. My dog is super annoying at night...I dont wanna kick her out of bed because I LOVEE cuddling with her but sometimes I wanna smack her haha. Anddd yes Im gonna say it...I misssss my husband<3 Usually durning the field hes able to text me daily, so its not that big of a deal. Well this time I haven't been able to talk to him hardly at all, it deff makes it different. I'm totally fine with him being in the field because Im just sooo thankful hes not deploying, and that hes only gone 2 weeks instead of a year. But I would be lying if I said I didn't miss him. I always miss Justin when hes gone, even if its just CQ haha. And sorry but if you don't miss your husband when hes gone theres something with with you and your marriage. I still do think its annoying when girls whine on facebook 24/7 about missing their man though. Just because I think they need to remember that while their husband is gone 2 weeks...your friends man is gone a year. Be thankful!

My neighbors dog.....barks all the time. And you know I have lived here since April..Ive been nice but today it just reallllly annoyed me. I was laying in bed, with the fan on, and I could STILL here it. I wanted to yell out the window SHUTTT UP. But I didn't. I just hate it, its a beagle, I hate those kind of dogs anyways, they are so cute but their bark drives me up the wall. Ahhh. I just want them to take their dogs inside so they dont bark, lol. Thats all....but Im sure tomorrow will come and it won't annoy me as much. Just today it does..

People who complain about living on post, or military housing yet they do nothing about it. Well heres the thing, no one is going to love where they live all the time and thats just fine. But people who are like I hate housing its the worst choice I ever made, blah blah blah. Yet they don't move? Instead we get to see them post all over public forms about how much they hate their house. I think they forget the list for housing is huge, and many many many people are on the list that would LOVE to live in the house you complain so much about. So please, do us a favor and move off post and try to find a nice house within BAH, that you don't go OVER at all. Because its not easy. We lived in a townhouse apartment, we never went over BAH....but our apartment was crap, everything was always broken, they never fixed anything, and we lived with mold. If youd like that over housing, please feel free to give them a call. :) And yes I do know its possible to find houses/apartments that are under, but its nottt easy.

Wife's who think they are entitled to something FREE, or everything free- just because their husband is the army. I hate that. I see why it happens though, because they are soo used to all these AWESOME things the army puts on for us that are FREE so when something comes along thats not free they are mad. Or mad its not on payday so they can afford it. I understand money is tight, but complaining about how things aren't free is crazy to me. For instance, the air show this weekend...I thought it was free because thats what I was told. So when I found out it was 8 bucks I was like uhh man I dont wanna pay that LOL. and I considered not going, I cracked a few jokes about how it should be free so I didn't have to spend $8 and went on with my day. Totallllly jk though. I wasn't mad at all. I ended up going because $8 is nothing and it was a lot of fun. (the only reason I wasn't gonna go is because 1 Im cheap and 2 this pay day is like 10 years long haha). Well mind you, this company (I believe, or maybe it was just one man Im not sure sorry lol) went out and bought a TONNNNN of tickets free for our soldiers to get in free. HOW amazing of them! Thats awesome. Well then there was girls mad because our husbands are in the field so they didn't get to go, and some units are deployed so that was a lot of people who couldn't go so they should have just given the tickets to the families LOL. CRAZZZZZY. Calm down killer. Not to mention kids under 5 are free, just throwing that out there. Or the post puts on a free concert, or something and people end up complaining it wasn't good enough. Or there was civilians there LOL.  It's crazy to me.. why are people so ungrateful? Please take a minute to remember life before the army...I dont remember ever going to an event where they give you FREE pumpkins for your kids, and activities to go along with it...such as painting your pumpkin. I never remember going to free concerts all the time, and they are GOOD concerts too...not even ones people have never heard of. LOL. I don't remember going to tons and tons of events that are just free and fun for kids....and If you do please tell me where you lived because Im gonna move there after we get out of the army LOL.

Moving on...people who get mad at me for the things I feel strongly about. Heres an idea, everyone is entitled to their opinions, Me being one of them. I'm not going to change the things I post on my facebook just because you don't agree. Last I checked it was MY facebook, and we have this thing called freedom of speech. And theres this thing called delete me if you don't like it. Sorry, Im not going to sugar coat it for you.

I probably shouldn't post this blog, but Im going to anyways.

someone pinch me!

I am soo proud of my dog! Haha. Ever since I got her she's been going into the kennel ANY time Justin and I leave the house. Oh yeah wait a minute...if your going to complain about me kenneling her -no one cares. But anyways shes getting a little older now, and I haven't cleaned up dog pee or poop in my house since Vega left. And Justin told me before he left for the field that sometimes he leaves her out if hes just running to the gas station. So one day I tested her when I took him to work, thats probably 30 mins or so...she did great. So yesterday I was feeling bad because I have been leaving a lot this week so I decided while I went to my appointment I'd let her stay out. She did AMAZING!:) I mean she did chew up some trash I left on the counter, which is funny because I had it in a pile and said I need to take this out before I leave...and totally forgot. It was just a bag and a box. She always gets paper and chews on it, even when Im home, so that didn't make me mad at all, weird dog haha. Then I decided to let her out when I went to the PX..again amazing! So then AGAIN I trusted her for about 4 hours when I went to dinner ...again perfect:) Soo I think Im going to stop forcing her to go in her kennel all the time. If Im going to be gone for a super long time without being able to check on her Ill still put her in the kennel, but its so nice to know for now at least, I can leave her free...as long as I make sure my house is clean haha. Its so amazing how fast shes grown up:(

BTW this is funny, I was thinking as I was typing that all out. If you have ever met me, you know when I talk I TALK...and my stories drag on forever...I just realized I do the same thing in my blogs hahhaa. So major props to people who actually read these haha.

Anyways -So yesterday I had a appointment. And SOOO WEIRD. Last month when I had my appointment he said at the end, next time we will find out the sex. SOOO I went in assuming HEY we will find out the sex...well I drag Jena along, because I didn't wanna go alone LOL. and suddenly they put us in a back room, with no ultrasound...Im like hmm? So Jena takes Wes to go pee, and while out there asks the nurse about the ultrasound...they said Im not getting one so she waits in the waiting room. Well in comes my doctor with the doppler, so I asked.. um I thought we were finding out the sex this appointment, its okay if we don't but you said last time we were? So he goes we can, and takes me to another room....then he leaves while the machine comes on and the nurse says Im sorry I didn't know, I said I dont think he knew either LOL. So he does this SUPER quick ultrasound tells me its a girl, and that was that LOL. Well durning he said 'it grew', mind you my doctor has a CRAZY accent..so I heard ITS GONE. and I was like WHAT and he said it again I was like oh my gosh I thought you said the baby was gone LOL. It was so scary...well then he just looked in between her legs, said she was a girl and turned off the machine. Then he tells the nurse 4 weeks, and told me we will have an official ultrasound then. I was like wow so weird haha. Well then he asks me when my baby shower is and I told him Dec and hes like OK, we will check again to make sure shes still a girl. weird haha. oh and he said my placenta is still low, but again said hes not worried. I asked if we could have sex, and he said yeah but not hard LOL. But seriously the way he said it looked like he didn't want to say yes....soo idk=/ But Justins in the field anyways so it doesn't really matter lol.

So now Im not really sure what to do, because I dont want to keep having 4,000 ultrasounds. Even though seriously all of my ultrasounds at my doctors office have been under 5 mins I swear lol. He just checks to make sure shes okay and thats that. Now at the hospital the two times I had ones that were a little longer. And then the one from the college was like 45 mins long...but Ive heard too many ultrasounds can be bad so Im kind of worried=/ Because my next appointment is Nov 18th, well I have to have my invitations mailed out at least a week before that... and how am I supposed to do that if I dont know if shes officially a girl LOL. So I may to the college in a few weeks, like 2 or 3 maybe...just to get that triple check LOL since I am still so early on...and that day just go mail out my invitations. Because I really don't wanna send out invites saying ITS A GIRL and then have to call everyone or something saying ohhh we were wrong his penis just took 10000 years to grow hahah. But then I might just say eh whatever shes a girl, and deal with it if it happens. I dont really know yet. haha.

However, Im so excited..yesterday I called around and glad a place booked for my baby shower:) The Watervliet library. I was kindddd of worried when I couldn't find their number ANYWHERE. And I was starting to think they didn't exist haha. I called coloma and they told me to rent their room it was 100 bucks, and 50 deposit, um no way haha. So I called around a few more places and yeah no. So then my friend Amanda told me watervliet was only 50 and to call them...so I googled a little harder and found the number. Even better its $50 but $20 of that is deposit, sooo its really only $30 which is awesome. Since I thought for sure it was going to be $50..Im happy:) Then I was talking to Sandra and my mom about the shower and I just got sooo excited..I can't believe it. Im finally getting my dream come true, this is really happening..someone pinch me lol. I can't wait to go home and see everyone and show off my baby belly:)) LOL. 

As I said earlier Justins in the field..he will be gone till next friday, one week left:) And then after that hes gone till about thanksgiving but home every weekend so its not too bad. His SGT let him use his phone to call me yesterday just to see how the appointment was. :) Im like STILL A GIRL haha. And then he was so cute, well how is the baby, how are you feeling...lol. Im like I have a cold but thats all, and hes like thats not gonna effect the baby is it? I think its starting to get more real for him, and the fact that he heard Im sick over the phone and hes not there to physically see it probably bothered him, because if I was hope I know he would be telling me to stuck it up:P haha.

Wellll...thats all I feel like writing<3