recap 2011

I'm going to attempt to recap 2011.

January: I started the new year with my mom, sister, Sandra, Seth & the Tortorich's. :) Of course my birthday is on the 9th:) Sandra, mom, Vicki & I celebrated my 21st birthday at the casino! My period was due ON my birthday so I planned to have just one drink at home (we went to the casino the weekend after) once my period came, because I just knew the damn thing was going to show. Well I was in for a huge surprise when my period was late. I tested on Monday the 10th and apparently didn't give the test long enough because I got a BFN. Sandra came over on the 11th and made me take another test so she took a test just to make sure they really work (she was pregnant with Kylee), as we were throwing hers away we found mine from the day before..with a BFP on it. I took another test & sure enough I WAS pregnant. We jumped up & down like crazy people, I bawled like a baby & called, texted & facebooked EVERYONE! I got to celebrate till Jan 15th when I suddenly started bleeding, I knew what was happening so I had my sister rush me to the ER where they checked levels. My levels were very low & they told me to go back in a few days, but I already knew what was happening. The very next day was Seths 1st birthday party -which was the reason I stayed in MI so much longer last year. Levi couldn't be there due to deployment so I really wanted to be there for her. I sucked up the tears & went to his birthday party, because there was no way I was missing it. The 17th I just spent in bed, pretty much crying all day. I went back to the ER on the 18th -Seths actual birthday. It was confirmed that I had lost the baby. My world came crashing down.

Feb- Umm...valentines day? Idk, I spend a lot of Feb depressed, well pretty much till July haha.

March -Wooo hoo -March was THE MONTH -we were getting out of that NASTY apartment. I was planning on moving into high vista apartments. But then Amanda told me to try to talk to housing & get a house, since we had been waiting a year! By george they had a house for us! Only problem, we couldn't move until after our lease was already up, so we got stuck paying WAY To much for an extra month in that crap hole. It ended up being beyond worth it though, I LOVE living on post! I think we ended up leaving late March/early April..Im not exactly sure. But it was the biggest blessing!!<3

April -Easter...thats about it lol. We spend the day with friends, and I got to host in my NEW house:)))<3

May- My mom & sister came to visit. We had a ton of fun, and I hated to see them go! I also got the dogs in May:) I had been thinking about getting a dog for a while, Justin kept saying no. So I borrowed my friends dog & told him she was ours (haha) -he did NOT think it was funny but we kept the dog over night & it made him realize we wanted a dog. The next day or so Jena & I went to the humane society to find me a dog! I fell in love with so many, but there wasn't one that caught me eye. Justin wanted a bulldog and while we were looking we found the perfect bulldog, he was soo cute. Justin was taking 10 years to text back if he wanted the dog or not, and besides the dog had a collar with tags & everything so we assumed he had a home. They said we could adopt him, but if his family came for him in the time frame we would have to get or money back or get another dog. I ended up leaving & going back less then 30mins later..someone had already grabbed that dog! So Justin & I went back later & he went to ask about the dog, just in case...and they said no. So they took him to BELLA. They said they had the perfect dog for us, and that she was a boxer. They went on to tell us about her....and then I asked when her 'day' was..they said tomorrow. (mind you they were having a special for half off dogs, so Im sure she would have gotten adopted) I couldnt say no! So it was set she was the baby we were taking home! Justin then walked around & found Vega...I kept saying no and he wanted to trade Bella for Vega and I said no way, I was already too in love. We ended up getting Vega.. We left that day & couldn't pick up the dogs for a few days...meanwhile I picked up my mom & sister. The next day we picked up Bella:) it was amazing...then we got Vega woah she was SO scary once we got her home. I tried to understand, but I was terrified. 2 or 3 days later Bella wound up in the hospital with parvo=( It was horrible & I thought she was going to die. We managed to save her, and it was amazing. The whole time my mom & sister were here we spend time doing things around texas, visiting white sands, hiking up the mts & going on the tram.

June -Justin did some lame field time..which didn't end till the middle of July. Our stinking laptop crashed...so I went a couple weeks without a laptop but then I finally caved & got a new laptop. Woooo, I got a mac...&& boy do I love this thing! Best decision ever!

July -July 4th weekend=best weekend ever.Although I didn't realize it was going to be such a great weekend till a few weeks later! Yessss people -Im talking about the weekend I got pregnant with my Alyssa (the 5th to be exact, haha). I thought for sure there was no way I would be pregnant because I ovulated a few days after he left and since I had sex ON ovulation & never got pregnant it deff wasn't happening when I couldnt even have sex ON it. July 22nd -My period was due, I was sure it was coming but for some reason I got it stuck in my head that I HAD to test that day because it was a friday & if I DIDNT test then I wouldn't be able to go to the doctors that day & I wouldn't get my progesterone...I got myself all crazy then was like dude calm down your NOT pregnant...so I tested anyways when 12:30 hit n I still wasn't pregnant (besides I was supposed to swim that day). To my BIG HUGE surprise...I was freaking pregnant. First person I called was Sandra -freaking the hell out. I left her a message crying telling her call me back asap it was an emergency. She called right back, scared to death. Then I called Justin crying my eyes out, he had to calm me down AGAIN. Telling me this was a good thing (duh, haha). Then I called my mom...who had to calm me down- again! Lynnelle (yeaahh I know) was who I had plans with so I told her I couldn't go swimming and might need a ride to the doctors (who btw work half days on friday, oops haha). She took me to the TMC where they gave me another test, and told me I was deff pregnant. I felt like I was on cloud nine, but I was also so terrified this would be our third miscarriage. Justin & I went to dinner at carinos to celebrate! I spend the rest of the weekend on the couch, scared to death to move. My doctor was out of town -go figure. So I went in monday for blood work....Tues I started spotting -I thought for sure it was over, even though it was VERY VERY VERY light & nothing like how my previous two miscarriages were I was scared to death. The doctors office told me to to the this other doctors office so Liz (bless her heart) took me down there...they didn't even see me & said to go to the hospital... I went and spent a few hours there. The spotting stopped, but they did an ultrasound (I begged). I got the see the flicker of my beautiful baby, it was the most amazing feeling in the entire world! My levels were outstanding, but they wanted me to get them re-checked in a few days. So I went to OB sickcall on post, where I was told I don't have a referral for pregnancy & she didn't really know what to do since it was confirmed I was pregnant OFF post and she didn't know my numbers so she wouldn't be able to tell me if they doubled..I told her I knew them & so if she could just tell me the numbers I would know. She said we would 'confirm' pregnancy. She called with the results and YESSS they were great. Thank God! She then told me since I already had a doctor off post she would help me stay off post, and she did!<3 Ohhhh -we also gave Vega to someone else this month....after she attacked my face! (I dont miss her at all lol)

Aug -the 2nd was my first ultrasound with my doctor! Justin got to go because he was on leave:) I got my first picture of our daughter. We planned to leave for MI that day, and so right after my appointment giving us permission to go home...we put everything in the car & got Bella ready to go. We got about 2 hours or so when the AC blew out -we turned back around once we realized it wasn't getting fixed & there was no way we were driving the rest of the way with no AC. Justin turned OLD on the 4th, haha -Jk hes 23 now:)) The rest of Aug was spent going to the doctor, getting checked, ultrasounds & trying not to freak out about every little pregnancy sign!

Sept- I made it out of the first trimester though -which was the biggest success for us & we were sooo thankful! We celebrated our 7 years together on the 3rd & then 2 years married on the 26th!<3<3 I love that man so stinking much!!<33

Oct- Justin was leaving for the field & was going to miss finding out the sex. So we decided to go ahead & try the free college at 15weeks6days (Oct 13th) just to see if MAYBE they could see something and Justin could possibly be there, but if not at least he'd get to see the baby:) That was the day we found out Alyssa was a girl:) They said they saw her vagina but they didn't want to say 100% sure because it was so early. :))))) I then went to my doctor who confirmed (and I have had tons of ultrasounds confirming haha because I was scared haha). Justin spent half the month in the field -lame!

Nov -Justin spent pretty much the whole field in the month, and came home just in time for thanksgiving:) We celebrated thanksgiving with our friends at Jessica's house -it was a blast:) Then I did my FIRST all night shopping spree with Vicki! We left around 9:30pm and got home around 6am (I believe). I got TONS of toys for our daughter:)) and Kylee (her daughter who is actually here haha) got beyond spoiled as well:)))

Dec -Came & went pretty quickly. On the 15th I came home:DD Which is where I am now...and on the 18th I had my amazing baby shower!<3<3 I have been busy since Ive been home running around trying to spend time with everyone:)) anddd now its new years eve...Jen & I are lame as hell, and we are just hanging out all night sitting on the couch, haha. What a way to party, haha!

On that note -2011 wasn't horrible, even though it started horrible! But now Im ready for a NEW YEAR ---heres to us finally being parents<3<3<3

christmas leave

I haven't blogged in ages because I have been at HOMEEE<3 I have been beyond busy, usually when I come home to visit Im busy, but no where near this busy. People are just piling up to see me, it feels great...but I feel horrible that I haven't been able to make time for everyone.

Lets try to recap vacation so far. I got in on Weds evening the 15th, LATE. We stayed the night at my Aunt Vicki's house, and we stayed up till about 2 am visiting..it was tons of fun! The next morning we all got up ate some breakfast & spent a little more time together before we hit the road. It was so great to spend time with them! I fly out on the 6th early in the morning so on the 5th we are gong to drive back up to detroit and spend the day with them again, can't wait<3 Friday mom had to go back to work so Jen & I spent the day together, I stopped by to see Jill & Betsey. Always so wonderful to see them, then we stopped by Amandas & spent some time with her. For dinner we went to pizza hut with Lindsay & Jay. So I got to see some of my pizza hut friends too. It was nice, and of course the food was amazing!!! Saturday we spent the day running around getting ready for my wonderful baby shower. Mom, Jen, Amanda, Kendra, Sandra, Seth, Kylee & I all went to lunch at this mexican place in Benton harbor, it was pretty good. Then we went straight to McDonalds to visit was Tara, Kloe & Jaymes. They are growing like weeds, its unreal. <3 ....

 Sunday was my BIG DAY the baby shower:) A lot of people showed up, and I had a great time. It was so wonderful to see everyone! I got so many great gifts...and a ton more after the shower from people who couldn't make it. It was so amazing and I owe a BIG thanks to my mom for throwing it for me!!<3 I  have gotten so many gifts since I have gotten home that I seriously don't know how the heck I am getting everything home haha. We will figure something out Im sure:))<3 Thanks again to everyone who came, and everyone who couldn't make it but still got me gifts!!!<3

Monday was back to a normal day..and to be honest I can't remember for the life of me what I did haha. Tuesday I went over to visit Lindsay, Aunt Cathy & Jay<3 Weds -Me, Justin, Jen, Amanda, Kendra, Sandra, Levi, Seth, Kylee, Krystal & Kenzie all went to bouceland...oh but first the girls went shopping at the mall for a few things! :) After bounce land Jen, mom & I met up with the family to see them at Mcdonalds since Amy & Ashlyn were only in town for a day. Then Thursday was dinner with Amanda & Whitney, and Im not sure if I did anything in the evening, I think Lindsay might have came over to hang out! Then Friday was dinner with Sandra, Lindsay, Jen & Jay...then to target & then Lindsay came over in the evening to hang out:) Saturday was Christmas eve mom had to work till 6 so Justin & I went to spend some time with his mom, dad & Lee! Then in the evening we just spend time with the family & Lindsay came over again:)) Sunday was CHRISTMASSS:D I spent the morning with mom & Jen..then the afternoon with Justins family & then in the evening we had Christmas dinner at home. Then we went to the movies to see we bought a zoo, it was a really cute movie:) Monday mom had the whole day off so we went to cousin aunt Lauras and spend time with that side of the family..it was tons of fun but a VERYYY long 3 1/2 hour drive lol. Then yesterday Justin, Jen & I went to get out massages from cousin aunt Carole that my awesome mom bought us (and Jens was free for her birthday), they were AMAZING. Then we went back to Carole's house & we just hung out all evening and had dinner! NOWWW Today....Justin & I went to lunch with Sandra, Levi & Levis sister (and all the kids) and now I am home enjoying some down time while Jen & mom are at the gym. I came home & soaked in the bathtub for a little bit..and now Im finishing up this blog! Lindsay & possibly Aunt Cathy are coming over for dinner...so that should be fun:)

I can't believe how busy I am, and how I only have a few days left..its unbelievable. I have been having a lot of fun, but I am so very tired! lol. I miss my own home & everything. I must say its great being in MI but I deff wouldn't want to move back home...life is just too great in texas haha. Although Im sure it would be a little different if I actually had my own place here, hah. I got so many amazing gifts for Alyssa so I can't wait go home & put it all up!! Im so excited to see what else I need...ahhh. I can't believe how soon until Alyssa is going to be here...in a few days it will be 13weeks left. Wow...I can't even wait to meet my beautiful daughter<3<3

I love my husband!

In exactly one week at this time I will be having my baby shower in Michigan! Gosh I can't even begin to explain how excited I am for this! I can't wait to see everyone that I haven't seen in wayy too long. Ahhhh. Im so excited. I go home on Weds -just a few more days!:P Im going to start packing tomorrow I think...or maybe tonight (If I started feeling better). Which I have to say EVERY SINGLE TIME I got home something happens usually I get super sick right before I go -this time is no different. Ive come to the conclusion I get so sick so Im not getting all excited & stuff about coming home..because Im too worried about feeling miserable...also so I dont get sick at home.

Friday I went shopping with Vicki & Carah after the hubbies got off work..we went to Ross & Kolhs. I'm so excited to say I got my mom something really cute from Ross for Christmas, Im sure shes gonna love it:D Carah got her mommy one too...and Vicki got her mom one as a joke LOL. (sounds weird that Carah & I got our moms one for REAL and Vicki as a joke...but its true LOL). I'm SUPER excited because my awesome friend Nikki told me they had the toy bins thing I wanted to get Alyssa at Ross for only $20. A lot of people said not to get it but a few said they had it and loved it. I wasn't going to go for it, but I figured I wouldn't find something like this for the price. I was extremely happy to find out it was metal & not wood. Cheap metal of course lol. But I put it together and its EXACTLY what I wanted. I was wanting something little for her little toys (pretty much all her used toys I have picked up from the Jr enlisted, yard sale & thrift shop...mostly of jr enlisted though lol)..and every toy I wanted to fit in there ended up fitting. So Im super happy. I still need a BIG toy box for the living room but that can obviously wait.

Yesterday, I came down with something, Idk what. I've got diarrhea horribly. Yesterday I spent the entire day in bed & in the bathroom. Usually when I'm sick I don't eat anything but maybe a cracker or too because I really just don't have an desire to eat. But with miss Alyssa in the womb thats just not possible. Yesterday I didn't eat a lot, but when I did...bad things happened:( I've been drinking lots of water so I dont get dehydrated. Today I'm feeling a little better, so hopefully thats the end of all that nonsense.

Last night Justin & I were laying in bed and Alyssa was going nuts in there! lol. I could see my belly moving all over the place, so I told Justin to watch it. Well he didn't wait long before putting his hand on there...and once she kicked he was like WOAH. He was so surprised at how much stronger shes gotten already. He was like how is she even that strong?? lol. I was pretty shocked too it was like over night she got that much stronger LOL. She's starting to move higher up too. Its pretty amazing. I swear anytime I ask someone when this is going to happen a week or so later it starts happening. I guess I need to slow down:P I have to say my husband is super adorable when it comes to me being pregnant. He always jokes around & calls me fat. But hes the first person bringing me home sweets when he goes to the store. LOL. Hes always bringing me choc & krispy kremes -great man:) Yesterday he put his hand on my belly & he was like why aren't you that big? Im like what LOL..hes like well other pregnant chicks are like this big and all huge..he did the movements with his hands making them all huge...and hes like your really not that big lol. I was like idk but thanks haha. Then he puts his head by my belly & kisses Alyssa and randomly talks to her. It's super sweet...things like that make he think hes going to be such an amazing father! Im so excited to see him hold her for the first time ...ahh a dream come true!<3<3 I love that we are getting a family! Such an amazing blessing!

Well, I'm going to lay back down, maybe watch a movie or something!

Brr its cold outside

I thought I moved to Texas to get AWAY from the snow? This is our second year here...and our second year with snow. Of course its nothing like Michigans snow- which Im totally grateful for. Last night I started snowing & we got a freeze. So far (at least this is what I have heard via facebook) there has been 180 car accidents since last night...and at least one death. I was reading peoples comments about how El Paso doesn't salt the roads because it just doesn't snow enough it make it worth it cost wise.....I think saving someones live is worth it. Just saying.... Hopefully we don't have as many pipe problems as we did last year...or everyone losing power. That was just CRAZY. I have to admit as cold as it is and how miserable I am..its still beautiful.  Justin got a two hour delay to go into work..which kind of sucks because he was supposed to go to the board for e5. Hopefully they will still go today, and if not today..later this week. Bella saw snow for the first time....and gosh she loves it. This morning she kept CRYING and CRYING so I finally let her outside..Im gonna let her play for 30 mins and see if thats good enough for her. Crazy dog.

I was planning on giving Justin the car for today anyways...but now it kind of sucks because Im actually really stuck in the house. I don't wanna call any of my friends because the roads are so bad....and I don't want to go anywhere because people can't drive and I don't want to put Alyssa & I in danger. Last year we had this for a few days I didn't leave my house either. I'm just not taking chances...not to mention this year if I get into any type of accident at all I have to go to L&D to get checked out. Not my idea of a good time.

I'm soo ready to go home...not ready for all the cold at home. But deff ready to be in Michigan & see everyone. Exactly one week & one day...I'll be flying home<3 Gosh I can't wait. I can't believe after all the baby showers & kids birthday parties I'm finally having MY OWN baby shower. Seems so unreal.  I hope Alyssa does lots of kicking durning the shower for everyone! I also hope the weather is good in Michigan so no one has to miss it due to stupid weather! Alyssa's room is coming together very nicely. I couldn't be more excited!! I even leave the door open most of the time so that when I walk to the bathroom or my room I can peak in her room!:P Sometimes I just walk in there...everything is put away nicely...but I just want to do more!! I found the most awesome shelve at goodwill yesterday for only 4 bucks. It's blue but Vicki is going to help me paint it pink & hang it up!:D I wish I could go to walmart or hobby lobby RIGHT NOW so I could get started on it lol. I hate when I have unfinished projects laying around.

I guess I don't have much else to say..